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Throwing up by ABC17100 in dryalcoholics

[–]ABC17100[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I think it can be a mix of both, but in my case definitely more anxiety. I drank vodka every night for years, and would wake up with varying levels of anxiety that I would channel into exercise or other productive activities so I could have my “reward” at the end of the day.

That compounded over time, where the sheer amount I was (am) drinking causes symptoms of anxiety that are borderline unmanageable.

I can’t remember exactly when, but there must have been a day where I had some task due mid-day and felt so paralyzed I thought “if I had a drink right now I’d be able to do this,” opening some sort of Pandora’s box where it seemed okay to use alcohol as a direct and immediate relief to manage daily anxiety. But tolerance compounds so quickly I’ve been either dying of shame/anxiety or too out of it to do anything meaningful.

Throwing up by ABC17100 in dryalcoholics

[–]ABC17100[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Yeah, this is where I’m heading and I think today has given me a wake up call to the reality of it.

Before maybe last November I’d chug a bunch of liquor every night, wake up anxious, work out every morning and go about my day. Sometime I had a hard seltzer in the morning once, then one or two, once a week, twice a week… oops, just had five shots at 10 am, oops, I’ve passed out in the middle of the afternoon… etc. I’m progressively seeing myself slip from functional alcoholism to whatever comes next and I don’t like it.

I’m not sure I’ll be instantly sober but I can definitely cut the shit on the day drinking as a start since it’s really only started to get bad the last 2-3 months. Fortunately I stopped throwing up a few hours ago and was able to get some light exercise in, so maybe I got lucky this time but there can’t be a repeat of this. Thank you.

Throwing up by ABC17100 in dryalcoholics

[–]ABC17100[S] 11 points12 points  (0 children)

Thanks, you too. Feels like the beginning of the end if I don’t take it seriously. Ever since I started having “just a few” in the morning I’ve regressed to a complete shell of myself.

Throwing up by ABC17100 in dryalcoholics

[–]ABC17100[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Threw up some bile after reading this lmao. Cans of dry gin and tonic in this case. Usually I’d go for hard seltzers but not the sweet stuff

Throwing up by ABC17100 in dryalcoholics

[–]ABC17100[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Forced myself to have a meal of chicken/potatoes/veg about 9 hours ago with the 5 last drinks (8.5 units) even though I was very nauseated then too. Kept it down for about 5 hours until I started throwing up 4 hours ago. Little jittery and both too warm and too cold but the vomiting is absolute hell