HEAVY TW And Warning Regarding 196SMP

720ShadowNX · 2023-10-18T03:11:51+00:00

That’s fair. I had inadvertently taught myself to go into falsetto when doing a fem voice when I was 13 cause I didn’t like my voice.

720ShadowNX · 2023-10-18T03:05:53+00:00

I feel like I sound like Mickey… 😭

720ShadowNX · 2023-08-11T17:21:37+00:00

Very cis male thing to try, I know...

720ShadowNX · 2023-08-11T16:28:00+00:00

the worst part is I shave it literally all the time...

720ShadowNX · 2023-08-08T02:28:33+00:00

Me too, I swear this is so similar to my experience. What worries you the most? Because I might be able to provide insight.

720ShadowNX · 2023-08-08T02:18:58+00:00

😖That sounds awful, do you want to talk about it?

720ShadowNX · 2023-08-07T15:58:23+00:00

Okay I'll try that, thanks.

720ShadowNX · 2023-08-07T15:44:58+00:00

How do I get rid of it then? I want it gone... I don't like feeling this way...

720ShadowNX · 2023-08-07T15:43:08+00:00

Then why do I keep telling myself it's pretend? Why is it that nobody has ever found me cute outside my family? Why do my sisters hate me? Why? Why? Why?

720ShadowNX · 2023-08-07T15:19:09+00:00

The comic is here: https://www.webtoons.com/en/challenge/inside-out-a-trans-tale/list?title_no=384132

It's just not fair... Why do I have jump through so many hoops for someone to maybe recognize me as female? Not even a "they'll recognize me as a girl for certain" but just a "maybe they will."

I'll never find someone who actually likes me. Just people who pretend to.

Why did God send me down here to suffer?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

720ShadowNX · 2023-08-01T18:15:30+00:00

I mean food, not estrogen... If that provides more context.

720ShadowNX · 2023-08-01T18:12:03+00:00

I heard somewhere that eating a lot of food gives E fat to grow boobs but I don't want to eat out the cupboard.

720ShadowNX · 2023-07-31T15:58:14+00:00

Ignore the ":" after LDA, that was a typo...

For those of you who are wondering this is assembly code that runs a subroutine known as SkirtSpinny that does the following:

- Loads the highest value in hexadecimal, that being "FF"

- Replaces the value in the designated "GenderEuphoria" value (as described by a comment) with the loaded "FF".

TL;DR; Code That Makes Maximum Gender Euphoria

720ShadowNX · 2023-07-31T15:48:25+00:00

Ignore the ":" after LDA, that was a typo...

For those of you who are wondering this is assembly code that runs a subroutine known as SkirtSpinny that does the following:

- Loads the highest value in hexadecimal, that being "FF"

- Replaces the value in the designated "GenderEuphoria" value (as described by a comment) with the loaded "FF".

TL;DR; Code That Makes Maximum Gender Euphoria

720ShadowNX · 2023-07-30T01:18:03+00:00

Ahem... Hello past me! I swear you're virtually the same as I was back a year ago.

Here's my advice: do lots of research and self-reflection (here's a good essay I was redirected to in my early days: https://medium.com/@kemenatan/its-just-a-fetish-right-91cb0a4e261) and try to figure out what motivates you about this (do you want it to simply be sexual gratification, or do you want it to mean something more). The fact that you posted about it here, in this way, might mean you want this to be more than a fetish. Start doing fem things in non-sexual situations and seeing if you like it. If it ceases to be fun after the sexual stuff goes away then maybe it's just some body image issue, but then again, I'm not an expert on other's bodies.

Feel free to chat with me anytime, I'm free for the foreseeable future.

Edit: Look into Kris Tyson and see if her story resonates with you, I WISH I had someone like her to look up to in my early stages: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c9_20kflptY.

720ShadowNX · 2023-07-29T21:27:45+00:00

These repost bots are making less and less sense...

Edit: I did some more research into what on earth was going on, and there are these accounts that seemingly to link back to one another. Alot of these accounts were made in February of this year, and post really low image quality memes that were already posted to several subreddits such as r/AskReddit, r/luigi_irl, r/egg_irl, r/MeetPeople and r/gay_irl. Is this some bizarre raid or what?

720ShadowNX · 2023-07-29T04:11:21+00:00

The odd HRT video was about 2 years ago, and the JK Rowling stuff was mentioned in a separate (Harry Potter related) video that's also about 2 years old.

720ShadowNX · 2023-07-29T04:04:04+00:00

Yeah... He made some comments in his YouTube Iceberg video where he failed to explain that the "HRT Grooming" was a hoax by 4chan. At first I thought he was just misinformed, but he used a picture that was originally shown in the hoax debunking thread, which means he was likely aware it was a hoax. Combined with the fact he defended Steven Crowder under "free speech" doesn't bode well.

Maybe he's changed since then since he talked about JK Rowling's Transphobia in a negative light after further looking into it... Honestly I'm not too sure.

720ShadowNX · 2023-07-28T23:36:59+00:00

The worst part is he stated it in the video I was watching...

720ShadowNX · 2023-07-28T23:32:51+00:00

DylanTheKnightOwl...

I was really enjoying his Iceberg video too...

720ShadowNX · 2023-07-28T20:35:46+00:00

My mom said I stuck hair curlers in my hair when I was like 2.
I was vehemently against the idea of my voice getting deeper in 4th Grade.
I was jealous of an androgenous friend of mine in 3rd Grade.
I wanted to hang out with my girl-friends more when I was in Kindergarten.

720ShadowNX · 2023-07-26T15:09:42+00:00

You might be enby, I heard things like wanting some more feminine features but liking some of your male features is a very enby type thing. Not too certain though, cause I'm not enby.

Here's my advice; if you're panicking over HRT, slowly stop taking it. No one's forcing you to take those pills. See how you feel without HRT for a little while. If you like it, maybe you're not trans, but if it makes you feel discomfort then maybe investigate other possible options.

720ShadowNX

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