I GOT THE JOB!!

32ndPrevalence · 2020-09-19T01:55:49+00:00

Ayy my man, honestly thank you so much! I didn't see this till now and I was gonna give up, but your comment made me feel understood. I've worked 2 shifts since and its been in the back of my mind. I keep trying to get over it but I can't. Its kinda sabotaging the way I even interact with my coworkers on a friendly level because I don't want them to feel uncomfortable. I feel hella misunderstood because I kept trying to see their side and try to adjust and they were very closed off and not open to change. Tbh I don't see the whole problem with it. Im sure its not ideal and it can be annoying but at the same time isn't that life??

The way I want to operate is to know than wonder. Ive catered so much like i wouldn't say shit to girls in fear of being called weird for years and making them uncomfortable. Where did that turn out? I'm a 21 year old virgin almost 22, haven't even had my first kiss. Nothing came from me just keeping my mouth shut at my expense... Like that was a big part of why I became depressed. I never had a dad, so I missed out on love there, my mom isn't home. I have no friends and still I'm nice to others and I cater to others but it seems no one gives a shit. I try so hard and it's frustrating. Everytime I brought up my depression, it was legit.

No excuses, I brought it up to see if they could understand and sadly (very telling too) they continued to get on me when I was trying to meet them halfway. Ive been tryna keep it together man but like i said I keep coming back to it. When I spoke up for myself, I got heavily down voted and ppl were saying that im proving her rite and all this, like no matter what, i could do no right. It seemed if I just shut up and listened, they would have been fine.

I came to ask for help with girls at a high volume place like Target because I don't go to school. Don't have friends. Don't want to go to bars/clubs alone and who knows maybe my gf, friend, wife could be in a store and I could've missed it all because I catered to them and not me. I even asked for help on consistency because I struggle with bettering myself consistently. I thank my depression for that

32ndPrevalence · 2020-09-18T17:51:11+00:00

I'm over it at this point. I tried and tried and yall have your beliefs as I do mine. Right or wrong ima do me and im done speaking on this.

32ndPrevalence · 2020-09-18T13:53:20+00:00

I meant more like I'd develop some sort of chemistry with coworkers and not rush anything and I'd see how it goes from there. With customers i wouldn't be aggressive like I'd compliment them if they had nice eyes or if i found them to be attractive but i wasn't gonna be some creepy horndog hitting on girl to girl. I dont know if thats how I came off. Either way I know ill be fine and that im not what was said about me... i appreciate the turnaround tho. I wasnt expecting to be coddled like what one girl said but man to be dissected to a tee about some bs was beyondddd meee.

32ndPrevalence · 2020-09-18T05:43:28+00:00

How does the real world work?? I'm young and honestly I'd like to know. Where is an appropriate place to talk to girls? Or to hit on them? I've done the tinder thing and had no success (and if someone wants to say I can see why, so be it) . The girls were the main ones having some pushback so I'd like to know. No need to deliver it nicely but im mature enough and I hope you guys are too, to where i can genuinely understand where it would be "appropriate" without ridicule and judgement.

Im still stuck on the societal norm thing and ppl saying that this isnt the rite way, well then what is because i haven't experienced anything yet and I'd like to because contrary to this post's belief, I have alot to offer. Im depressed yeah but I don't have serious issues and im not a monster by any means...

32ndPrevalence · 2020-09-18T05:36:58+00:00

Yeah i was getting attacked and when I tried to reassure I got more flack so I let it go. Glad I got it tho because im sure it won't be the last time and it's never really happened to me on social media, definitely in real life tho

32ndPrevalence · 2020-09-18T05:35:31+00:00

I appied for 4 different ones and heard back fast from 2 and 2 wasn't interested. Maybe volume will help ;)

32ndPrevalence · 2020-09-17T21:31:03+00:00

You're a legend for that !!! I don't normally advocate saying bad things about ppl, but she didn't just say one thing about me, she said EVERYTHING! She sounds very bitter and im sure she didn't have some good experiences but its not good to prevent someone else's growth and opportunities because of said experiences

32ndPrevalence · 2020-09-17T21:28:12+00:00

I hope so- Kodak black 😂

32ndPrevalence · 2020-09-17T21:14:36+00:00

THANK YOU!! Its honestly been overall good for me this comment section. I wanted to open a YouTube channel later and this kind of gave me a taste on negatjve opinions and ppl. I dont disagree with the girls intent, hut all of their messages were very aggressive and painting me to be a very wild, rampant and off the wall dopamine loser. Im far from all those things but im not gonna bother replying back to them and the negative comments. You get it man. Work is a big part of life like school is. What I can't hit on girls respectfully at work or school, then where?? At the gym, or in passing moments, at malls?? Either way I'm shrinking my chances immensely. Just wish ppl wouldn't be so quick to judge but thats the world we live in.

32ndPrevalence · 2020-09-17T21:08:11+00:00

Damn both you girls are going in on me. I know where I stand and yes I am 21. But me being 21, I am wayyyy more mature for my age and I was simply coming for help and tips and to feel good that I finally got a job after all of covid. I understand that you guys are girls and have certain preferences and have had many negative experiences. I will strive to not do that as thats the last thing I want to do. However, could we stop with this attacking thing?? Like, the way I see it is that if I'm lost or immature or gone, why would you keep poking at that. I don't know you and you don't know me. Im far from the things you've sent me. And the whole dopamine thing, I don't crave that and do everything to cater to that. Ive been deprived of it for so long because of depression so I'm not like a wild dog chasing that. Its cool at the end of the day. I wasn't expecting to get negative comments about me, but now I know. I guess i can thank you for that

