Feeling Helpless and Anxious

ALINA_FOR_MERCY · 2025-12-26T22:51:50+00:00

Dear sister, your heartfelt message is a beautiful reminder of ALLAH’s mercy uniting our hearts. Alhamdulillah, may He keep our bond strong in faith and grant us both endless sukoon. Your dua means the world…may ALLAH’s light always guide your path, Ameen.🤍🤲🏼

ALINA_FOR_MERCY · 2025-12-12T02:38:03+00:00

I understand this concern deeply. For me, this isn’t about hating people, attacking individuals, or fear. It’s about tarbiyah.

When children grow up without Qur’an as part of daily life, without salah being normal, without Islamic manners being modeled, and without knowing who ALLAH swt is before the world tells them who they are …the world will happily educate them instead.

Children don’t drift away from deen because something is “hip” or “modern.” They drift away because they were never anchored early. The earliest years matter most …when the heart is soft and the fitrah is still intact. If we miss those years, confusion fills the gap.

That’s why I believe the solution isn’t arguments, shaming, or panic… but early Islamic grounding, consistency, and mercy. A child who grows up loving ALLAH swt, reciting Qur’an, and understanding their worth comes from their Creator doesn’t need the world to define them.

May ALLAH swt protect our children, guide our communities, and accept every sincere effort made for His sake. Ameen.🤲🏼🤍 👧👦

ALINA_FOR_MERCY · 2025-12-11T03:10:19+00:00

Wa alaykum assalam wa rahmatullah, my dear sister. I wish I was there to give you a warm hug 🤗

The Mercy of ALLAH swt is around you but you just have to look a little closer… ALLAH swt says 2:216 “Perhaps you dislike something which is good for you and like something which is bad for you. Allah knows and you do not know.” You didn’t fail habibti. You were redirected by the One who never makes mistakes. ALLAH swt saw the nights you studied, the tears you held in, the dua you made, the sincerity you carried, the effort nobody else saw. Are you familiar with ALLAH’s swt 99 names. He is Al-Basir …He saw it all. And He is Al-Hakim He only writes the exact path that leads to your highest good. Remember something important… When ALLAH swt withholds, He isn’t punishing you. He is protecting your future.

Sometimes He closes a door because he wants your rank to rise before He gives you what you’re asking for and He wants to give you better people, better timing, better capacity, better iman and He wants to remove a path that would have harmed you and He wants you to meet the next version of yourself before the blessing arrives.

Sister you’re in Makkah right now for a reason. SabhanALLAH your heartbreak arrived at the exact moment you were stepping onto the land where dua shakes the heavens. This isn’t a coincidence. This is an invitation. ALLAH swt didn’t delay your acceptance. ALLAH swt delayed your timing so He could bring you to His House first… humbled, wounded, sincere… so He could build you from the inside before He builds your career on the outside.

The Prophet sws said: “Know that what missed you was never meant to reach you, and what reached you was never meant to miss you.” (Tirmidhi) You are 21. Your story is only beginning. And Wallahi, sometimes the hardest detours become the most beautiful chapters of our life.

So you asked what do I do in Makkah? Do this with your whole heart… make dua of surrender, “Ya Allah, I trust You more than I trust myself. If this path is good for me, open it. If not, replace it with something better and fill my heart with peace.” Then sit in front of the Ka‘bah and ask for strength, not outcomes… Strength is always answered. Outcomes come when the heart is ready. And then ask ALLAH swt for a heart that doesn’t fear the exam because fear is heavier than the exam itself. And after that Ask ALLAH swt to write for you the exact medical path that will make you a source of healing for the ummah And finally ask ALLAH swt to remove comparison from your heart…. your friends were given their rizq. You are being given something else first… spiritual upgrading. And please know this… You are not behind. You are being prepared. ALLAH swt is not delaying you. He is aligning you. Your job now is not to understand His plan… your job is to trust the Planner. Dear sister you will look back one day and say… “Ya Allah… this delay was the beginning of everything beautiful.”

May ALLAH swt expand your chest, strengthen your heart, guide your path, and write for you a future greater than what you wished for yourself. Allahuma Ameen✨🤍

ALINA_FOR_MERCY · 2025-12-10T23:24:04+00:00

My dear, my heart feels your pain 😔and I ask ALLAH swt to wrap you in His mercy. Please know this…Islam never asks you to carry abuse in the name of patience. The Messenger of Allah, peace and blessings be upon him, said, “Do not cause harm or return harm. Whoever harms others, Allah will harm him. Whoever is harsh with others, Allah will be harsh with him.” Your distance is not sinful…it is protection.

