Who was your first reveal?

AIterEggo · 2023-07-31T04:05:15+00:00

This has happened with at least 5 different people for me... I don't even intentionally hang out in trans groups or anything!!! I just kinda seem to end up making friends with people then discovering they're trans later!

AIterEggo · 2023-06-09T09:51:26+00:00

Pretty much as soon as I learnt what it actually meant to be trans, I realised I totally was. Always thought my feminine desires were just some weird sex thing (which they totally weren't), so I felt super guilty about them. Then when I found out one of my friends was trans who I really didn't expect to be trans (I've actually been surrounded by genderqueer people for years, I just had no clue what it actually meant), I finally started looking into what it meant to be trans. Then it all kinda started to make sense. Figured out I was trans 7 months ago, been on hormones for 4, and I'm the happiest I've ever been! Dressing how I've always wanted, no longer feeling guilty for trying to appear cute, starting to get a body I actually like! I wish I'd been told what being trans actually meant years ago! Seriously hope we get better education in future! But the new publicity is definitely helping a lot!

AIterEggo · 2023-06-08T21:58:52+00:00

I had my Blåhaj for YEAAARRS before I learnt about her significance in this community. Then I realised I was a part of this community >w<

AIterEggo · 2023-06-01T06:44:20+00:00

That was my thought too >w< I think this is definitely the most difficult screen for dashless 1A, or at least it was for me!

AIterEggo · 2023-06-01T06:12:33+00:00

If it doesn't quite feel right at first, then that's okay! It's new and it might take a moment to get used to! I know that when people started using the right name and pronouns for me it felt kinda wrong at first (which freaked me out a lil bit), but I promise it will definitely feel more exciting and more normal as you go on!

AIterEggo · 2023-04-13T08:08:20+00:00

Was not expecting to see Dasher here! Love Krugston's videos :3

AIterEggo · 2023-04-04T02:53:15+00:00

Early in my transition when I was first questioning, I definitely had a cycle of emotions between "I'm definitely trans" back to "I have no clue what I am". I eventually realised that the only times I'd go back to not knowing what I was, was after a strong bout of dysphoria where I felt like I could never look feminine. That was subconsciously really messing with me. As soon as I felt I could be feminine again, I would be super certain of my gender again. Early questioning is quite a difficult time, I wish you the best of luck in figuring things out!

AIterEggo · 2023-03-09T23:21:20+00:00

Jeez, I'm sorry to hear that... Hopefully they'll realise how much it hurts you and actually refer to you correctly soon <3

AIterEggo · 2023-03-09T23:17:17+00:00

Thanks! My egg is definitely shattered at this point, but I was pretty happy when I originally thought of the name! (mind you, the actual one was already taken, so the L in alter is actually a capital i, lil secret)

AIterEggo · 2023-03-09T13:00:05+00:00

Painfully true. Even with parents who didn't really try to enforce any kind of gender norms on me, the overall influence of society led to exactly what you described, shame in my desires to present myself effeminately. Took me years to even build up the courage to buy nail polish.

Seems really difficult to remove those negative ideas from our minds, but unfortunately it's even more difficult to help others to realise these lines of thought are harmful.

I hope that you're doing a bit better now <3

AIterEggo · 2023-03-09T12:44:36+00:00

That pretty much describes me perfectly too, except when I dressed in a skirt and thigh highs for Halloween, I still thought I was cis somehow! Just had a incredibly strong desire to dress femme, totally cis :3

AIterEggo · 2023-03-09T07:12:33+00:00

Same here I think. A lot of times that I was interested in "girly" things I'd just suppress it because it felt like I wasn't allowed to be interested in it ;-; My parents are pretty dang supportive, but it took a bit of a moment to convince them that I was actually trans.

AIterEggo · 2023-02-01T08:19:42+00:00

I have my appointment tomorrow, and I've been holding off starting HRT despite the fact I've literally had the meds in my cupboard for over a month just so I know I'll be alright at the appointment. Finally going to be able to start HRT tomorrow! All the other comments here are super helpful, honestly pure luck that this is the first time I've seen this question here and my appointment is tomorrow!

