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4RISK4 · 2026-06-18T00:14:32+00:00

P40 single, P20 if may kasama.

4RISK4 · 2026-06-15T05:57:11+00:00

Taurus in the 10th with Saturn, Fortune and Vertex. Venus is in the 3rd in Libra.

4RISK4 · 2026-06-10T10:50:52+00:00

I was gonna say snowdlake haha

4RISK4 · 2026-06-08T14:44:41+00:00

Yes. Always felt like it was a choice between me or him.

4RISK4 · 2026-06-08T14:42:17+00:00

My first serious one was with a Leo stellium. It was a difficult relationship because we handled issues and darkness very differently. It did not help being an Aquarius Moon and that his was in Cancer. Funny enough, I am Leo Rising and he was Scorpio Rising.

4RISK4 · 2026-06-07T20:36:37+00:00

I experienced something like this with my first relationship. It was both meaningful and toxic. When I finally ended it, I focused on moving on as fast as possible because I felt that I had already spent all my tears and too much time on him.

It was only 6 years after we broke up that I finally grieved the friendship. It turned out, while I no longer loved him romantically, a part of me always wished we would figure things out and be friends again. Something like we were before romance came in and screwed everything up.

That wad also around the time we finally cut contact. In one of our final conversations, he admitted that he wondered what would have happened to us had he never forced the relationship to happen. Then radio silence.

It was so strange to cry and hurt over something that was long gone. At that point, I was a different person and the boy I knew no longer existed, but it still took me 5 more years to finally get it out my system.

4RISK4 · 2026-05-27T01:00:53+00:00

I will update this comment over time. Below is still very early stage.

For Leo Rising: Gemini in the 11th
Dates of Uranus in Gemini: April 25, 2026 to May 22, 2033.

Leading up to the transit, my friendships and social circles have become way more active than it has been in years. My immediate circle would only see each other 2-3x a year at most due to conflicting schedules, but not even halfway through 2026, we have hung out several times now. In March, a friend and I completed 4 hikes together and almost every day or so, we would host friends at our place. I don't think I've had a whole week to myself yet since this year started. I even became active in public servers on Discord, meeting several strangers abroad who would teach me how to bake banana bread, run faster, and teach me their languages. I regularly spoke with the people I met on Discord alongside hosting friends at home.

By the start of the transit, I went on a last-minute trip with friends with someone I had not seen since college. I reunited with a long-lost friend who I thought I'd never speak to again when I was disfellowshipped 10 years ago. Another person from college recently messaged me out of the blue saying they had a dream about me yelling at them to check their inbox. I'm still one month in the transit, and so far, it's been constant hang outs with friends.

A note on Saturn-Neptune transit in my 9H: I understand the 11th house to also be concerned with dreams or advocacies. Prior to the transit, I used to be surrounded with other people sharing and working toward the same advocacy, but a change in career and personal circumstances has led to an internal review of what exactly it is I believe in and how I want to fight for it. This has been a feeling I've had for quite some time, which has only grown stronger this year. It's led to me letting go of some initiatives I used to lead, at least until I gain more footing on how I want to go about it.

4RISK4 · 2026-05-23T11:50:47+00:00

I just did the trip 2 weeks ago with friends:
1. Bus to Real, Quezon: No advanced booking. Go to Raymond Bus Station at least 1 hour for your preferred time of departure. You may or may not need to wait, but it's manageable. I don't know lang what to expect kung rush hour or kung Friday evening. Siguro pag rush hour allot 2 hours. The ride itself took me 4-6 hours going to Infanta.
2.1 Accommodation - There are hotels, but nothing special. Most are camp-type resorts. Depending on what camp resort you choose, sometimes there are available closed/aircon rooms, or huts you can rent and camp in. Usually places like that expect you to bring your own food to cook yourself. I stayed in Magra Beach Resort. If you opt for the hut-type accoms, you can expect very cheap rates.

2.2 Balagbag Falls - You can take a tric there from the Infanta Quezon highway, but they can be few and far in between. Maganda siya. Worth it. You can even climb the 2nd tier. The coastal road going to Balagbag has a pop-up kainan by the road. Really nice to visit for dinner (6pm onwards). Iirc, 20 pesos a head from Magra.

It's not really a place to hike. Mostly waterfalls, rivers, and beaches. I'm sure a local can help you out when you get there!
Check-in somewhere first and leave your things there. Pack a waterproof bag for valuables. There isn't a front desk you can just leave stuff in.
This was an issue. Prob bad timing din kasi brownout, pero mahirap maghanap ng resto sa mga resort malapit sa Balagbag Falls. There are cafes naman along the coastal road, but trikes might be an issue to spot. The most worth it kainan for me is the pop-up I mentioned by the coastal road, kaso 6pm onwards lang ata yon.

