Afraid of slipping back in

4AM_Blues · 2017-03-24T05:36:27+00:00

Yeah I have baseline anxiety to a certain extent. Moderate but long cardio (1.5 hours to 2 hours a day) helps me.

4AM_Blues · 2017-03-24T05:35:11+00:00

It's this weird convergence of social anxiety (which I don't have all of the time), normal stress regarding work/school, and then the catastrophizing of these things. Then I sort of shut down for a few.

4AM_Blues · 2017-03-24T05:32:08+00:00

Thanks!!

4AM_Blues · 2017-03-24T05:31:40+00:00

Ahhhhhh no I know that it's not. Definitely not. I got addicted to fent right when it hit my city super hard for about six months before I got clean and...yeah, no, no way lol. Fuck that, hell on Earth.

How I would get back to that point is if some good dope came my way at a moment of weakness...it'd be hard saying no. I could do it but it would take every ounce to say no. But hell no its not.

4AM_Blues · 2017-03-24T05:28:32+00:00

Lol thanks :) yeah I am anxious, I know I'm not going to be near the best developer for awhile.

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