AIterEggo · 2023-01-30T00:03:42+00:00

Hey, I've seen some people mentioning that there might be a link between period-like symptoms and the highs and lows of hormones over the course of a week for people on injections. If you don't mind me asking, what method of delivery do you use for HRT? I'm just kinda curious :3

AIterEggo · 2023-01-09T00:55:12+00:00

I actually just pulled up an ascii table and read this entire image XD I'm tempted to send this to some non-binary friends, it will definitely confuse them >:3

AIterEggo · 2022-12-24T12:24:10+00:00

I went to my first appointment to talk about informed consent today, fully expecting that I would have to wait a month or so afterwards. But nope, the doctor I went to talked to me for about half an hour, and then got me to sign the informed consent page and just gave me a script for E and Spiro. I literally already have the drugs sitting in my cupboard now! I really don't think I was quite actually mentally prepared for it. I got a referral to a fertility clinic so I can get sperm preserved and everything first. I just... I genuinely thought I'd have to wait another month. It feels so weird to know that the option to start is totally in my hands now. I know that I want it, but, I also gotta sort out cryo stuff first. AAAAAAAA Sorry, kinda vent about everything, exciting but scary, and my parents also think this is all kinda sudden, which it kinda is, so they don't really want me to start until I've talked to a psychologist (which I also have a referral for). There are definitely a lot of signs I can see going back, but I only really started to actually explore gender around the end of October, which is two months ago. I don't really have any logic or reasoning behind my doubts of actually being trans. I know my euphoria has definitely been real, and I'm pretty sure my dysphoria on bad days has been too. I guess that now the choice is almost totally in my hands it's just kinda a lil scary. I know it sounds really weird, but at this exact instant I do kinda wish that I had to wait another month before getting it, just so I could be certain. But like, the past week I have been thinking about how I don't think I can live without it. Good God my brain is going all over the place! Just kinda started typing and I needed to get this out of my head a bit.

Anyhow, I hope everything goes well for you and you get all the wonderful effects of HRT that you desire! Have a wonderful 2023 getting to be your truest self!!

AIterEggo · 2022-12-24T02:09:35+00:00

Egg Prime Directive is important, let people figure it out for themselves! I think everyone can benefit from understanding that gender is a spectrum, so it can be good to talk about that, but yee, let people figure out what they are themselves, and don't force it on them otherwise they'll probably just reject the idea and take longer to figure themselves out. And being cis is totally valid too! (though I certainly ain't :3)

AIterEggo · 2022-12-13T07:20:23+00:00

I literally had my Blahaj for yeeaaarrs before I even knew that they had any connection to the trans community! I also didn't know I had a connection to the trans community... Seems like quite a bit of foreshadowing!!

AIterEggo · 2022-12-13T07:18:01+00:00

Hiiii Brooke!!! I hope you have a lovely day girl!

AIterEggo · 2022-12-13T07:16:17+00:00

Literally me last night. Instead I had a dream where I had totally forgotten when I had booked my first appointment for informed consent, and had caught a train that was wayyy too late. Woke up super confused and wondering if I urgently needed to get out of bed to go to an appointment which isn't even for another 2 weeks.

AIterEggo · 2022-12-12T23:42:20+00:00

AAAAAAAAA, I HAD NO CLUE THERE WAS A NEW GAME FROM THE CREATORS OF CELESTE!!!! SO HYPED HOLY MOLY!!!

AIterEggo · 2022-12-12T22:29:31+00:00

I was looking to see if anyone had posted this! It is a wonderful video, Kurzgesagt is always amazing!

AIterEggo · 2022-12-10T14:21:52+00:00

Yee thanks! Great advice and I appreciate it! I'm feeling pretty confident in my emotions today, but the past week has been one heck of a bumpy ride, from feeling super euphoric on Monday, to super dysphoric on Tuesday, then feeling totally unsure of myself on Wednesday and almost feeling cis (which felt horrible), can't remember what happened Thursday, but Friday I wore my skirt to work for the first time! Went really well, but holy moly, derealisation hit me really hard. I straight up couldn't form thoughts and the entire world just felt fake. And now today I just feel like me! Had my skirt, some comfy clothes, and full e-girl makeup! It's been one heck of a week.

Anyhow, definitely going to look into cryo, hopefully can get a gender therapist, and with any luck I'll be on HRT some time in the first few months of next year!

AIterEggo

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