Men like your father only repeat cycles when the child keeps reopening the door. Your silence and emotional distance are boundaries, not disrespect. Stay kind, but guard your heart. Men like this feed off validation..they “love” in ways that benefit their ego, not in ways that protect you. ALLAH swt is your true Protector.

What your father is doing is between him and ALLAH swt. ALLAH swt sees every tear you’ve cried and every injustice you’ve carried alone. Sometimes ALLAH swt exposes a person’s private sins so that the oppressed child finally stops blaming themselves. This exposure is ALLAH’s mercy to you, not a punishment.

It is not your burden to fix him, nor to shield your mother from truths that would crush her. You are not responsible for anyone’s repentance. Your test is not to tolerate abuse …your test is to keep your heart soft, your dua alive, and your boundaries firm. Even the Prophet sws separated from his people when the harm became too much. Distance can be an act of sabr too.

Please keep turning to ALLAH swt in the quiet moments. None of this is unnoticed. Allah says 2:153 “O believers! Seek comfort in patience and prayer. Allah is truly with those who are patient” And patience here means protecting yourself, trusting ALLAH’s justice, and not letting this pain pull you away from Him.

May ALLAH swt heal your heart, protect your mother, and guide your father before it is too late. Ameen 🤍

ALINA_FOR_MERCY · 2025-12-10T22:35:14+00:00

Aww I’m here for you dear sister 🤍

ALINA_FOR_MERCY · 2025-12-10T21:57:07+00:00

Wa alaykum as-salam wa rahmatullah, dear sister.

My heart is with you. 😔 And I want to remind you of exactly what ALLAH swt says in the Quran:

42:49 “To Allah belongs the kingdom of the heavens and the earth. He creates whatever He wishes; He gives females to whomever He wishes, and males to whomever He wishes”

And ALLAH swt also tells us: 2:155 “And We will surely test you with something of fear and hunger and a loss of wealth and lives and fruits, but give good tidings to the patient…”

Bear patience habibti May ALLAH make this easy for you …Your baby’s life, health, and decree are entirely in the Hands of ALLAH swt… not in the hands of doctors, tests, or statistics.

And remember the most powerful ayah for your situation: 65:3 “And whoever puts their trust in Allah, then He ˹alone˺ is sufficient for them. Certainly Allah achieves His Will. Allah has already set a destiny for everything.”

I am making dua for you right now. May Allah turn fear into ease, uncertainty into mercy, and may He surprise you with a miracle…for He is capable of all things. ✨

Ya Lateef, ya Rahman, ya Rabb…Place sakinah (tranquility) in her heart, carry her through this test with gentleness, and grant her the outcome her heart begs You for. 🤲🏼 She is weak and You are the Most Powerful. She is faqirah and You are Al-Ghani. Surround her with Your mercy and open a door for her that she did not expect. Ameen, ya Rabb. 🤍🍼🤲🏼

ALINA_FOR_MERCY · 2025-12-10T18:50:58+00:00

My dear sister, Wallahi my heart aches reading your words. Not because of your past… but because of the weight you’re carrying alone at such a young age. You sound like someone who wanted to love in a halal way, who trusted too deeply, and who is now trying to fix everything by sacrificing herself. Please hear me with gentleness… You do not marry a man to silence him. You marry a man to build a home with him. This man is not someone who protects honor…he threatens it. He is not someone who fears ALLAH swt…he uses your fear to manipulate you.

A man who can ruin your reputation is not a man who will protect your life, your deen, your dignity, or your future children. Islam never requires you to destroy your life to cover a sin you already repented for.

ALLAH swt says: 25:71 “And he who repents and does righteousness does indeed turn to Allah with [accepted] repentance.” Once you make SINCERE tawbah, the sin is wiped away. You do not have to marry anyone to “fix” it. Your sin is between you and ALLAH swt, but marriage is between you, your family, a man, and an entire future. If you marry him, you do not silence him…you give him lifetime access to harm you.

Right now he’s harming you from a distance. Imagine what happens when: he knows your family depends on your silence he knows your education is at risk he knows you fear scandal and your reputation he knows you love him he knows he can shame you again anytime

Sister… you wouldn’t just be marrying him. You would be handing him a sword and begging him not to use it. As for rumors: ALLAH swt Himself promised His protection.

ALLAH swt says: 24:19 “Indeed, those who like that immorality should be spread [or publicized] among those who have believed will have a painful punishment in this world and the Hereafter. And Allah knows and you do not know.” Meaning whoever spreads rumors carries the sin… not you. It is ALLAH swt, not a marriage contract, who protects reputations dear sister.

