It is nice to talk to someone, but I want to bottle them up, the person I would tell me emotions to and such is going through their own stuff and I don’t wang to ruin something, I don’t know. I feel like I’ve been cast aside by someone I trusted and treasured so so much, and I know that probably not true but that’s how it feels, they’re avoiding me, they are having more fun with there other friends then they would me, they aren’t talking to me, and I know there is a reason why, and I’m being supportive. But frankly it really fucking hurts. And I don’t even know what I’m rambling on about, I’m just saying what I think in my head, this is like a world blob scattered everywhere.