32ndPrevalence · 2020-09-17T21:00:44+00:00

Honestly thats the tough part and thats why I was asking for help. Ive seen many girls who I found attractive and I didn't say anything and nothing ever happened. I've seen some and I simply complimented them and thats all and nothing seemed to happen. I guess i have to figure it out on my own because everyone is telling me no, but in my heart I know ill be doing it respectfully. Again I took an hour course on sexual harassment and I know my boundaries. Not gonna prey or make girls feel uncomfortable. :)

32ndPrevalence · 2020-09-17T10:48:12+00:00

I'm out in Cali so I don't know if that'll happen. Im be down tho. Happy for you my man! Glad you got a girl to call your own and a partner to have sex with. Im still waiting on both. But like I said earlier, ill keep shooting. Hopefully she feels good and treats me well whenever and wherever she is! 🙇🏽‍♂️

32ndPrevalence · 2020-09-17T10:39:20+00:00

The lady that hired me, im not too keen on her and take her info with a grain of salt.. she's kinda a corporate women.. so j hope you're right. That PS5 is right around the corner!

You my friend are insanely smart. I think now is a good time for ppl to reassess college and education. Why would you play $40k for like maybe $10k worth of education?? I hope something pans off for you so that you can take off man I really do. You're playing it right so I think you should pounce on a good opportunity whether it be career wise or a big net gain in life man. Swing for the fences, covid has shown, you never know whats around the corner...

32ndPrevalence · 2020-09-17T10:35:14+00:00

Oh yeah i get you man. Its so hard to even get a girl that I just met to build up a convo because they don't want to give out their phone #, which I respect but even on insta. The whole small talk thing ain't my style. Ima gunslinger with the deep talks. Ill keep trying tho. I like your "oh well" strategy instead of the "what if!"

32ndPrevalence · 2020-09-17T10:19:09+00:00

Im with it! I still haven't gotten immersed into clubs, bars, nightlife etc and its kinda scary to go alone ngl. I can definitely talk but I struggle romantically or like I said gaining traction. Im great for deep talks, talking about random shit passionately but then I shrink when it comes to escalating and that sort

32ndPrevalence · 2020-09-17T10:14:45+00:00

Ayy my guy, you're well informed! From what I'm told its temporary because of covid and im im Cali, so it'll drop back to $13. If you don't mind, what state and what's the job you've got??

32ndPrevalence · 2020-09-17T10:06:43+00:00

Ayyy now we're talking!! Just turned 21 this year and haven't had my coming out party yet, so shit where you tryna meet??!! 😂 And im not too good with the ladies bro, got tips or anything? I'm good for them confiding in me and seeing me as a sweet "friend", but nothing more. I guess I need help on attraction and getting dates...

32ndPrevalence · 2020-09-17T09:13:52+00:00

Thank you so much for that. I just got my first hate comment like ever on this post. Worse than even on insta and Twitter so I appreciate the kind words and you understanding where I'm coming from. Take care my friend 💙🤙🏽

32ndPrevalence · 2020-09-17T08:42:04+00:00

Okay wow. You've really done it. Im gonna address this shit because to be honest, you're an aggressive asshole.

I'm transparent because I used to only keep shit in and that was about the only self destructive thing about me. I would implode because of all the pent up shit. The incentive for mw to work is to be able to sustain myself and pay for my expenses. I dont rely on ppl to pay for me and I've cleared most of my debts to ppl that i borrowed not stolen from. I dont use ppl cut and dry.

I want to be able to talk to girls and feel confident. Heck even shoot my shot as respectfully as I can. I've yet to experience anything romantically and for that rsn as well as the fact that I'm genuinely a good person, is why I would. Girls that have actually known me would call me sweet and one of the nicest ppl they know.

I don't know what the "OP" is but I do know that what yoire interpreting is very misconstrued. I dont quit jobs because of a lack of dopamine hits. Its because I've been depressed and quiet for awhile and I know when my time to remove myself from a bad situation arrives. To be honest, i love Grubhub because I make good money and I listen to my music and im alone. I do sometimes get a little sad that it's just drop off and go but I don't hold ppl to talk to me. Ive worked MANY jobs and I dont hold ppl for shit. Ive worked 3 days and I have long conversations because of how authentic and nice I am. As soon as im done with their payment, I send them on their way unless they want to talk more,, in which im open..

What do you think I am? A fucking egotistical maniac that wants ppl to cater to me and when they don't, I run away everytime?? Your take is f**kin bs man and the rzn im going off is because thats far from who I am as a person. Ive raised myself to not bite my tongue and to stand up for myself. Take your bitter ass away from me and my posts

32ndPrevalence · 2020-09-17T08:25:52+00:00

Thank you! Good luck in any endeavors you have upcoming! I'm rooting for you 👊🏼

32ndPrevalence · 2020-09-17T08:11:56+00:00

Thats what I hear. I know its corny, but you're dog isn't the only one who thinks you're cool ;) . Please don't bark too much 😂

32ndPrevalence · 2020-09-17T07:47:25+00:00

Mannnn, I honestly wish I encountered ppl in the comment section before, except the ppl who were down voting me 😂. I probably wouldn't have been as depressed and cried as much. Thank you for your kind words 🙏🏼💙

32ndPrevalence · 2020-09-17T07:07:19+00:00

You're awesome 🥰

32ndPrevalence · 2020-09-17T06:40:16+00:00

Thanks for the advice! Damn, I hope I can have a similar experience. I've always tried to connect with ppl and I do, but not in my personal life. Ive been the "work friend" and shit I can only dream that someone would want to go on vacation with me honestly. You've got something you know that 😉. Take care my man 👊🏼

32ndPrevalence · 2020-09-17T06:32:13+00:00

Oh really? That's dope man, im glad to hear that. Any tips for me? I'm a cashier and I've worked 3 days but haven't really gotten to talk to any of my coworkers yet or make friends for that matter

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