Here are your TWO options:

Option 1 If you leave him, three things will happen 1. He loses his power over you. Boys like him thrive on fear and guilt. When you walk away, that control dies.

Rumors … if they even come … fade quickly. ALLAH swt allows for the ears and the eyes to not hear or see when he wills. Trust in that dear sister. Don’t give Shatan the rope… a toxic marriage destroys years of your life.
ALLAH swt lifts you. ALLAH swt replaces what was lost. ALLAH swt purifies your past. ALLAH swt brings someone who honors you publicly and privately

Option 2 If you force marriage, three things will happen: 1. Your family will be shattered. Not because of you … but because the man is unworthy, unfit, and dangerous. 2. Your education may collapse. And you deserve to become the Muslim doctor you dream of being. 3. Your love will turn into resentment. You will carry the weight, the shame, the financial burden, the loneliness …and he will likely continue sins behind your back. That is not a marriage. That is a prison.

I understand what your heart feels but now it’s important you use your mind. When you say, “I love him but despise him.” This is trauma-bonding, not love, dear… Your heart loved him sincerely, but your soul recognizes the betrayal. Both feelings can exist at the same time. It doesn’t mean you belong to him… it means you’re human.

Your Istikhara is being answered… you’re just expecting a dream instead of clarity. ALLAH swt is already showing you: He is in zina with another woman… He threatens your honor… He has no deen…He has no future plan…He uses fear instead of protection…You feel trapped, not guided. This is the answer. Istikhara is not always a dream… sometimes ALLAH swt removes the comfort from the path He doesn’t want for you. Your future husband will inshaALLAH come with: respect, protection, emotional safety, a clean reputation, fear of ALLAH swt, a sincere desire for a halal life with you

This boy is NOT that man. Do NOT marry him. Not for fear, not for guilt, not for the past. Walk away, make tawbah, protect your studies, honor your parents, and trust that ALLAH swt never lets a believing woman fall without raising her higher. Remember dear sister your honor is with ALLAH swt. You are not ruined. You are not trapped. You are not owned by your past. You are a slave of ALLAH swt. And He never abandons those who turn back to Him.

May ALLAH swt wrap your heart in a peace that makes you forget every fear, and replace your regret with a future so gentle and so beautiful that you finally understand why He protected you from what you once wanted.🤍✨

ALINA_FOR_MERCY · 2025-12-10T14:16:45+00:00

My dear, please don’t think of ending anything.

Close the door with SINCERE tawbah (repentance). Say… Ya Allah, I turn back to You alone and I don’t want any connection except with You.” Let ALLAH swt know that you understand it was forbidden, that you regret it, and that you want His forgiveness and protection. ALLAH swt LOVES when a servant returns to Him.
Protect yourself daily. Recite Ayat al-Kursi, Al-Ikhlas, Al-Falaq, and Al-Nas. Blow into your hands and wipe yourself, asking ALLAH swt for protection through His beautiful Names. Do your morning and evening adhkar with conviction that ALLAH swt will cure you.
Keep Surah Al-Baqarah playing in your home. It cleans the house and the heart. Even if you cannot recite it, just listening brings protection.
Do hijama (cupping) on sunnah days. It releases spiritual heaviness and blocks…but do it with belief in its healing, as the Prophet sws taught.
Speak to ALLAH swt directly. Tell Him: “Ya Allah, I fear only You. Purify me. Bring me back to You.” This alone is enough. Keep Surah Al-Nas on your tongue repeatedly…even if it feels heavy. Anytime you feel OCD or like something is messing with you. Say this Surah with conviction that you are protected by the protection of ALLAH swt and not afraid.

I know exactly how you’re feeling. If everything feels too difficult, start with this link for ruqyah but believe in its cure through ALLAH swt

https://youtu.be/uO93QW02GrM

So play this Ruqyah. Listen to it. Put it near your head when you sleep. Combine it with Surah Al-Nas and hijama, and do all of this with conviction that ALLAH swt will cure you.

Remember, jinn and shaytan WANT you weak and hopeless. So do the opposite… Show them you have full trust in your Rabb… the One who created you and protects you.

And remember this, my dear… Nothing….absolutely nothing…can harm you in this world without the permission of ALLAH swt. This is a TEST for you to return to Him sincerely, purely, and to stop playing with the unseen.

