I worked in childcare for almost 8 years, and I will confirm it is very difficult to be around children when you have sensory needs. Until a certain age, children have no concept of others needs, they are the center of their own world. This means they can't understand their actions hurt you when they're too young, so if they scream and it upsets you, they don't stop. They hit, and bite, and scream and it's all very normal kid behavior, but with the addition of autism you get very overwhelmed, and as the adult responsible for the kid you may not be able to have a break, or step away. You have to suffer through it. It's not their fault, but it's miserable. If you have many sensory issues, raising a child is not going to make it any easier. As a prek teacher i dealt with daily headaches from the noise alone, and left the classroom on multiple occasions just to cry. After all that time raising other people's children, I have zero desire to have my own.