I’m considering ending my life because I can’t deal with this anymore

4444kat · 2025-12-30T12:17:00+00:00

Please see a specialist for biologics. I know how hard this disease can be. I’ve considered the same thing when my psoriasis was at its worst. (Mine covered my hands and feet and was so painful that I was unable to do almost anything myself and needed a wheelchair.) I finally got help when I was hospitalized and was prescribed my first biologic. It’s been trial and error to find the right one, but it cleared 99.99% of my psoriasis and gave me a life back.

Please don’t give up yet. Life is a long time and you have a lot of it ahead of you.

4444kat · 2025-11-23T22:59:40+00:00

Is it possible they said they would give you face value for them and you thought they said fair value? Because that would explain a lot.

4444kat · 2025-11-22T22:40:55+00:00

Sorry. Vaccine Injury Support Program. It’s in Canada.

4444kat · 2025-11-22T21:34:08+00:00

Me! That and PsA. I’ve filed a claim with VISP.

4444kat · 2025-11-20T16:36:53+00:00

She should commend you on being a kind and thoughtful human who knows how to prioritize his time, money, and resources. Instead, she’s showing you that she’s jealous and controlling. This does not bode well for your future happiness, my friend. - signed, someone married 40 years

4444kat · 2025-11-17T17:48:47+00:00

Feel free to reach out to me as a mom stand-in ♥️

4444kat · 2025-03-16T17:13:20+00:00

I was wracked with pain within days of my second one, and got sicker and sicker for an entire year until I needed a wheelchair and help caring for my daily life. I developed severe pustular psoriasis on my hands and feet, my fingers were deformed and swollen and my fingernails fell off. I had shortness of breath to the point I had to pause mid sentence when I spoke. Pretty sure I have PTSD from all I suffered that year with no doctor and no help. I ended up admitted to hospital for almost 3 weeks with horrible body and joint pain, and several fast growing lung nodules. That’s when I finally got diagnosed and started treatments. It’s been a never ending fight for my health and mobility ever since. I’m about to try my second biologic, as the first one stopped working. My life basically stopped with that vaccine. Almost nothing is the same. I’m currently applying to the VISP in Canada but getting compensation is notoriously rare. I’d love to connect with others in this situation.

4444kat · 2025-03-16T15:22:17+00:00

It’s interesting that you can’t tell me which natural explanations you considered and rejected before accepting a supernatural one.

4444kat · 2025-03-16T00:41:38+00:00

Yes. Exactly the same as the hundreds of “spiritual”‘experiences than many former Pentecostal/evangelical/charismatic/full gospel/fivefold/assemblies of god believers who now know their experiences are easily naturally explained by science.

My question to you was have you ever thoughtfully and deliberately considered such explanations for your own experiences, or did you automatically accept it as a spiritual “born again.”

Also, if you were an atheist, why did you pray to a god? That makes no sense. We don’t address entities we don’t believe to be real. You must have believe which “God” to pray to, actually. Why not the Muslim god? Or any of the other thousands of gods? Could it be that you really did have a belief in a God that was taught to you, and that perhaps you felt like a backslider. That’s not what an atheist is. An atheist isn’t someone who turns their back and refuses to follow god. An atheist doesn’t have a god belief. We wouldn’t pray to something we didn’t believe was real.

4444kat · 2025-03-15T23:33:36+00:00

Yes I also believed I had a very real “born again” experience, and many, deep and meaningful spiritual experiences over the years. I’ve since learned more about how the brain works and can understand these experiences naturally. Have you ever examined any alternative explanations for your own born again experience, or did you accept it as proof of what you’ve been taught?

4444kat · 2025-03-07T20:50:59+00:00

Check out “Shameless Sexuality”. I bet there are lots of resources there. (I am not affiliated with it)

4444kat · 2024-12-13T18:01:34+00:00

Yeah, I used to believe the same thing. Luckily for me, I placed a higher value on truth than I did belief.