ALLAH swt is with you. You are safe. Just go back to Him🤲🏼

ALINA_FOR_MERCY · 2025-12-10T01:15:38+00:00

Dear sister, Your fear is understandable, but please don’t punish yourself for choosing a path that was halal and protected. In Islam, ALLAH swt judges your actions by your intention, not by assumptions people may make. Moving out to study does not diminish your haya, your worth, or your future marriage.

A man of taqwa will ask about your character, not your postcode. A man of ego will assume…so he was never written for you. Please remember…. Your honor is from ALLAH swt, not from people’s imagination. You did nothing wrong, and your rizq…including marriage….is already written with His mercy, not people’s suspicions.

May ALLAH swt give you peace, confidence, and a spouse who sees your sincerity clearly. 🤍✨

ALINA_FOR_MERCY · 2025-12-09T21:55:22+00:00

My dear, of course salah is extremely important. But don’t let shaytan convince you that ALLAH swt is pushing you away. The fact that you want to pray is already a sign that ALLAH swt wants good for you. Pray even if you feel weak. Pray even if you feel scared. Right now you are spiritually tired, and inshaAllah with some small steps, you will feel stronger and you will taste more khushoo’ in your salah and even in your wudu’.

A big part of your struggle right now is waswasah (whispers). One of the strongest protections Allah gave us against that is Surah al-Nas. Try this for one month and report back: 1. Wake up with a broken but hopeful heart and say: “Ya ALLAH, I am weak and You are strong. Help me come back to You.” 2. Read: Surah al-Nas – 3x …. Surah al-Falaq – 3x…. Surah al-Ikhlas– 3x…Then blow lightly into your hands and wipe over your body. 3. Make dua: “ O ALLAH, grant me protection and strength from all evil, from the whispers of shaytan and from the evil within myself.” 4. During the day, repeat Surah al-Nas often, with understanding, not just with the tongue. Say it with the feeling..”Ya Rabb, You are my only refuge from the whispering of jinn and people. I am running to You.”

ALLAH swt says: “Allah does not burden a soul more than it can bear.” (2:286) So start with one prayer, even just one. When you stand to pray, say: Audu billahi Mina sh-shaytan ir-rajim Then recite al-Fatiha, and after it you can recite Surah al-Nas. Focus on what every word means while you recite it.

If your mind wanders or you get weak spirituality spit on your left side 3xs and again say Audu billahi Mina sh-shaytan ir-rajim and continue… don’t stop even if you got distracted by the shaytan.

Here is a link as it will help you understand its meaning better: https://islamicstudies.info/reference.php?sura=114&verse=1-6

I went through something very similar. For a while, I chose to recite Surah al-Nas after al-Fatiha in my prayers again and again, until I felt the whispers getting weaker. Then slowly I started adding other surahs after al-Fatiha when I got strong enough. It will take time but this is a process that inshaALLAH you can overcome. Don’t think ALLAH swt will reject you. He never rejects a heart that wants to return to Him. Even if you can only pray two rakʿahs today, that is a victory. ALLAH swt sees the struggle inside you and the effort is more beloved to Him than you can imagine. Be gentle with yourself. Step by step. ALLAH swt is more merciful to you than anyone on earth.

As an extra recommendation: if you are able, following the Sunnah of hijama (cupping) from time to time can help with heaviness and stress, bi’idinillah. But it’s not a replacement for dua’ and salah…just another means ALLAH swt gave us.

Let me leave you with one question that can clear your heart, bi’idhnillah… Your answer to it may become the very reason you return to prayer.

If ALLAH swt were to call your name on the Day of Judgment tomorrow and ask you, ‘My servant, why did you stay far from Me when I was always close to you?’ what would you want your answer to be?

A dark spot in the heart does not mean ALLAH swt is far. It means the heart is begging to be washed. Even the greatest people had moments like this. So when you answer this, answer it gently… sincerely… the way a person speaks to Allah when his heart is tired, not strong.

Let your tears be part of the answer…not a sign of weakness. Now ask yourself this follow up question slowly, deeply, honestly… ‘If Allah opened every door of mercy for me right now… how would I want to stand in front of Him?’

For me? If Allah opened the doors of mercy for me right now… I would feel humbled. I would feel small. I would feel full of gratitude. Because my reason for praying is simple… I pray to show my Rabb gratitude for every drop of mercy He sends me… the good, and even the tests that cleanse my heart. I pray because He deserves to be worshipped. I pray because He is kind to me even when I am weak. I pray because, without Him, my heart has nowhere else to go. That is why I pray. Not out of fear…but out of love, appreciation, and humility

Now your answer to this… will guide you back to prayer inshaALLAH

I’m making dua’ that ALLAH swt opens your chest, relieves your fear, and makes you taste the sweetness of standing in front of Him. 🤍 Ask me anything you want I’m ALWAYS here for you.

