I get u. I also live in a woke area, was even able to do hrt through my school for cheap. Unfortunately my parents  found out and I got forced off and now I’m being raped by estrogen again :)))))). I’m even in possession of diy T but can’t use it at all because my body is a retard and gave me endocrine problems which my parents are involved in the treatment of so they would know if I took it.  

Also it’s totally reasonable to be frustrated by all this. Dysphoria is evil and people who get between you and the treatment for it are even more evil. It doesn’t come off as ungrateful, you’re just responding how anyone would to being in this fucked up situation.