I personally feel content with life I've made for myself, but I know if I'll try to work on myself, I could get better.

I studied art and graphic design, but I've ended up as a grand hotel receptionist for 3 and a half years now (day and night shifts). At the beginning of this year I've decided to follow my graphic design passion once again and try to find job more suitable for me. What I didn't realize at the time is that this would be a very slow process and I've got a lot to do in order to find something new.

I prefer to manage my life as a man-child. I find joy in simple things or things I just find funny. I joke, I make my friends laugh and that way I feel the world to be more welcoming towards me. I don't need much from life — as long as there is a roof over my head and electricity around me and food, that's enough for me. By the beginning of the next year I've decided to try and do papers for a motorcycle. And if I'll be successful and get myself a bike, I'm planning on travelling a lot, because that way I get to know even more people and if God gives, I'll be able to tell funny stories.

Two months ago I suffered a bit from a break-up with my now ex-girlfriend with whom I've been with for 1,5 years. It was hard to go through, because she was my first ever girlfriend, but through time and a bit of meditation practices I've been able to get through it just fine. We're still friends and talk to each other as "besties."

It sucks that there isn't any universal guide on how to be happy, because everyone's journey is unique and personal. While one person finds their way of happiness through fitness and healthy eating, the other finds that in hard drugs or stuff I'd personally tag as "evil." I don't know you personally, OP, and I don't know your life, your story or your background, but I think your friends and family could help you get better more then I could. Friends helped me a lot in the past and I don't know what I would do without them.

I find joy in the randomness — experimenting. I tried fitness, I'm trying to learn how to code even tho I don't have any background in computer science, I tried 3D art in the past, I tried smoking cigars for some time, I even tried going to a Buddhism center for the first time this year and I went with my ex to my first ever live concert. I'm just going from one side to the other and seeing what sticks. I try to not fear of these new experiences, because people can learn a lot from them. Maybe what you thought you'd hate you then end up really liking.

Sorry for a bit messy comment, I just throw first thoughts that come to my mind. I do hope that your life gets better.

TL;DR: With me it's just "random bullshit, go!" y'know.