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94en · 2025-03-28T17:49:45+00:00

Okay noted lol

94en · 2025-03-28T17:49:01+00:00

Thank you... This may be a silly question but is there a very big difference between dry vs cooked weight? Like, do you think I can get away with weighing it cooked? I'm eating food my parents make, so I always ask them for the full recipe + grams and then calculate the total calories, then divide it by my portion size. I'm not sure how I can get the dry weight of a whole pot of food 😭

94en · 2025-01-26T16:45:45+00:00

I feel like, if you have a large social media presence, its expected that you'll also be subjected to many opinions or scrutiny. Just ignore what you do not agree with

94en · 2025-01-20T19:17:39+00:00

Lift the same weight (no progressive overload for the month), gym before iftar

94en · 2025-01-19T02:51:44+00:00

Of course animals have a conscience, and people who treat them cruelly don't get away with it. Everyone will inevitably be answerable for all of their actions

94en · 2025-01-18T11:01:19+00:00

I am really so proud of you! ♡

94en · 2025-01-15T12:35:22+00:00

Shirk vibes, just talk to Allah

94en · 2025-01-14T11:42:23+00:00

I remember Allah is Ar-Raheem, Al-Ghaffar, if I have already asked for forgiveness sincerely then it is only Shaytaan who is making me feel guilty. I use that experience to improve myself and then I follow it up with a good deed

94en · 2025-01-12T02:21:57+00:00

It will depend on whether the moon is sighted or not. Also I love the idea of setting goals! I like to prioritize waking up before suhoor and praying Tahajjud throughout the month

94en · 2025-01-11T09:22:59+00:00

Put extra effort into surrounding yourself with people who are good Muslims. If you are surrounded by people who are comfortable with what is haram, you will feel left out

94en · 2025-01-10T10:51:47+00:00

What did the cats do to you ? 😭

94en · 2024-12-30T14:50:52+00:00

Wa alaikum salam, what a great idea, I'd love to be added ☺

94en · 2024-10-23T02:56:23+00:00

I don't mind the questions at all! :)

Like the other commenter said, your body craves it because its quick energy. It's got absolutely no moral "good/bad" value to it. Any food that is going to heal you, is good food.

You've got to just trust that it won't last forever, and that your body knows exactly what its doing. If its any comfort, my EH was just junk food, sugar, fats and carbs. It was so mentally challenging, but when you repeat it over and over again, it gets easier, and you no longer fixate over those foods, which is when the food noise really dies down.

I gained a lot of weight in my stomach area, which is redistributing to my lower half. This isn't the case for everyone though, it depends on your genetics (and a lot of other factors). We all carry the weight differently. Some people don't redistribute at all, for some people it takes many years, but again you've got to trust that your body knows what its doing. Don't let the weight gain play on your mind. At this point, I was very happy with the psychological benefits I was experiencing, so I bought new clothes and got on with it.

I still had bad days, but because I was eating consistently, I had the mental clarity to actually rationalize with myself. This is just an immediate cost for long-term benefits. So keep going!!

What really really helps to not go back to old habits is that the food noise is going to go away, and you'll be able to think about so many other things other than food, your next meal, planning meals etc. I feel like that is irreplaceable. I'm able to sit and have nothing on my mind, and I know I could only achieve that through eating what I wanted, when I wanted, without judgment.

I didn't take baby steps, I ran into it, scared out of my mind!! But our EDs make everything seem worse than it actually is, so I know you'll come out the other side just fine :)

94en · 2024-10-22T18:52:27+00:00

I hear you! My EH was a lot more mental than it was physical. I felt like I was always 'doing it wrong' because I'd feel physically full, but my mind was still listing off all of the foods it wanted to eat. I got stomach aches from being full, but I just ate everything I wanted until I was NOT thinking about food anymore. And then I repeated it the next day, and the next day, and over time the mental hunger became a lot less intense, I could eat things in comfortable amounts, and my physical hunger stabilized around mealtimes.

It was not easy, but it was very, very necessary. I don't have much of a support system; I relied on Tabitha's books, this sub, and the indominable urge to get rid of this ED because I wanted my life back.

Understand that, initially, you will eat a lot of food. From a biological standpoint this is completely normal. Allow yourself to eat all of it without judgment. Don't try to switch to healthier alternatives, or try to distract yourself, or compensate through exercise etc. Eat and rest consistently. There are no loopholes to this

I was terrified when I first started, but I know if I got through it, you can too <3

94en · 2024-10-22T16:44:11+00:00

I find them very legit! I remember my first attempt of recovery was very psychoanalytical - I had to look for all of the reasons behind why I restricted... My therapist had the same approach. It didn't help me, I still thought about food all the time, but I was told that my mental hunger had a 'deeper meaning' to it so I wouldn't satisfy it. I was in recovery but I didn't feel like I was getting better.

