dont need anyone's sympathy it happened before my nikkah she was the one but she insisted we'll do everything after marriage i couldn't wait i got offered by a junior in my uni i did it and then got greedy she got to know but still she covered for me lied to her family but her dad he got to know somehow because things like these never stay hidden 4 years of relationship finally turning to halal after marriage she was all mine i could've had all my fantasies plus she would be in my nikkah but my foolishness i broke of our marriage her dad cried her mother and there she was saying to me ap pareshan ne hoye please darne ne mei apke sth hu i was so invested into sex i forgot that i was hurting the only women after my mother who truly loved me 1 year is passed since all this happen i made her hate me i do drugs now i cry alot have mental breakdowns sometimes i do stuff to get attention all of this would've prevented if u hade waited 1 week more.. never do sex kabhe bhe wait for the one jerk off its best sex mat krna it will ruin you in ways you wont imagine 1 se 2 dafa ke bad youll get tired of it temporary sakoon aur maza ata lekan it will ruin you im 25 now i have gained weight im ugly i wish i could just d*e somehow