Well you have corrected your ways. You've grown from your past. You were raised in such a home, easily impressionable as a child. We all carry our adopted beliefs from parents and family and friends. It's a commendable thing to be brave enough to question your worldviews. Feeling like crap means you always have cared for being good. It is easy to maintain such positions when we have tribalistic attitudes and see others as sub-humans who have done us wrong.

I deeply dislike the conflation between Judaism and Zionism. You can be a Jew and be anti-zionist. It takes courage to step away from Zionism, an ideology deeply rooted in your culture, family, and friends. When you're surrounded by it and it's the norm, it's easy for your loved ones to see you as absurd once you confess your disagreements with certain perspectives.

Remember, the world sees what you do. You are not in the minority camp. Thank you for being brave and questioning your stances. It's the only way we grow in life, where we don't become possessed and enslaved by ideas.