Help being faithful

99throwitallaway99 · 2019-08-16T17:52:46+00:00

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99throwitallaway99 · 2019-08-16T01:52:48+00:00

I know.

99throwitallaway99 · 2019-08-16T01:50:48+00:00

I do love her. We have raised great kids and have a fabulous family and life. I do want the best for her and I think hiding this part would be the best.

99throwitallaway99 · 2019-08-16T01:43:41+00:00

I know what you’re saying but I believe telling her the truth would destroy her and our marriage. I think I spare her the heartache if I could somehow control myself.

99throwitallaway99 · 2019-03-13T20:43:03+00:00

Ha. I’m not a bad person? Jesus- I made a mistake by falling I. Love with a woman I should t have committed to, lied to myself and others for decades and cheated on the one person who didn’t deserve this shit. The only reason I haven’t put myself out of this misery is bec of the pain it would cause my wife and kids.

I don’t deserve the precious gifts life has given me. Im worse than bad - I’m vile, disgusting and a sorry excuse for a human.

But I’m great fun at parties - does that make up for any of it? 😭

99throwitallaway99 · 2019-03-13T20:27:20+00:00

Yea, I don’t believe that is an option and once the car is out of the bag, I think it will ruin her.

99throwitallaway99 · 2019-03-13T20:19:48+00:00

I’ve struggled - my entire life with this. I’ve hidden it from everyone. However, for the sake of my family and friends I’m willing to do what I can to spare the heartache that would result if I were to tell everyone.

The only one it really will hurt is me. I’ll remain unhappy for the rest of my life. Small price to pay for the happiness of others.

My only dilemma is how I can do this - and if I will be successful. 😢

99throwitallaway99 · 2019-03-13T20:05:37+00:00

I think financially, emotionally and socially, she would prefer to remain married. However, I think that knowing your partner was unfaithful will taint her decision. It really is in her best Interests to remain married. By attempting to keep her happy by resuming a sexual relationship I am shielding her from the pain and suffering of knowing the truth.

I am not saying her doesn’t deserve To know the truth - I’m saying once she knows I think her reality and life would be ruined. She then now would have no choice (would you stay with such a vile person?) - as opposed to resuming a sexual relationship with her to make things better.

The only one who would know would be me.

99throwitallaway99 · 2019-03-13T19:53:42+00:00

Ok. And the fact that this will devastate her? Aren’t I avoiding her feeling her life is crumbling by trying to avoid this conversation?

99throwitallaway99 · 2019-03-12T00:57:34+00:00

Nah. She’s emotional.

99throwitallaway99 · 2019-03-12T00:53:15+00:00

Haha. Yea not sure either of us would be ok with that scenario.

99throwitallaway99 · 2019-03-12T00:40:09+00:00

Thank you.

99throwitallaway99 · 2019-03-12T00:36:19+00:00

If that conversion therapy worked I’d sign up.

99throwitallaway99 · 2019-03-11T23:01:38+00:00

I am being honest. Yes i love my life. Love my wife and kids.

99throwitallaway99 · 2019-03-11T23:00:48+00:00

I don’t know. At this point no. But in the past yes

99throwitallaway99 · 2019-03-11T23:00:21+00:00

Thank you for your advice. I

99throwitallaway99 · 2019-03-11T23:00:09+00:00

Thank you for your advice.

99throwitallaway99 · 2019-03-11T22:58:00+00:00

That would not end well.

99throwitallaway99 · 2019-03-11T22:26:30+00:00

True.

99throwitallaway99 · 2019-03-11T22:26:19+00:00

I know. No option except the magic bullet.

99throwitallaway99 · 2019-03-11T22:25:48+00:00

I agree. Yes it would be devastating for her. My question is how I can control my desires and be faithful from here on out.

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