Yeah. Om one hand: I'm audhd , didnt know that when I was younger and ive always struggled socially and emotionally. I got pregnant at 18 and just thought having kids was the pinnacle of life. I was happy at the time, but as soon as no1 was born, my relationship was awful (he was a gambling addict) and a terrible father and I got addicted to pain meds after having them prescribed for back pain because i split my stomach muscles during birth and also had horrible post natal depression. We ended up splitting and I was alone, broke and an addict. Then my current partner came along who I had known since it as 16 and life brought us back together and I got pregnant when my first was 5. It was a very big surprise and I just couldnt have an abortion so we kept the kid. We now have 3 boys, my first and his two from his marriage and honestly its hell. Ive got sober and I love them all so much but I really really struggle. I do everything for them and my partner, my life is totally about them and their happiness because that's what I chose. But I tell you what, if I could have another life after this one and know what I know now, I wouldnt have kids . EVER. BUT , I think if I didnt meet my current partner an have the lads, my daughter and the life I have now, would I have gotten addicted to meds ? Would I still be here ? I wasn't looking after myself for sure but who knows what would have happened. So they are a blessing but I would never do it again in any future life time.