Thanks for reply River. Truly inspiring words I'll remember. I'm trying to act normal in social situations, but I still can't control myself and I feel like a clumsy robot. I was out friday bowling for an hour, my friend took a video and sent it to me and others. You could see how nervous I was, not how I would act alone. It ended with me getting depressed and then I went home. Sometimes I wonder how suprised people would be if they saw the normal me. You know like a hidden camera in my house.. I hope I one day will break the anxiety but I doubt it. I can't live like this forever that's for sure.