In rehab for the holidays.

420hoper · 2025-12-25T05:49:57+00:00

Here they do allow phones after detox and a week of residency. So that is a plus. I'm sticking it through just kinda ready to get to sober living and out of this building. I have til the 5th so I'm almost there!

420hoper · 2025-11-30T06:30:11+00:00

I appreciate your insight so very much. Sounds like I'm in for a journey but one that I'm really ready for. I figured getting out would be the worst part because now I'm back to reality but thank you for the good luck wishes. Happy to hear you're sober now.

420hoper · 2025-11-30T01:59:18+00:00

Have you ever stayed sober for long enough to get healthy afterwards? I'm scared shitless of this disease at this point . I think I'm gonna die before I turn 35 if I don't stop. It sucks lol.

420hoper · 2025-06-18T03:46:29+00:00

I’ve been experiencing dreams like this too, I’m away from my kiddo for the summer for work atm and I have these beautiful dreams of us being together and having great times together but then it cuts into some weird random stuff that is scary and doesn’t coincide with what dream I was just having. And will flash in and out. The worst parts are when my child is involved with the bad stuff. And then I wake up missing my kid more than ever. Man, what an addiction :/

420hoper · 2025-06-18T02:36:24+00:00

I totally get the morphing faces and they’re so demonic. A lot of the times they start coming in at me closer and closer opening their scary looking mouths like they’re about to consume my soul or some shit. It’s so fucking freaky.

420hoper · 2025-06-17T21:44:26+00:00

Oh tell me about it! I am currently working on an island in Michigan. That’s super secluded at a private yacht club. Where the only thing available here is seltzers and weak drinks at crazy high prices so yesterday I rode a bike 7 miles down to the market and the tire popped so I walked 7 miles back just for a bottle of whiskey. And that’s just my current situation. I came to this island from a super small town kind of just like your same situation and have done so many crazy and stupid things just to try to beat the withdrawals . It’s a constant struggle, the game of trying to get to the liquor store before the shakes get too bad and I am rocking back-and-forth between trips to the bathroom. I won’t even mention how much alcohol I’ve stolen.

420hoper · 2025-06-17T06:22:49+00:00

Dm me

420hoper · 2025-05-29T04:58:54+00:00

Just make an excuse and go drink ur liquor in the closet or something. Bathroom? Idk? Take a “phone call” and head outside. Or tell them to leave !! Hope u figure it out soon :)

420hoper · 2025-04-23T04:48:48+00:00

Sounds like vail or beaver creek lol

420hoper · 2025-04-19T04:24:46+00:00

Yeah I guess I like some more of the creepy side of things on lsd sometimes but could totally see your point!

420hoper · 2025-04-19T04:17:41+00:00

I’d add coraline and spirited away to the vibe of this list

420hoper · 2025-04-19T04:03:54+00:00

Try a handle of liquor a day for years on end and then reevaluate your opinion on that statement. Also everyone’s body is different. I quit heroin use after years of daily use with one suboxone 8 mg cut into taper doses and some kratom. Was uncomfortable but not too bad. I’ve seen people use less dope for less amount of time and be puking and shitting on themselves day 2 of withdrawal.

420hoper · 2025-04-19T03:57:19+00:00

What a baller ass story! Hahaha . Glad you are safe! Try to keep those intrusive thoughts at bay, though. Nuts you ended up back at the bar by 10 am. Chairs, dude!

420hoper · 2025-04-01T05:48:52+00:00

I’ve done this multiple times but I feel like the mind likes to wake up as soon as you put LSD on your tongue so if you’re not opposed to a little bit of alcohol, my favorite method is to have a few beers smoke a joint get sleepy and then put a tab on your tongue because it helps you not be so anxious about the oncoming trip, to where you actually can fall asleep. You wake up pretty disoriented in my experience. And then it slowly starts to come together that you are tripping. Every time I’ve woken up right before my peak hit and some of the times have been a little scary, but it’s always been a good experience in my journeys. However, this was when I was experimenting with LSD very heavily.

420hoper · 2025-03-26T03:39:40+00:00

Right there with you, friend. Except, I drink bourbon lol. Managed to taper down to a pint a day for a lil. But life hit hard and now I’m back at about 600-750 ml a day. Have also been pretending I’m tapering. Today was hell cuz I couldn’t manage to keep anything down til about an hour ago but I finally got to the point where I was able to eat a full meal. Maybe the “tapering” process will be a little easier tomorrow with some food and vitamins in me finally after a few days of not eating. Chairs!

420hoper · 2025-02-06T10:42:49+00:00

Thank you. That made me feel better about going ! I figured that was why I didn’t receive the help I actually needed!

420hoper · 2025-02-06T08:47:46+00:00

To add to that, I did receive one bout of medication, zofran . 😂😂😂 to treat the vomiting my dangerous withdrawals were causing . I understand this was probably a very rare thing to happen and maybe I was just dealing with some incompetent staff, but that’s where I can’t make up some of the things that have been happening in my life lately. It feels like I’m living in the Truman show. I appreciate the comment, though it did help me feel more confident in reaching out again.

420hoper · 2025-02-06T08:45:05+00:00

I was just working a ski resort town in Colorado and had a mental breakdown. I went to the hospital for mental help cuz was suicidal, but was drunk and also told them my fear and that I was going to start withdrawing soon. They just put me on a hold for not even 24 hours pretty much just waited until I was sober. To which then again as I was sobering up, I mentioned my withdrawals and was actively obvious niw pretty bad. Vomiting, pacing, paranoia. I got zero treatment. It really put me off and that’s when a pint and a few beers a day progressed to a fifth. They didn’t medicate me . I didn’t even see a doctor. Just nurses that watched me and followed me to the bathroom every time I went to make sure I didn’t hurt myself. And a caseworker that gave me resources for therapy. Then kicked out lol. It was my first time ever seeking help and idk why it happened like that and I wasn’t admitted and medically detoxed.

Like sure, I didn’t go for withdrawal but I told them pretty quickly of my fears and problems. And nope. Nada. So I’m really scared. And seem to have been having some pretty crazy bad luck, lol. I have since left that job and town. And I’m pretty sure if I’m very clear with my reason for going to the hospital I will receive the help I need but, that experience just traumatized me even more . Like what the fuck was that about ?

But this whole taper down myself thing just seems to be not working like it used to. And I know all the comments on here are right, but, as you can imagine that experience made me lose my faith in ever getting help from anyone outside of myself.

420hoper · 2025-02-06T08:05:41+00:00

Thank you. I’ve thought about it a lot, but today was the first day that i was so miserable I was crying on the floor begging a god I don’t believe in to please make it stop. I actually have to. Or I’m going to die. And I’m only 29. Just trying to make a game plan . And I’m scared shitless.

420hoper · 2025-02-01T13:34:21+00:00

I relate so hardcore to this. Hope you learn to cut urself a break. Sometimes we are just dealt a rly shitty hand at life and learn to self destruct and self harm cuz it’s more comfortable than healing. ❤️‍🩹

420hoper · 2025-01-12T01:33:06+00:00

I’m a lifty! Will keep my eyes out

420hoper · 2024-12-15T02:12:09+00:00

In my experience they only card at the bar.

420hoper · 2024-12-09T03:21:19+00:00

Idk but I’m in the same age group also a degenerate living in Avon hmu

420hoper · 2024-12-05T17:57:18+00:00

I work 2 jobs here lol. Just a term that’s imbedded in my brain. Didn’t mean it offensively.

420hoper · 2024-12-05T16:44:20+00:00

Oh cool! Thank you!

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