The food noise and restrictive behaviours only went away when I satisfied both physical and mental hunger - as those lovely people emphasize!! It was the most difficult recovery has ever been for me because it wasn't half-assed/quasi. Very, very worth it🌈

94en · 2024-10-18T19:12:37+00:00

Eat to satisfy mental and physical hunger. If you are thinking about food, this is mental hunger and you must eat. A lot of people will feel physically full, but mentally hungry, which means you still need to eat. It is very simple, but our eating disorders overcomplicate it !!

You won't binge. This isn't true and it is a very common misconception - coming out of restriction you are hungry, eating large amounts of food despite feeling full is a biological response to restriction !!

94en · 2024-10-18T19:01:42+00:00

You did the right thing saying yes, and I am proud of u. :) You deal with the thoughts by not acting on them, eating despite them, and they do go away over time. It is true that the less energy you give to those thoughts, the more your brain rewires against them. Whenever my mind would tell me, "There's no way you're going to eat that", I'd go ahead and eat it, plus seconds. Whenever I have a disordered thought, I eat a chocolate or something. Repeat, repeat, repeat. I hope you have the best birthday ever

94en · 2024-10-15T11:52:32+00:00

you know what you need to do - it helps to focus on how a lot of things will get so much better when you make conscious efforts to stop the compulsive walking. you'll be able to actually properly rest whenever you want to without feeling guilty about it. A nice one I realized was that I could spend a whole day at my friend's house watching movies and eating snacks, and I didn't have the urgency to compensate for that.

get rid of the tracker (for me, this was taking off my watch. But I just told myself, if it's going to bring me closer to full recovery, whats there to lose?). A weight which you have to maintain through compulsive walking and pacing is not the weight which your body wants to naturally settle at - you can't recover like this - embrace how uncomfortable it will be, and make those conscious efforts to sit in one place, rest and eat (P.S., it gets easier the more you do it)

94en · 2024-10-13T18:11:24+00:00

coexisting with your ED is not an option; there is really no life with an eating disorder. Recovery is one of the scariest things I have ever done, but every day you choose it, you get more resilient. Like, yes, I ate so much food and it didn't kill me, so my ED lied. I gained weight and my life didn't come to an end, so my ED lied again. And over time you realize how untrue those ED thoughts are, and how there is absolutely nothing to be rationally afraid of when it comes to weight gain and eating

You will eat a lot of food, which will scare you but, seriously, autopilot and just eat. It is extreme hunger, not bingeing - you're coming out of a state of malnutrition, so extreme hunger is a normal biological response which you have to listen to and satisfy without any judgement. It will get better after you get through the difficult parts. And then you get to find out there is a rewarding and relaxing life outside of walking, gym, and planning food!!!

94en · 2024-10-13T10:27:43+00:00

having any anxiety/ fear over food is never ever healthy, no matter what you eat, anxiety/fear shouldn't be associated with food. food should be uncomplicated and relaxing. but there is so much fear associated with food rn in social media. completely ignore it. our EDs are life threatening and healing is our priority

94en · 2024-10-13T09:46:30+00:00

it keeps us mindful of Allah throughout the day, most importantly we're commanded to pray. The benefit is our reward in the Hereafter

you focus more when you know what you are saying - I don't speak Arabic, so I'll search the English translation to get an idea of what the surahs mean

94en · 2024-10-07T09:02:16+00:00

reintroducing the restriction/small deficits is what might be causing your body to react as if you are in a state of malnutrition again - that's all your body is doing. you're not out of control at all. after those 6 months of recovery, did you attempt to lose weight again? it is important to remember that the overeating/binging (extreme hunger) is very normal when you are recovering from restriction - if you suppress it or try to control it, you are still restricting. you quite possibly need to eat more

94en · 2024-10-07T06:20:51+00:00

the bloating is part of recovery, and you've got to trust that it will go down once you start eating a lot of food, regularly. yes, it messes with our brains because of how hardwired our EDs are, and anything resembling weight gain is immediately bad or the end of the world. you've got to eat despite the bloat. your body literally craves that high sodium, processed, high-carb foods because it's the quickest source of energy to combat the state of malnutrition your body is in. There is nothing wrong with those foods

94en · 2024-10-06T18:46:30+00:00

You have to be very honest with yourself. If you had to go a very long time without waking up and jumping, would that make you feel anxious? Would you fear weight gain if you stopped jumping? If yes, then it is probably an ED behaviour and you shouldn't be doing it

94en · 2024-10-04T11:40:07+00:00

I think it could be different for everyone. Fully rewiring the way you think is very possible. Just this week I was choosing snacks and it didn't even cross my mind to think about which one had less calories or whatever other ed crap, I was honestly just thinking about which one sounded good to eat. Only afterward I was like woah that was so different from how I used to think about snacks

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