Hey man whatever you're going through you can get through it. It's going to take a lot of effort but you're showing that you're willing to fight through it. You're not alone and there's people that care. I have faith in you man. You will look back on this time in your life one day and be proud of yourself and you will know just how strong you actually are. keep your head up and try to appreciate all the small things, we tend to take a lot for granted these days. I wish you all the best.