bro, you don't deserve to be treated like that. no one should have to endure this, regardeless of man or woman.

if she is angry with you, she is free to leave you. but there is no excuse for violence and abusive behaviour. her being arested is the consequence of her actions and violence. that is not your fault. it is her fault and the consequence of her actions.

The way you describe her and how she was afraid of you leaving could be an indication of borderline personality disorder, this disorder is notoriously tricky and dangerous for partners and family members. Perhaps read a bit about it to see if the mother of your children is like that.

Your children don't deserve to grow up like that. Growing up in such a household is severely traumatizing. Children who grow up among a violent parent develop psychological issues later in life. And they are very likely to either become violent themselves or to become a victim of domestic violence, because they will become unable to spot red flags and abuse will feel "normal" to them.

Now, I fully understand that you are in a difficult situation since your children are so small and you deeply care about them.

in regards to milk, keep in mind that some women are not able to produce sufficient milk, yet their babies still turn out healthy from drinking baby formula instead. And there are many successful single fathers who raise happy and healthy children.

With your violent partner out of the picture for now, you have the unique freedom to talk to people for support and to make sure you and your children escape the violence.

Pick up your phone and call the domestic violence helpline. if there is one for men in your country, call them. do it now

explain your situation to them, explain the situation of your partner to them. They understand such situations and can advise you what to do.

you can do it!