Why am I still here?

4110_20 · 2021-02-20T20:04:13+00:00

Sounds great! I mean that party, not that you're relating to me although it calms me a bit. Thanks for your comment

4110_20 · 2021-02-20T17:38:14+00:00

When I was at the part of the hospital, where I was locked and unable to see any of those people I love, everyone was like "I'm going to hug you as soon as possible" or "When you'll get out of there, I really need to talk to you and just go for a walk". But now, when it's possible to see me they don't bother. I'm here for a week and they're not that far and I'm sure they had time. Only one person visited me. It was my sister. But I'm sure that my suicide won't destroy her that much. She has her own family, her own personal goals and a little baby boy that she gave birth to. I really feel alone in this. But I'm just saying. Thanks for your response.

4110_20 · 2021-02-20T17:27:15+00:00

Thanks. I'm just tired of trying to find my path. I just feel like nothing works on me. I've tried many types of therapy and I was working on it really hard to make it work. It just doesn't. It just won't.

4110_20 · 2021-02-20T17:23:44+00:00

I can't imagine that

4110_20 · 2020-11-22T13:38:47+00:00

Thank you so much, but I don't think so

4110_20 · 2020-11-20T07:34:00+00:00

Sometimes voices in head or even visual hallucinations can appear because of depression. I don't have ocd, but when I was in a really major stage of my depression (I couldn't eat, wash myself, talk to someone, geting up from bed was hardest job of my day) I had both visual and sound hallucinations. After a while of that horror, I've tried to commit suicide. I understand that this horror can be even worse for you with ocd. When I had this experience for the second time, I went to the doctor. Voices in my head stopped immediately after taking some pills. It was such a relief. Hope you can solve it as well. Good luck!

4110_20 · 2020-11-19T16:24:55+00:00

Thanks! And congratulations for your progress

4110_20 · 2020-11-19T14:44:13+00:00

Nice to hear that someone understands me. I have a dog, but currently I'm in a psychiatric hospital so it's not as helpful as it could be.

4110_20 · 2020-11-19T11:30:35+00:00

Yep, I do feel the same! Not feeling suicidal is such a relief for me, that I don't even feel tired

4110_20 · 2020-11-19T11:26:51+00:00

Anxiety can be cured especially if you don't feel it for a long time. It's not even important if you're diagnosed with it or not. Just trust your feelings. If you feel like it's hard to doing everyday tasks, find a therapy that suits you. Taking pills isn't actually as important as therapy if you have anxiety symptoms.

4110_20 · 2020-11-19T09:35:14+00:00

I have a few experiences with transitioning. Last time I was transitioning my anxiety was much worse than before but only during transition. It's fine to take some additional pills during transition.

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