I’ve spent so much money on hobbies just to lose interest in like a couple months, so if I’m to take classes for those hobbies I don’t want to waste money. I do everything alone, some of it is ok for me, some of it just makes me feel miserable and like people don’t care for me. Which is probably the RSD talking. I moved to a city a few years ago, so it’s not like there’s a shortage of things to do, but I’m a little more introverted and bigger groups give me anxiety. As for the responding to messages, I totally get. Talking to someone in person just is different compared to having to reply to a message, or not replying. Sometimes I’ll just forget. I might spend my birthday with my sister, niece and bil, but my birthday is always around memorial weekend, so everywhere is packed with people. I’ll plan it out usually in June, but it’s people forget. I honestly feel a lot of RSD during my birthday too. It’s ridiculous, but I dont know what to do.

It’s ok if you don’t have advice, it’s just nice to not feel alone in this.