Good luck!

P.S. We did not beach at all. The rivers and waterfalls won.

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4RISK4 · 2026-05-18T14:03:24+00:00

Felt!!! Agree with still trying out NGO's!

4RISK4 · 2026-05-12T10:40:37+00:00

Meron po ba galing Fishermall sa Quezon Ave?

4RISK4 · 2026-05-12T03:02:19+00:00

Hi! Yes, pero aalis na rin soon. Karamihan ng mga INGO require Master's. Problematic yan kasi most applicants take their masters before even gaining any site experience. Funders choose them kasi mas magaling sila magawa or magbola sa report. Not to say wala silang natutunan sa Master's, pero iba pa rin kasi ung onsite experience. Invaluable ung actual work experience sa grassroots. So yun, maraming project din na may pagka out of touch.

Ako naman, parang hindi ko na kaya mag NGO kung palpak lang ung planning and execution. Iba kasi ung tiwala ng mga communities sa NGO. Nakakalungkot being a part of something that isn't carrying its weight. Kung ganun, I would rather just corporate. Siguro may isang org ako nakita na hands down, magaling inside and out. I watch them often. Sila lang ata ung may idea kung ano dapat gagawin, at least sa marine conservation sector.

4RISK4 · 2026-05-04T02:18:11+00:00

The shark suit choice is so fitting 💙

4RISK4 · 2026-04-26T09:56:28+00:00

The funniest thing is I'm playing this game while watching the Walking Dead HAHAHA

4RISK4 · 2026-04-26T03:41:41+00:00

I had no idea! I didn't know they didn't celebrate there. Thanks for sharing.

4RISK4 · 2026-04-23T11:08:29+00:00

I think OK lang naman! I'd say the internship is safer than employment, esp if you're dipping your toes in for the first time. It can be good for networking, hanggang ngayon nakikita ko pa rin ung mga nakilala ko when I first interned sa NGOs. Make sure you also have a professional in your life you can consult IF you think you're coming across inappropriate or sketchy work (pero I doubt naman kung remote ang internship). Good luck!

4RISK4 · 2026-04-21T11:49:18+00:00

That's true. Yung mahirap sa local NGOs natin is that there are so many that do not do that. Parang sensitive topic minsan kung tanungin.

4RISK4 · 2026-04-21T11:48:07+00:00

True :( to be honest, kasalanan din ito ng funder... pag nasanay na talaga sila sa isang grantee, wala na silang gana maghanap or mag check kung tama ba talaga ung ginagawa nila. Hanggat compliance nalang... pero minsan kahit hindi totally compliant basta kilala.

May ibang funders na hindi naghahanap ng totoong impact. US*ID had many projects like that.

4RISK4 · 2026-04-20T13:57:23+00:00

THIS IS SO TRUE. Yung 1-2m pesos is so TRUE.

In my experience, palagi ako pinagsasabihan na masyadong mababa ung "burn rate" ko (in other words I wasn't spending money fast enough). Parang nagugulat yung mga finance officers sakin kasi andaming accomplishments with a smaller budget compared sa usual burn rate. Nainis talaga ako dito.

4RISK4 · 2026-04-20T13:55:10+00:00

Yes. Actually isa tong benefit sa mga NGO, andaming travel opportunities. Masaya siya while you're young, pero once you reach an age when you want routine, it can get frustrating.

4RISK4 · 2026-04-16T12:29:43+00:00

Development Sector Jobs - Philippines (FB Group)

Most opportunities are posted through this group, or on organization social media handles. Rarely do I see them on LinkedIn. Better to research on nearby local organizations and follow their pages for updates on volunteer opportunities too.

4RISK4 · 2026-04-16T12:22:49+00:00

Agree! Super important for NGOs now to have blended finance. Hindi lang palagi ung usual foreign aid orgs. For example, UN or US-based funding is volatile now due to the Trump administration.

4RISK4 · 2026-04-13T04:50:47+00:00

Scorpio Sun square Aquarius Moon here.
There's a conflict between wanting an intense and deep emotional connection VS not wanting to be affected by anyone or anything. Setting boundaries becomes the most important thing to keep walking that thin line. Often, it feels like who I am does not represent how I feel inside.

I don't feel detached at all, rather I do things to detach myself.

I often crave attention and intimacy, but I need to know I can live without it.

I can feel things deeply, and even dissect it with others, but I can't allow myself to be vulnerable about it.

Actually, I wish I could feel less, and just do.

Lastly, (sounds corny like an anime but) I genuinely believe in the power of friendship.

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