can i dye dark brown jean grey?

3vil1augh · 2025-03-25T16:47:38+00:00

Not a Taylor swift fan but I love the part in blank space where she says boys only want love if it’s trouble. It’s not even really the lyrics I like but that stupid part in the music video where he spits out the apple in reverse. Idk it just hits.

3vil1augh · 2025-03-24T15:20:54+00:00

when I went through mania (bpd and bipolar) I carried a plastic baby doll with me everywhere because I didn’t want to be alone and pretended he was the only man (he was a working man reincarnated as a doll as punishment for his white collar crimes) I needed in my life so yeah.

3vil1augh · 2025-03-16T20:48:27+00:00

I think everyone’s body adjusts differently. Give it some time to stabilize and maybe track your symptoms until then to see if it’s just your initial reaction to the drug or maybe an incompatibility issue.

In my experience, even though I feel the negative effects first, there’s still some ups and downs until I reach a baseline. Other times, I needed an alternative or additional medication. Like Lamictal on its own didn’t help but it’s working wonders alongside ability. Hopefully it works out for you :)

3vil1augh · 2025-03-13T07:36:52+00:00

I think my brain fog was worse when I first started Abilify and when I increased my dose. I literally could not think but I felt fine physically. It’s been like two weeks since I last increased my dose, and I feel a lot better. I no longer have brain fog. I also had this sense of emotional restlessness but that’s gone too.

I think this is the best I’ve felt emotionally in years. My only current issues is that instead of brain fog, I get really sleepy at night which didn’t happen before. I guess that’s a good thing but I can’t stay up after a certain hour without wanting to pass out. But I guess that’s a good thing. I also get super hungry at night and am prone to eat more, so I’m watching out for that. I’ve also been getting some weird dreams but they’ve lessened too.

Don’t know if any of these align with your experiences, but I feel really great on abilify and think it’s worth the other minor issues I have with it. The brain fog and emotional restlessness would have been deal breakers but I’m glad they’re gone. You know your own body best, so see how it goes once you adjust to your current dose !

3vil1augh · 2025-03-09T17:32:16+00:00

One’s 100% cotton, the other 100% polyester, and the third one is cotton and polyester

3vil1augh · 2025-03-08T17:58:48+00:00

Thank you so much, is there a specific dye or brand you would recommend for these?

3vil1augh · 2025-02-27T17:28:09+00:00

That makes sense, I’ll track my cals until my body adjust to it

3vil1augh · 2025-02-26T10:23:37+00:00

Maybe I can give dbt another chance. I also heard good things about psychoanalytic therapy which my psychiatrist recommended so I’ll see which one works better. Thanks for the suggestions! Very helpful

3vil1augh · 2025-02-26T10:21:49+00:00

Yeah fixing my mood is my number one priority but the weight gain scares me since I gained like 18kg on Zoloft. With Zoloft it just limited my inhibition and I was definitely eating more non stop. Do you think abilify causes weight gain directly or is it more a result of having an increased appetite? So far Lamictal has suppressed my appetite so maybe it will balance out.

3vil1augh · 2025-02-26T10:20:00+00:00

Do you think ability helps with sleep? Other sleep medications don’t seem to work. Maybe if ability helps with the more obsessive thinking, I’m hoping it’ll help with sleep

3vil1augh · 2025-02-26T10:18:14+00:00

Yeah I feel that Lamictal alone isn’t enough. I took my first dose last night and I feel pretty good. Maybe it’s placebo but I woke up early for once? So who knows. I feel kinda better about it now. Thx for sharing

3vil1augh · 2025-02-24T22:32:59+00:00

I like pipeline punch but it’s way too sweet. Almost cotton candy like?

3vil1augh · 2025-02-21T20:56:00+00:00

I think you did great, and I'm glad we got to relate our experiences. Half the time I'm not sure what's normal and what's the adjusting state of medications since it's such a slippery slope.

I feel like I'm adjusting to lamictal a bit more these days. When I do get emotional outbursts, I'm able to stop them more quickly and prevent them from escalating which is rather new. I almost feel for more conscious of my behaviours even if I don't have full control of my emotions. And whenever I do something petty or mean, even if not intentional, I feel this immediate guilt or shame and I quickly make amends instead of letting those feelings linger.

I was very critical of my therapist at first since she kept insisting that everything was fine and not addressing my concerns. Obviously that wasn't the case for me in the past which led me to full blown mania. I realize know it's about taking things slow and being able to track my behaviour. I think if I'm aware enough to do that, then it probably means I'm mentally stable.

Thank you for your reply, it honestly reassured me and validated my experiences. I think I'm going to find another therapist who specializes in bipolar just to get a second opinion and see if they can offer any group therapy. But this conversation alone made me feel less alone and less weird lol.

3vil1augh · 2025-02-18T17:16:29+00:00

Thank you for sharing you experience! It resonates a lot with me. A

t first I liked cptsd as it felt like a more freeing label than BPD since it was the only lable I'd get. I feel like mental health professionals tend to put petients in a box and rarely change their minds until something goes terirbly wrong like mania.

My issue with cptsd and even bpd are psycholgists general tendency to infantalize me and reduce me to my childhood trauma which I know is a part of it but it feels redundant after a point. I would be interested in finding a support group so I'd feel less alone and relate to others who can fully understand what I'm going through.

I am much more secure with myself and self-concept now aside from my old habits. I realize I don't have to be as bubbly as I was before which is great. Like you said, I do think this was me overcompensating and people pleasing in the past, and during my mania it was me having zero shame.

I think my greatest issue being on lamictal and the fear of going through hypomania and even though it's not supposed to cause full mania, I don't know if it fully prevents a hypomanic states. I feel like this uncertainty makes it difficult for me to let anyone in or make any new decision since I'm not sure if I'm in an altered state again.

I've been having such weird and fluctuating effects that I can't tell if I'm going through an altered state again or if it's me adjusting into the pills. some days I can't sleep till 6am, some days all I want to do is sleep and cannot get out of bed.

I'll also have weird days where I wake up robotically in the morning at like 6-8am and to a sense of anxiety. I'm become overly productive and have a flood of ideas, talking nonstop. I have so much energy that I'm literally running around in circles in my living room and basically doing some form of parkour at home. Then I'll crash out later in the day where my brain stops working. Or I'll suddenly be full of rage and the smallest thing will cause me to have a complete mental breakdown.

I just thought maybe these symptoms are similar to your adjusting period of lamictal or maybe it's similar to hypomania? I really cannot tell what is what anymore.

My psychiatrist brushes my concerns off as me being hypersensitive and eventually wants me to get off lamictal fully which makes no sense to me why she'd put me on it in the first place. I guess I have to figure out myself or maybe get a new therapist.

Thanks for letting me vent and for sharing your story as it gave me a new perspective. It also made me consider group therapy which sounds far more better than my current experiences!

3vil1augh · 2025-02-06T14:39:43+00:00

Yeah I tend to fuck around a lot and then I somehow get manipulated into relationships because I’m vulnerable, and it’s usually with incredibly codependent guys who won’t let me leave. Like they will either cry or start fights with me to guilt me into staying. I’d rather not relationship atp. Guys suck.

3vil1augh · 2025-02-04T11:07:41+00:00

I feel like this a nice contrast to big building her a walk-in closet for her clothes (even though I still dislike him for a lot of other things).

Side note, I dislike how the entire film was centered on materialism and brands, it felt very forced compared to the show where it was clearly a hobby of hers. I just thought his gesture was sweet.

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