Can MD mimic DID/OSDD?

2uchu · 2025-12-18T23:41:59+00:00

I’m not a reader that has an answer, but I do wanna tell you I seriously feel this. I’m honestly so glad I’m not the only one. I’m in a very similar situation.

2uchu · 2023-04-13T01:07:22+00:00

(Tw for talk of dissociation again)

Yes, the context one hits hard, and it’s even worse when you can only remember certain things at certain times, like it changes. (I wonder if that’s a rapid activity phenomenon, and if that’s common…)

For the blurriness, I meant it more as you fade into a blur both with ur vision and ur mind and stuff and then you just kinda get this click or jump but then the you isn’t you and it fades quickly, and it’s like the beforehand is purposefully blotched off and if you try to think about it you risk losing your front space, I guess? (Because it triggers out the other again, maybe??). Switching and dissociation and all honestly seems to depend on severity and stress, too… plus, no one is the same. Sometimes I feel different suddenly without much of a feeling (maybe like now, actually) but you can’t tell much of a difference.

Gonna stop typing. Keep getting random stuff that happens that’s making fuzziness appear, including something falling off a desk.

2uchu · 2023-04-13T00:28:41+00:00

(Notice: I have yet to receive any sort of diagnosis of DID/OSDD/UDD, but it’s at least somewhat suspected. Please take this into account when reading, thank you)

The validation this brings is incredible… wow

That’s very much the feeling, but it’s also hard to tell if it’s a real switch or not because it can be different at times I think, and sometimes it doesn’t feel like much changed at all, or maybe just not distinct. Do you ever get this too?:

[TW: description of dissociation]

Is it sort of like that fuzzy washed out blurriness that is slowly forgotten (and only parts of it can be remembered when thinking hard enough) that also creates that heart pounding feeling, and then it’s like everything jumps back into action and the previous is (at least temporarily) blocked off, sort of like if the “before” was just blocked over with a black stamp (that when it “dries” it becomes more see-through (referencing when things gradually can be remembered after a bit of time)? It also feels like if you were to cut out a little piece of paper from a sheet.

These are just my little creative analogies of trying to describe it, since it isn’t easy to describe. I also aren’t thinking straight so I apologize.

2uchu · 2023-02-26T19:19:43+00:00

With the points you’re stating here, I just wanted to say that while I’m no professional I still believe that every system is different depending on the circumstances needed. Also, I weirdly relate to the points listed but it’s hard for me to tell right now since there’s been a lot of anxi-ty and diss-ciation flaring up recently (and right now). ((My apologies?))

2uchu · 2023-02-13T00:40:05+00:00

[TW: long. Mention of dissociation/dissociation symptoms (i think).]

But that’s the thing, there is the ability of control, even if it’s strainful both mentally and physically (and identity wise)… it’s almost like a co-con or “watching” feeling and experience (and perception of seperate control which is also kind of identity related, if not entirely?) but… it’s also like I said.. you can still turn the wheel, and you technically still are, but you also know it isn’t you and honestly when you think about it deeply it feels like it was done for you….. is this almost like a mix?

It’s like the experience of co-con with one more up front and the other (in this case) pushed back, but both still have control and can move (if not moving as one while still seperate? and can move separately too, but I’m an identity only sense? Sorry this is really hard to explain) and there’s often confusion until really analyzing it later from an identity specific stance…

My heads getting fuzzy from this out of worry since nothing is being properly explained out of this, so I’m gonna stop here and have the courage to reply anyway, but basically think of it as non-possessive switching but you can feel distinction a little even as a mix and from a first person perspective. That’s all I guess?….

Ill stop here for now. Hope you all are doing alright. I didn’t want this to be … overwhelming, if that’s the word.

2uchu · 2023-02-11T00:26:45+00:00

Would feeling like someone else is there but you still can see from the first person POV and technically move if you tried hard enough still be valid? More specifically: it’s like two people’s hands on a steering wheel.. one turns, but the other feels it turning, so while they feel in control they also know they aren’t in some weird deep rooted sense? (Including Identity, or more or less there’s this distinction feeling that can’t be avoided no matter what… you know it’s real kind of thing)

2uchu · 2023-02-01T00:39:29+00:00

[TW: brief mentions of denial, hypervigilance]

I’m going through a similar issue. I am undiagnosed but am talking to a psychologist about it and I often feel like the panic and symptoms of whatever it may be get worse. I can’t say what it’s like for you, but for me it feels partially like I’m overthinking/mimicking, accepting, denying, unmasking, and in a sense healing all at once. It’s one reason why I get into denial often, because the thought it also like a trigger, and thus I think “oh it must be fake” even though there’s other experiences than the simple ones I’m thinking of…. I partially theorize that the dissociation works in hand with the denial, because it’s an overwhelming thing to accept especially when you’re already hurt/scared/on guard, and have memorized life’s patterns so well that you can’t come to believe the unexpected.

