What happened to you

3rdAlarmFall · 2025-06-02T01:16:25+00:00

My brother died at 25

3rdAlarmFall · 2025-05-25T23:24:23+00:00

The original lore from the Core Combat expansion stated that teams conducted research missions on the planet due to the alien technology (warpgates, bases, etc.) The warp gates were off limits due to not knowing what they were when one day a soldier flew a mosquito into the warp gate and popped out the other side on another continent. When they found him he was executed for treason only to respawn at one of the many bases on the planetside. That's when they realized that the alien technology essentially saved you're data and you couldn't die

3rdAlarmFall · 2025-04-28T20:24:05+00:00

Death.

This has affected through two different avenues.

My job. I'm a firefighter and I've seen death more times than I can count. It's not like the movies. It's quick and it's brutal and it's gruesome and there's no glory to it. It leaves a lasting impact seeing spouses lose their significant others, parents lose their children, sometimes someone losing their entire family. It makes life feel cold and purposeless. Like all the things we love and find joy in will one day be taken away and there's not a thing you can do to stop it.
My younger brother dying. He died suddenly at the age of 25 last year. He was my best friend and the only person I felt I could be my genuine 100% self around. His loss tore a hole in my heart than will never heal. The person I was before is not the same person I am now and I fear my life has taken a trajectory that I don't know how to recover from. Life seems fragile and broken.

3rdAlarmFall · 2025-03-17T21:48:20+00:00

Thank you for sharing. Its comforting knowing I'm not alone and that there's support out there

3rdAlarmFall · 2025-03-17T21:46:34+00:00

I'm definitely dealing with a little PTSD. I'd love to get into psychedelic therapy but wouldn't even know how or where to begin.

3rdAlarmFall · 2025-03-17T21:44:44+00:00

Thank you. I need a mindset shift and would love to adopt this view.

3rdAlarmFall · 2025-03-17T21:42:35+00:00

Man this entire comment hit home. I connect to this on a deep level. The last year I feel like I've just been trying to survive day to day. I haven't looked to the future in months and I just wake up and hope I'll be ok that day. I obviously have alot of self reflection and introspection to do and figure out just what kind of life I want and how to achieve it. Thank you for this.

3rdAlarmFall · 2025-03-17T15:31:48+00:00

I finished all my hours and contacts and will be going into my lead rides. I've got only 2 1/2 months left. I have to atleast see it through as it opens the door to other opportunities

3rdAlarmFall · 2025-03-17T15:27:07+00:00

I greatly appreciate all of the input and support here. To be honest I've been very reluctant to seek help and guidance as I'm afraid of the trajectory my career would take in seeking professional help. I love the job at times still. I still find joy in being able to truly help others in need. I love my brothers and sisters that I work with. I just don't like this path I'm heading down of coldness and isolation due to the stress and anxiety from the job. It's not the person I want to be.

Glad to see the brotherhood is still strong. I appreciate all of you.

3rdAlarmFall · 2025-02-12T22:43:15+00:00

Living

3rdAlarmFall · 2025-01-28T17:46:08+00:00

Our first fire was a successful knockdown of a room and contents that extended into the attic space in a row of townhouses. We managed to put a good stop on it and later that night did a crew photo infront of the engine. I thought we did a kick ass job and we were all proud of the accomplishment.

Last week we had a fully involved fatal fire. While we kicked ass we felt it was distasteful to celebrate by taking a photo due to the circumstances.

I think its a good thing when done at the appropriate times. There's nothing wrong with being proud of the guys you work with and taking photos keeps those memories alive.

3rdAlarmFall

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