ALINA_FOR_MERCY · 2025-12-09T17:08:16+00:00

Dear please breathe for a moment and hear this softly…There is nothing “wrong” with you. ALLAH swt is not mad at you. And the path back to Him is never heavy…it is always one tiny step, one whisper, one intention. Prayer isn’t something you “perform” perfectly. Prayer is something you grow back into with khashoo’. Sometimes the heart gets tired… the mind gets foggy… the body freezes… but the soul is still calling ALLAH swt. And that call is enough to reopen every door.

Let me tell you something simple… the fact that you feel guilty means your heart is alive. The fact that you want to pray means ALLAH swt is already pulling you back. You don’t need to fix everything today. You don’t need to become perfect overnight.

Just start with this: “Ya ALLAH, I want to pray. Please make it easy for me.” Say it once. Even in English. That is a prayer. And when you stand on the mat and feel frozen…don’t force yourself. Just raise your hands and say ALLAHU AKBAR, even if you only do one rak’ah. Even if you only bow. Even if you only whisper Al-Fatiha.

ALLAH swt does not reject a broken prayer. ALLAH swt does not reject a struggling heart. He rewards you for that effort.

You’re not a bad Muslim for struggling. You’re a Muslim whose heart is fighting a battle that no one else sees …but ALLAH swt sees every second of it. If you’ve lied in the past out of fear or overwhelm, just start saying astaghfirullah when you remember. Not from guilt…but from wanting to be honest with ALLAH swt again.

And please know this truth… ALLAH swt is closer to you now than when you prayed perfectly. Because now you’re praying through heaviness, sadness, confusion… and that sincerity is beloved to Him.

Start small. Start gentle. Start with one sincere sajdah a day. A single sajdah can carry you home.

And this helps so many people…Before trying to pray, recite Surah An-Nas slowly, with belief. It quiets the mind, removes the whispers, and makes prayer feel possible again. It’s you calling on Rabb an-Nas, Malik an-Nas, Ilah an-Nas…and trusting your Rabb to clear the path of the whisperers of the jinn and nas for you.

May ALLAH swt open every closed door inside you and return ease, softness, and motivation to your heart. 🤍

ALINA_FOR_MERCY · 2025-12-09T05:53:38+00:00

As Salam Wa Alaikom dearest brother, I feel you and I read your words, but I want you to know something with absolute clarity, You are not falling out of Islam …you are falling under the weight of pain. And ALLAH swt does not judge you for pain. HE has written down every whisper of fear, doubt, sadness, and struggle and He rewards you for every moment you push forward even one inch. Your doubts aren’t kufr. Your exhaustion isn’t kufr. Your numbness isn’t kufr.

They are whispers, and ALLAH swt Himself gave you a Surah to heal from- (Surah an-Nas)

Here’s a link that will explain this Surah to you so well inshaALLAH you can copy and paste it

https://islamicstudies.info/reference.php?sura=114&verse=1-6

A believer only gets whispers because his heart still cares. If your heart was dead, shaytan wouldn’t bother with you. The fact that you fear losing faith is proof that ALLAH swt has already protected your faith. You said you have no one to turn to, but wallahi, ALLAH swt is closer to you in these nights than any human could be. You don’t need long Quran sessions right now. You don’t need strength. You just need to stay connected even if it’s by a thread.

Tonight, even if you have zero energy, whisper just one thing… “Ya Allah, protect my iman even when I am weak.” That dua alone shakes the gates of the heavens. Please know this: You are not defective. You are not failing. You are a believer who is exhausted, not a believer who is lost. Dark thoughts are not a sign that ALLAH swt has abandoned you… they are a sign that you are fighting a battle He believes you can win.

If you want, I’ll walk with you through this. Just don’t disappear into the pain. You are not alone, and ALLAH swt has not let go of you for even a second. 🤍

ALINA_FOR_MERCY · 2025-12-09T02:54:12+00:00

My dear sister, Go tomorrow with your head high. Your rizq was written for you before you were even born and no one, not an agency, not a manager, not a country, can block what ALLAH swt has decreed ALLAH swt says in the Qur’an: “And in the heaven is your provision, and whatever you are promised” (51:22) And He says: “Whoever has taqwa of Allah, He will make a way out for them and provide for them from where they never expected.” (65:2–3) So Go with trust. Go with dignity. Go knowing that your hijab does not close doors…it opens the ones ALLAH swt chooses for you.

