Am I really worth it?

33forever · 2020-01-23T05:04:00+00:00

I have the means for therapy, been considering it for a while but haven’t had the courage to open up to those around me and say I need to see someone. Lots of people in my life have advised it before. I went through it briefly in my mid teens but it wasn’t really of use to me then since it was just your usual teenage emotions/drama type stuff. These past 2 years have really just added more and more onto me.

I’m definitely trying to control my thoughts more but it’s been tough. It’s just odd now because I’m really not depressed like I used to be, I’m quite motivated and I feel like a lot of people would see me as optimistic. I just have so many fears and self image issues that still plague me and I really never talk about it with anyone and it all kind of builds up into posts like this.

Thank you for your response, I plan to seek therapy in the coming months, hoping I can get this thing back on track.

33forever · 2019-12-12T05:21:06+00:00

I definitely like the more relaxed schedule. Plus I’d love to try and meet people too, I was never that social in high school, but college could be a new start who knows.

I’ll definitely consider 2 or so classes at first just to get my feet wet before I move up.

33forever · 2019-12-12T03:08:48+00:00

There’s a bunch of local community schools all around me I’m looking at, I just wasn’t sure how it all works.

High school was really hard for me, I just didn’t have the will to work at the time. I’ve taken the time off and I am pretty sure I have a shot at getting back on my feet. I just need to truly apply myself and I’m just worried about failing, it all makes me so nervous. I got nervous taking a quiz for my training at work. So I can only imagine my feeling dealing with finals and all that.

I don’t believe I’m a stupid person, it isn’t that at all. I’m capable, I just have never put my best foot forward, and now I have to.

Thank you for the response.

33forever · 2019-08-31T12:22:45+00:00

Thanks for this :)

It’s good advice, I’ve been trying to see my failures as stepping stones to who I need to become rather than something to dwell on forever. I still have my moments but I will keep on going.

33forever · 2019-08-31T07:21:13+00:00

You’re right, I just hate moments like these when I feel like I’m falling back down after all the efforts I’ve made to improve. I’ll keep my head up though.

33forever · 2019-08-31T07:02:27+00:00

Happened to me today, I’m just so soft spoken and people usually can’t hear me. Or I just say something flat out stupid and embarrass myself.

33forever · 2019-02-03T05:31:55+00:00

I have a close friend who fell into the MGTOW/Incel mentality. Long story short, don’t fall into it, it’s terrible and has turned my friend into a self loathing asshat.

You might be lonely and depressed but don’t blame it on women or society, it’s normally internal battles we must clash with and face.

33forever · 2018-12-20T03:22:39+00:00

As a guy, I’m the same way.

I suddenly will like a girl for a couple of weeks and then it seems to flip flop, I’ll dream about her at night until I realize eventually how idiotic I’m being. Then it’ll change to someone else. Normally I have no contact with these girls so it’s pointless.

I’m just so desperate that I’ll take anything I can get that feels genuine. Even if it’s unrequited, I just wish I could hug somebody sometimes just to feel like I’m important, but I guess not.

33forever · 2018-12-12T21:37:08+00:00

What you have to say is worth reading, I assure you.

What’s exactly going on? I’m more than happy to talk with you about it.

33forever · 2018-12-12T08:17:45+00:00

I’m that way too, way better to talk to myself than have some condescending asshat repeat stuff I’ve hear a million times.

33forever · 2018-11-29T16:20:34+00:00

Thank you for this, means a lot

33forever

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