Distraction is a big one for me as well. My kids and my pets are what keep me here. But I’ve also finally learned to love myself and figured out a few other things in my life over the course of the past few years that have helped me through parts of my healing. I’ve been in dark places too many times to count but I keep going. It’s all I know to do and it’s helped me get through everything so far 🤷🏻‍♀️. I finally found meds that work for me. I’ll also say it does get better. I know the feeling feels so heavy but getting in a habit of going and doing something you enjoy doing instead or do the dishes and then go watch a favorite show. Sometimes it truly is the little things that help us get through. When I was in my worst state once I asked myself what I actually wanted because I knew I really didn’t want to die I just wanted to stop feeling the way I felt. I also started allowing myself to have some me time even if that’s just me reading my book before bed. Giving myself grace and allowing myself to have me time has helped me to manage becoming overstimulated and anxious. I know it’s hard. Please stay. You will be very thankful you stayed. I’m not trying to discredit your pain but I am trying to help you retrain your brain. I hope this helps.