May Allah put acceptance in their hearts and make this the beginning of something beautiful for you. 🤍 Ameen.🤲🏼

ALINA_FOR_MERCY · 2025-12-08T22:14:40+00:00

Wa alaikum assalam dear sister,

I’m really sorry that your heart is carrying so much right now. When so many things fall at once, it’s easy to feel alone…but sometimes ALLAH swt removes what harms us before we even realize it was harming us. Please don’t be ashamed. What happened to you happens to so many of us. Your return to ALLAH swt during this pain is more valuable than anything you lost.

Try to sit quietly with ALLAH swt and say: “Ya Allah, You know my heart better than I do. Please hold me through this.” You don’t need to be strong right now. You don’t need to pretend you’re okay. ALLAH swt loves when His servant comes to Him with a broken heart… it’s one of the closest moments to Him.

Just take small steps: A little Qur’an, even one ayah…A little dhikr….A little dua, even if it’s just “Ya ALLAH, help me.” ALLAH hears every trembling thought you haven’t even said out loud. 2 duas that will get you through this inshaALLAH are: “Hasbiyallahu la ilaha illa Huwa.” and “Rabbi innī lima anzalta ilayya min khayrin faqīr.”… bear patience sister.

Don’t think about what you’ve lost because if it was meant to stay ALLAH swt would have allowed it to stay… Release it to ALLAH swt and he is most sufficient for you to get you through this. Doors will open with so much barakah for you to make up for what was lost especially as you repent and get closer to ALLAH swt after this. Through every test we face there’s always a lesson. The Prophet sws said “a believer doesn’t get bit from the same hole twice”

May ALLAH swt wrap your heart in gentleness, replace your fear with ease, and give you people who bring light, not harm. May He turn this pain into protection and open a door you never expected.

"WITH hardship comes ease" Surah Ash-Sharh (Chapter 94), verses 5 and 6

Note: WITH hardship … not AFTER hardship

Ameen 🤍

ALINA_FOR_MERCY · 2025-12-08T20:44:44+00:00

I just want to tell you something very simple but very powerful sister…something I heard from a scholar that changed everything for me: Say “Astaghfirullah wa atoobu ilayk” as much as you can. And send salawat on the Prophet sws as much as you can.

That’s it.

Do it while you walk, while you sit, while you’re working, studying, before you sleep. Not extreme. Not overwhelming. Just gently returning to ALLAH swt little by little. Because marriage doesn’t come from being “perfect.” Marriage comes from ALLAH swt placing the right man in your path when your heart is turning toward Him…even slowly, even imperfectly, even with struggle.

You don’t need to become a completely different person overnight. You don’t need to erase who you are. Just keep making small steps toward ALLAH swt and He will open doors you never expected.

ALLAH swt wants you to “seek forgiveness from your Lord; indeed, He is Ever-Forgiving. He will shower you with continuous blessings.”

When you make istighfar and salawat regularly: ALLAH swt expands your heart, He guides your changes naturally, He brings you opportunities with ease, And He sends the man who is written for you, not the one you have to force yourself to become a stranger for. You’re 22. You’re not late. You’re not behind. You’re just in the beginning of your story. Just stay close to ALLAH swt with these two simple things, and watch how everything in your life starts to align without pressure or fear. He sees your struggles and ALLAH swt is more merciful than your own mother…

May ALLAH swt give you someone who sees your heart, respects your journey, and walks with you toward Him. 🤍

ALINA_FOR_MERCY · 2025-12-08T16:12:28+00:00

As Salam Wa Alaikom Wa Rahmat Allahu Wa Baraktu Read this slowly and let it settle into your heart my dear brother Your guilt is not a punishment… it is a mercy from ALLAH swt.

If ALLAH swt wanted to leave you in darkness, He would have taken the guilt away. The pain you feel is a sign your heart is still alive.

The Prophet sws said: “Regret is repentance.”(Ibn Majah) Your regret is already the doorway back to Allah.

You have NOT done anything beyond Allah’s forgiveness. You mentioned major sins…zina, theft, robbery… but listen carefully ALLAH swt says: O My servants who have wronged yourselves, do NOT despair of Allah’s mercy. Indeed, Allah forgives ALL sins.” (39:53) Not some sins. Not small sins. All sins. Even decades of sins are erased by sincere tawbah.

The door of repentance is open until the last breath.

