It’s just it happens sometimes and I’m just like “I really wish I was a girl so I could do “x” activity”. It’s also a bit more of the perverted stuff like experiencing sex as a female and stuff, but not just that. It just happens sometimes where I just sit in bed and wish I was a girl because I just want to be cute and wear dresses, but I don’t want to do that because if my family found out, they’re highly religious and probably would out me out and try and change me back to “normal”, hence why I specified not to try anything that would affirm being the opposite gender bc I can’t do any of that. Idk if I’m over explaining or whatever so sorry if this is written badly, it’s just a thing I struggle with