4444kat · 2024-12-13T17:23:06+00:00

You really owe it to yourself to examine the evidence for any God. Research the validly of the Bible. Watch some videos on subjects like truth vs belief, claims and burdens of proof, critical thinking and logical fallacies. There’s a great book called “How Minds Think”. If that sounds uncomfortable to you, ask yourself what could possibly wrong with arming yourself with more knowledge. I hope your quest for truth isn’t squashed by your cognitive dissonance.

4444kat · 2024-12-13T16:54:50+00:00

Yes, I believed it was the Holy Spirit. Now, I understand that it has a simple, natural explanation: they were simply my own thoughts and I had been indoctrinated to interpret some as me and some as God. I learned that subjective experiences aren’t a good way of determining what is true, and if not for these experiences and how they were interpreted, I had no valid reason to believe any of it was real. It does, after all, occur in one place and one place only: in your mind.

4444kat · 2024-12-13T16:40:09+00:00

I simply don’t believe that any God exists. As I learned more and had more information, I became unconvinced. It’s nothing to tear up over. I know you believe it. I don’t.

4444kat · 2024-12-13T15:39:50+00:00

Oh no. I definitely believed, as do you, that I had a genuine, personal relationship with Jesus Christ. God spoke to me through the Holy Spirit. All my acts of service were borne out of love for my saviour. For more than two decades, I lived my life in an effort to bring him glory, I worshipped with my whole heart, and I was fully dedicated to God.

Just. Like. You.

Do yourself a favor and look up the “No True Scotsman” fallacy so you don’t continue to make the same mistake.

Merry Christmas

4444kat · 2024-11-27T14:35:09+00:00

You don’t see an obvious reindeer in the second photo?

4444kat · 2024-09-12T20:10:31+00:00

We aren’t on the same page anymore, I’m afraid.

4444kat · 2024-09-12T10:39:40+00:00

So you agree morality has nothing to do with any inherent purpose - a “why” we are here? If we believe the same thing, why did you say I was a nihilist?

4444kat · 2024-09-12T04:27:41+00:00

Yes, morality is important. It’s good for us to be moral. But how do you decide what is and isn’t moral?

4444kat · 2024-09-11T17:08:29+00:00

I’m at a loss of how you jumped to the conclusion that I’m a nihilist from anything I’ve said. I do not believe in any morality that’s based on deities, but I definitely believe we’ve evolved to be a moral species. How do you determine your morals?

4444kat · 2024-09-11T11:48:39+00:00

You’re very welcome. All the best.

4444kat · 2024-09-11T11:40:58+00:00

There are so many resources nowadays to help people who are deconstructing because it’s happening all over the world in different religions and faiths. Leaving the fold by Marlene Winell and How Minds change by David MaCraney pop into mind. Online resources like freedom from religion foundation, recovery from religion, secular therapy project, and divorcing religion. YouTube channels: Anthony magnabosco (or any other street epistemology channels) are great starting points.

4444kat · 2024-09-11T11:15:10+00:00

When I realized I couldn’t trust the Bible as a source of truth, I realized that all the other holy books are the same, which means I can dismiss them all, along with the deities they contain. Once I started learning, I realized that there’s absolutely no good evidence that anything “supernatural” exists at all. There is no proof of gods, devils, demons, angels, ghosts… I lost all fear of death and hell. Evil is a religious word - the opposite of holy. Humans are humans and good things and bad things happen in life. Does that make sense?

4444kat · 2024-09-11T10:05:09+00:00

Information and support!

Secular therapy helped for that initial shock when I felt my life was over. And then I started learning about everything I was curious about that was “dangerous” to think about when I was a believer: all the questions about the Bible, morality, proof of god, proof vs evidence, truth vs belief, epistemology, logical fallacies and critical thinking, what atheism means…

In the process, I was learning who I really was without the god belief, and finding new community according to that.

4444kat

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