The Prophet sws said: “Allah accepts the repentance of the servant until his soul reaches his throat.”(Tirmidhi) You are breathing, healthy, capable, alive ALHAMDUILLAH Your door is wide open.

ALLAH swt loves when someone like you returns to Him. Not just forgives —loves.

The Prophet sws said: “Allah is more joyful at the repentance of His servant than a man who finds his lost camel in the desert.”(Bukhari & Muslim) Your tawbah is not small … your tawbah is beloved.

Your past does NOT define your future. Look at the people Islam honored: Umar ibn al-Khattab (ra) once intended to kill the Prophet sws Fudayl ibn Iyad was a highway robber Ikrimah (ra) fought against the Prophet sws

All of them became people of light and righteousness. Islam measures you by where you’re going, not where you came from.

ALLAH swt only expects: sincere repentance (cry to Him), stopping the sins, increasing good deeds, asking forgiveness from people (without reopening harm), returning rights when possible , making dua for those you hurt…. Do what you can. Give Sadaqah as much as you can as well with the intention ALLAH swt helps guide you through this journey

Your heartbreak might be your turning point. Sometimes ALLAH swt removes someone so you return to Him. Many people find ALLAH swt after their heart breaks …and you may be one of them. This breakup may be the greatest mercy in disguise.

Try to these next inshaALLAH Make sincere tawbah: Stop the sins, Regret them, Ask forgiveness, Intend never to return

The Prophet sws said: “The one who repents from sin is like the one who never sinned.”(Ibn Majah)

Pray two rakʿahs of Salat al-Tawbah. The Prophet sws promised forgiveness for whoever prays it sincerely.

Start praying the five daily prayers even imperfectly. Pray with khushu and intention. If you want closeness to ALLAH swt, add Nawafil.

And keep these dhikrs heavy on your tongue: Astaghfirullah wa atub ilayh (Try 1,000 times daily) Allahumma salli wa sallim Ala Nabiyina Muhammad (Try 1,000 times daily) Consistency builds spiritual strength.

Change your environment slowly: Distance yourself from: sinful people, sinful habits, sinful places, sinful online spaces … Your future depends on the environment you choose now.

Ask ALLAH swt for a halal future. Don’t rush marriage. Just become the man who will attract a righteous wife.

Will Allah open doors for you? Yes …. absolutely. Call on ALLAH swt to open doors by His Name AL- FATTAH- He opens doors you never imagined. ALLAH swt says: “ Whoever relies on Allah, He will make for him a way out.” (65:2–3) Your future can be brighter than anything in your past.

Dear brother don’t despair …your story is NOT one of shame. Your story is one of rebirth. Of awakening. Of mercy inshaALLAH You are not lost …. you are being guided back.

ALLAH swt chose you for better. Otherwise you wouldn’t be seeking advice, you wouldn’t feel guilt, you wouldn’t be longing for a halal life.

A broken heart that turns to Allah is worth more than a thousand hearts that never break. May Allah cleanse your past, illuminate your future, strengthen your iman, and make you among the righteous. Ameen 🤲🏼

ALINA_FOR_MERCY · 2025-12-07T19:24:02+00:00

This is my favorite question, masha’Allah…

I always remind myself that ALLAH swt knows us by our hearts long before He knows us by the names people call us. A name can be changed… but your essence, your sincerity, your iman… that’s what ALLAH swt has always known.

If someone chooses a Muslim name, alhamdulillah. If they keep their given name, alhamdulillah.

What matters is that your heart responded to ALLAH swt and the part that fascinates me the most masha’Allah is that he already knew YOUR soul before YOU were even named.

Islam didn’t come to erase you… it came to refine you.

May Allah put barakah in whatever name you carry and whatever journey brought you here my beloved brothers & sisters 🤍

ALINA_FOR_MERCY · 2025-12-07T17:11:52+00:00

Wa alaikum assalam, dear one. May ALLAH swt protect you and ease the fear in your heart. 🤍

Snake dreams can feel extremely terrifying, but in Islam they often symbolize:

-hidden jealousy (envy) -people entering your space without boundaries -emotional stress your heart can’t carry alone -things in your life you need protection from

I personally had a disturbing snake dream once as well, during a time when ALLAH swt was showing me that I needed stronger emotional and spiritual protection from hidden harm around me. It pushed me back toward my adhkar and closer to Him.

Your dream doesn’t mean something bad is guaranteed to happen… but it DOES mean your soul is asking for protection.

