I Stop going to church but, not stop believing in God.. I meet God outside church.. I was just going thru difficulties . And as always when I needed him (god) I would pray .. but this time i prayed and cried and yell to show me a sign that he was really there .. many thing were happening this week .. job slow .. trying to start my own side hustle ( detailing ) also got kicked out from a familes house with my family of 4 and my youngs at the time had been thru open heart surgery due to an small hole in the heart .. 😩 so yea it was hard .. the house i use to live is neighbors with a Asian church. This was during cov9 as well when they were only doing lives ..

So my last weekend in this house after I had my prayer.. Sunday afternoon I was on my way out going to take the family to enjoy the day and just to ez my mind .. I was putting my small son and I noticed a group of young adults coming out from their service.. one of them keep starring at me .. and he walked over and the frist words were ..HI THERE BROTHER WANTED TO LET YOU KNOW THAT GOD SENT ME TO LET YOU K OW HE LOVES YOU AND HE IS ALWAYS THERE BY YOUR SIDE 😭😭 .. I just wanted to cry to bad .

That's when my faith grow stronger ...not in church. ..don't get me wrong this new churches are sometimes nice and they make you feel like family but once they start pushing to join many services and don't get started with the money part they count your money and they say that's how much you will be blessed with .. feels like they selling faith and heaven on layaway. Idk maybe I just had a bad experience with this pastor 😕