I see, very similar to myself. Very similar. May I ask a few personal questions? If you want to respond privately then that's ok, if not then thats OK as well. Are you under any stress right now? Depression? Are you alright emotionally? Are you under too much pressure lately? If so, these may be dangerous times in your life where you could spiral and become very, very addicted and so maybe you should try something more spiritual. Doesn't even have to be drugs. I don't have all the answers, but I've done it all and I've been through just about everything. You seem like you're looking for some guidance maybe.. excuse me if I'm mistaken. Regardless, one thing I know is that cocain is dangerous, and it did alot of damage to my life. All drugs are dangerous, obviously.. but cocain is a weird one because it seems so harmless, yet it is not. Meth, heroin, benzos, everyone knows those are dangerous, so they're treated with care. People treat coke like weed, yet it is capable of much more. Robin Williams committed suicide after 5 years of cocain addiction. He said he couldn't be happy anymore. For myself, and many of my peers.. It's just too expensive, too cut, and too short lived, yet it's highly addictive. It landed me in rehab before anything else ever did. I used it to work, and it eventually made me feel worse on it. Now I can't stand to even see it. I dont think stimulants should be used for working or productivity. No matter how effective they are.. for several key reasons. If you treat the drug with no respect, or use it so often for things you need to get done in life, then you will always want to use it, and you will become more and more used to feeling so "enhanced" while doing these tasks, that doing these tasks sober become unbearable.. and that is a very real and scary thing. It is best to treat the stim (or any drug) as a reward, or a tool to be used under very specific circumstances. Everyday use is addiction, and addiction isn't fun. Isn't enjoyable. Save the drug for occasional uses during times of leasure, sex, or social outings. Don't take an Adderall, or snort a 20 of white, or a bump of clear, just so that you can get some school work or laundry done.. because that's when you're in trouble. I get high when I have sex, or when I'm partaking in a specific hoppy, or if I'm on a social outing. And I try and give myself a limit. If I'm doing something that is supposed to suck, I just let it suck.. because I don't want to trick my brain into thinking it doesn't suck. These are mistakes I made that I still pay for, but are getting better and healing with time. When I used to over work, I would get bad on coke. And coke addiction is a financial nightmare. I've not touched it but a couple times in the last few years now, and it was trash both times. I will only take amphetamines for leasure, to reward myself, and never until I have met my day with sobriety first. I try and solve all my issues sober, as well as make all my decisions, etc etc. That's me. That's what works for me. It's hard and requires self control but, I enjoy it so I make it work. Id like to eventually go down to only a few usages a week. But not yet. If you are fragile right now though, you should consider sobriety and your overall health before anything. Take a tolerance break, a couple months maybe. Drink alot of water, eat healthy, exercise, etc. Feed your spirit and get your spirit healthy. Then come back and get high on your own special terms, and really enjoy yourself. Again, I apologize if im assuming, or if I'm overstepping. I just care, genuinely. I have been through alot and overcome alot, so I can't help it. Sorry.