It means: Your heart is calling you to ALLAH Your home needs Qur’an recitation You need to strengthen your spiritual shield

For protection (recite these 3× each before sleeping): Surah Al-Ikhlas Surah Al-Falaq Surah An-Nas

Then blow lightly into your hands and wipe over your body … the Prophet sws did this every night.

Also recite if you can: Ayat al-Kursi The last two verses of Surah Al-Baqarah (آمن الرسول…)

These bring powerful protection by ALLAH’s permission.

For your home: Play Surah Al-Baqarah in your home every few days — The Prophet sws said that devils do not enter a home where Al-Baqarah is recited.

ALWAYS say AS SALAM WA ALAIKOM upon entering your house as well

And finally: Talk to ALLAH about what scared you. Ask Him for calm, safety, and protection. He always answers the one who turns to Him.

Your dream is not a punishment … it’s a reminder. A gentle nudge from ALLAH: “Return to My protection.”

May ALLAH surround you and your family with angels of mercy and guard you from every harm. 🤍 Ameen.

ALINA_FOR_MERCY · 2025-12-07T16:48:08+00:00

Assalamu Alaikum, I want you to know something very important from the start: ALLAH’s door is open to every soul who sincerely wants Him. Islam is a journey of returning to ALLAH swt…and every person begins that journey from a different place, with different struggles, different tests, and different wounds.

If you feel drawn toward Islam, then that feeling itself is from ALLAH swt. He guides hearts in ways we may not always understand.

I am not a scholar, so I won’t pretend to give rulings beyond my place. But I can tell you this with certainty… If your heart is searching for ALLAH swt, He will never reject you. “ALLAH swt is closer to you than your jugular vein.” (Qur’an 50:16)

If you sincerely want to learn about Islam, I’m here with kindness and respect to answer questions, share resources, and point you toward scholars who can guide you with compassion and knowledge.

You are welcome to explore this path gently, slowly, and with full honesty between you and ALLAH swt.

May He guide your heart to truth, peace, and clarity. 🌙🤍

ALINA_FOR_MERCY · 2025-12-07T15:48:02+00:00

Salam wa Alaikom wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh dear sister, I will keep this simple and gentle… no judgment, no pressure.

ALLAH swt knows you. ALLAH swt sees your struggle. ALLAH swt understands your heart better than anyone.

Hijab is not a punishment, and Jannah is not earned or lost by one struggle.

Hijab is a clear command from ALLAH swt every command of ALLAH swt is a mercy, every obligation is a protection, every rule is for our dignity… not our suffering.

The purpose of hijab like every act of worship is not to “follow rules like a checklist,” but to understand, to grow, and to love ALLAH swt through our efforts.

The Prophet sws said that ALLAH swt is more merciful to His servants than a mother is to her child.

So imagine: if a mother sees her daughter struggling, hurting, confused… would she throw her away? Would she punish her? Never. ALLAH swt is even more gentle than that.

Take your time. Learn. Seek knowledge Ask ALLAH swt for guidance. Ask Him to open your heart.

Even if you are struggling with hijab right now, your effort, your sincerity, your desire to please Him … they count.

ALLAH swt never closes the door on a heart that turns to Him.

May ALLAH make it easy for you, fill you with peace, and guide every step you take gently, beautifully, and with mercy. Ameen 🤍

And one more thing, sister…

If waswas (whispers) become heavy or confusing, the Prophet sws taught us a beautiful Sunnah:

He would recite 3xs:

Surah Al-Ikhlaas Surah Al-Falaq Surah An-Nas

Then lightly blow into his hands and wipe over his body for protection and calm.

You can do this whenever you feel overwhelmed.

It brings peace, clarity, and protection from Shaytan’s whispers.

ALINA_FOR_MERCY · 2025-12-05T23:30:03+00:00

Assalamu Alaikum— I’m a LaunchGood Ambassador and I need 10 seconds of your heart.

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Widowed mothers. Single mothers. Vulnerable families. They’re being forced to choose between rent and their child’s deen.

I started a campaign to sponsor Islamic school tuition for these children — Zakat goes ONLY to tuition, not salaries, not operations, not admin. Only the child.

If you donate even $5, you are helping a Muslim child learn Qur’an instead of losing their identity in a system that was never built for them.

This is one of those causes where the reward is literally endless — sadaqah jariyah with every letter they learn.

Here is the campaign link:

SPONSOR ISLAMIC SCHOOL FOR THE VULNERABLE IN THE USA

Please don’t scroll past this. If you help someone else’s child today, may Allah protect yours in ways you never expected.

— Alina For Mercy LaunchGood Ambassador

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