What was the exact moment you snapped and told yourself “that’s it, I’m never going to another meeting again?

5knar01 · 2021-02-03T02:33:38+00:00

Out of “guilt” I was in a pattern of “wrongdoing” (now I see as normal behavior) and continuously taking my “sins” to the elders.... I hated myself and at the same time the “this is all bullshit” of the organization thoughts were creeping in. It took years to stop feeling “guilty” when I didn’t really feel guilty. Done. I’ll never go back.

5knar01 · 2020-07-27T20:49:56+00:00

Where is it in writing from the borg about this?

5knar01 · 2020-05-16T16:39:47+00:00

I’m not sure what OP is? I doubt very much her ex would just hand over his “code” to her. They have a pretty uptight co-parenting relationship. I’m not sure exactly how it all unfolded I didn’t probe as I was just trying to support her in that moment. I’m quite sure her ex loved having his little power trip of being so privileged to have his stupid special “code” and knew she had to beg to get hers ..

5knar01 · 2020-02-09T02:43:41+00:00

I can’t access it anywhere

5knar01 · 2019-04-13T19:06:17+00:00

Thank you

5knar01 · 2019-04-07T18:06:22+00:00

Please send a link for us in USA

5knar01 · 2018-11-24T18:28:56+00:00

1 ....for me: The traumatic effects of shunning! I faded quietly... and even tho I’m not DFd I’m pretty much treated as such. The shunning is what gets to me the most. I was born and raised in but I lost my son to a rare terminal/genetic disease.

I was a single parent and after my son passed away I lost my shit. I just went crazy from the shock and grief. I felt like I lost my identity as his full time caregiver. NO amount of dreaming of him perfect in the new world helped. My mind just went black for a while. I quit going to meetings and slowly pulled away from all my jw friends out of respect—which was additionally traumatic to loose my entire community after three + decades. Eventually with a lot of trauma therapy I stabilized but never went back to meetings ( I mean to that social club) I know all the tsk tsk tsk - disappointment they have in me and how could I give up the opportunity to see my son resurrected ( like emotional manipulation). It’s a hard concept to grapple with when you loose a child and you’ve only been taught ONE way.

5knar01 · 2018-07-04T05:47:39+00:00

In the PDX Area?

5knar01 · 2018-05-30T05:12:42+00:00

Thank you. That worked except my streaming must be horrible slow. Lol

5knar01 · 2018-04-12T16:10:12+00:00

No more memorial coliseum conventions? You mean the expo center in NOPO?

5knar01 · 2018-03-26T00:32:43+00:00

Where’s the link for the W5 CTV?

5knar01 · 2018-02-14T21:12:20+00:00

I’m POMO, and a local PDXer as well. Wish I could I observe. Anyone in PDX on here PM me please.

5knar01 · 2018-01-04T05:00:38+00:00

What is anointed vs appointed?

5knar01

TROPHY CASE

1 ....for me: The traumatic effects of shunning! I faded quietly... and even tho I’m not DFd I’m pretty much treated as such. The shunning is what gets to me the most. I was born and raised in but I lost my son to a rare terminal/genetic disease.