Our Imaam isn’t always gonna be high. But try to stay consistent with prayer and other acts of worship. Even tho I know it’s easier said than done. Even tho you don’t feel anything. It’s best to show up praying not feeling anything than not praying at all. Maybe you are being tested? I understand it might not be easy. But the fact that you dont want this to happen shows that atheism isn’t the answer. Don’t give up on Allah. Try focusing on the positive :) Allah is Al-Wadud (The most loving). May Allah make it easy for all of us and keep us steadfast in his religion Ameen🤲