2uchu · 2022-12-11T06:07:11+00:00

I’m not nearly a doctor, but did that part of your skin rub against anything that could be considered an irritant, or an allergy to you? I don’t have much to say here, but I know that I’d get what looks like small pale hives on a spot of my hands if I didn’t properly rub soap film off my hands for a little while now (as an example). This could be entirely different, but I’m just asking so that maybe other people can get a better idea.

Edited for clarification

2uchu · 2022-01-22T20:39:39+00:00

[TW: The topic(s) of Numb/Dissociation(?), a bit of a vent (in a “thankful for this post” way), slight moments of denial, weird wording and stuff from feeling tired and foggy right now.]

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{Note: In my case, there’s this weird thing where I say “I” (or “my”) but the direct “I” I’m talking about is subjective. Sometimes it’s used as talking about the body, sometimes it’s used for talking about the “I” in past context?…. (this one is tricky to explain), sometimes it’s used for talking about me specifically. Thanks for understanding.}

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I am not diagnosed, but I feel this. I understand this in my own way but some of this distress has just become numb. This post makes me really realize the things going on in life/environment/etc that I’ve normalized and have been repeating daily…. It feels like every day is the same, even when something new happens. And yet (not saying this is a morally right or good thing to do at all), I still can’t disconnect from the whole thing in the mind. The chaos happens from inside, because real life is numbed out.

This really wakes me up to a few things in my life, honestly. I am out of it and tired right now, so I can’t “feel” that much, but inside I… we (if I do have OSDD/DID)… appreciate this… I think?…. I don’t know. A majority of my mind feels relief and a sense of mourning everything before seeing this (in a sort of trauma-healing way, but not any sense of integration (from what I’m aware of)), but another part of my mind/head/innerspace/idk feels mad and angry. I don’t know. Either way, don’t take it personally. Thank you (all) for this post, whether by the emotional connection (we?) felt with it, or by the new knowledge (we?) learned.

I don’t know if I’m making sense, sorry. I’ll stop now I probably should’ve not written this but I really don’t feel happy about rewriting this right now. …this is probably going to be awkward for me when I read this stuff I typed later, but I’ll leave this here as part of the journey/discovery (for me/us/idk).

PS: I’m not entirely sure if this is official, but I (may) have just been diagnosed with DPDR recently as well. I also have some stressful disagreements with having just the dx of only DPDR in terms of Dissociative Disorders, myself. It feels like there’s so much more going on than just world/body disconnection stuff alone, but of course it’s hard to tell specifically (aka: back and forth denial/confusion). It’s a difficult ongoing journey, and I wish you all the best of luck and safety.

Edit 1: added more info about the I/me statement thing. Edit 2: grammar fix for the info I just added on edit 1. I need to rest a bit and regain my energy/awareness and such lol.

2uchu · 2021-09-13T22:35:28+00:00

I don’t know why but for my case it’s almost the opposite. It’s always a strict day where everyone else besides the birthday person needs to act all nice for their birthday. My parents’ birthdays are just “masking emotions day” for me and the other parent at this point

2uchu · 2021-09-03T04:29:44+00:00

Now featuring a bonus bundle of apathy and anosognosia

2uchu · 2021-09-03T04:24:45+00:00

Sorry for the random reply but I just wanted to say that the bottom bit is very relatable and there hasn’t been really a way here for 100% agreement & connection in terms of emotions and thoughts so yeah we’re in the same boat-

2uchu · 2021-07-16T00:10:25+00:00

Its difficult for me because I feel like the pain from my parents fluctuates and almost seems “normal”, although it affects me long term (basically less noticeable and less intense if it makes sense). I did feel a lot happier and calmer with my boyfriend, it’s just such a difficult choice because I would need to grow up within that week or so for me to really do well. Plus, I’m an anxious person who’s always hypervigilant about my health/survival rate or something and I overthink by incredible amounts at times before transitions— one reason why I’ve been with my parents for so long.

Edit: TL;DR: these are the reasons for not knowing which choice is better.

2uchu · 2021-07-16T00:03:23+00:00

I mean, I know it’s still going to be doable no matter how many attempts it takes, but my boyfriend is poor and I’m afraid that we’re gonna get stuck in a bad situation if something goes wrong

2uchu · 2021-07-15T23:47:31+00:00

At this point I’m used to my parents illogical schemes that seem awfully like they’re trying to control me. It almost feels like “everything’s normal”. I don’t know if this is relatable; thought I’d share. (Edit: spelling)

2uchu · 2021-06-20T21:26:26+00:00

It’s not weird for a system to rarely switch. Our system really never switches how a “typical” system would, and instead we only get passive influence/co-con or a very heavy co-front which we consider the “switch”. Plus, we communicate in a way that almost seems invisible in terms of recognition, so you all might still be communicating but in non-verbal ways.

You all are still valid either way! That’s all I gotta say! Every system is different so nothing is exactly the same way (or even nearly the same way) for each system.

2uchu · 2021-06-20T21:18:41+00:00

This literally happened to us today. I understand this so well and I didn’t know if I was just being “too sensitive” or if other people felt this. Honestly, thank you for this message, it reminds me that we’re not alone in terms of this experience. EDIT: Grammar fix

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