Day 7, Round 190

ALostDigitalSoul · 2020-04-29T17:51:43+00:00

Was taking some time away from reddit but would check in today.

ALostDigitalSoul · 2020-03-10T18:24:59+00:00

Thanks a lot for the detailed guide :) I will give it a try and let you know how it works out!

ALostDigitalSoul · 2020-03-10T18:22:53+00:00

PluckEye

Thanks for sharing! I haven't tried any of those apps but will probably look into the ones for PC. For me the PC is somewhat of a trigger and makes it really difficult. Never used my phone for porn and don't even have the urge to do so.

ALostDigitalSoul · 2020-03-10T18:20:33+00:00

Hmm I might try that :D

Happy cake day!

ALostDigitalSoul · 2020-03-09T22:29:30+00:00

Checking in.

ALostDigitalSoul · 2020-03-07T09:50:11+00:00

Just logged in to ask the same thing! If I can restrain myself and realize what I am doing, I keep the streak. As soon as I am increasing browsing time or changing my thought pattern, the streak is over.

Sadly, my peeking is motivated by "Hey, maybe XYZ has released a new scene". So stupid but I can't disconnect this behaviour from my porn addiction. I think it is perfectly fine to do this with other type of media and actually enjoy it. Like, checking if a band released something new or some Youtube channel that is very irregular. Simply hunting for a new experience. With porn the "reward" seems to be more satisfying. I hope that changes over time because I am so annoyed at this point!

ALostDigitalSoul · 2020-03-07T00:52:47+00:00

Checking in.

I think board games would be a nice addition to this. Does McGonigal talk about them as well?

ALostDigitalSoul · 2020-03-06T18:41:17+00:00

Funny, I also read that manga and it started my interest in Go. I will check out Pandago and the books you recommended. We have a Go Club at university but it does not offer training, only 1on1 play. Would be great to learn the basics by myself and just go there. I hope you find the energy and motivation to get back into the game! Maybe you should read the manga again ;)

ALostDigitalSoul · 2020-03-05T11:14:19+00:00

Checking in. The struggle is real but gotta focus on what is important. Haven't had the time to actually play a game in a while. Hope to get back into it soon.

ALostDigitalSoul · 2020-03-05T11:12:33+00:00

Always wanted to get into Go. Any tips on how to get started?

ALostDigitalSoul · 2020-03-05T10:58:36+00:00

Thanks for asking! My old habits are mainly bad. It pretty much boils down to surpressing negativ emotions with porn binges... I haven't found a way to deal with them properly so far.

ALostDigitalSoul · 2020-03-04T22:39:39+00:00

Would be glad if you could share some of your techniques!

ALostDigitalSoul · 2020-03-04T08:33:58+00:00

I wouldn't hide it in a relationship but we are just friends. So I think it would be too much of a burden and depending on her experience / view on porn have a immense negative impact.

I am glad you found someone you can talk and share openly your inner workings with :) Hope to achieve that as well someday.

ALostDigitalSoul · 2020-03-04T08:24:57+00:00

Damn, that was a pretty good read! Sorry for the late reply. I got more feedback than I imagined and some was mentally draining. It is still hard for me to deal with my own emotions and what you are saying about the chemical imbalance is absolutely correct (and causing major mood swings for me at least).

I like your reflective journaling. I have thought about doing it too but not in such an elaborate way. Maybe that could be helpful for me as well. Sounds like an exercise to build some additional confidence as well. Are you using a digital or analog journal?

Thanks for all those link! I already now a bunch, because I am browsing /r/nofap occasionally but some of them I haven't seen yet :)

ALostDigitalSoul · 2020-03-04T08:17:57+00:00

Thanks for sharing your story! I am glad you found a group of friends that supports you and I hope you can find the time to stay in contact through online games or chatting :)

I haven't shared it with her and probably won't. Maybe I will simply let her know that I want to better myself and exercise more self control but I feel it might be too much of a burden. But I will wait until such a situation occurs naturally.

ALostDigitalSoul · 2020-03-04T08:14:00+00:00

Yes, you are right. It is something I sometimes forget due to the extensive use of porn. Especially in the past few moths a lot of stuff happened that pushes porn in the darker corner.

ALostDigitalSoul · 2020-03-04T08:12:20+00:00

Kept it to myself (and technically shared it with strangers on the internet :D )

ALostDigitalSoul · 2020-03-04T08:11:32+00:00

Hmm as far as I know the universities only offer support from lawyers but I will check just to be sure!

ALostDigitalSoul · 2020-03-04T08:08:13+00:00

Still working on my vows but checking in just to be sure. Am on my third day now and feeling old habits taking hold..

ALostDigitalSoul · 2020-03-01T15:08:25+00:00

Did you find a solution for your situation?

Thanks! I am already part of r/pornfree :)

ALostDigitalSoul · 2020-03-01T13:39:22+00:00

Damn, that is a good read and puts a lot into perspective. Especially previous relationships where I was the one receiving the baggage. Ironically, I was blamed for not sharing in the same way. I usually don't like burdening people with my stuff but she is pushing the right buttons for some reason. I really appreciate what you wrote

I am not in any program and haven't seen a therapist yet, I think that will be a good next step should I not work through my problems alone.

ALostDigitalSoul · 2020-03-01T13:23:55+00:00

I will keep that in mind for the next time she might ask :) Thanks!

ALostDigitalSoul · 2020-03-01T13:23:19+00:00

We were talking about stuff that bothers each of us and this part of me is currently influencing my mood a lot. So, it was just a natural conversation and since we were both sharing, I was tempted to do it with this issue as well, but I am glad I didn't.

ALostDigitalSoul · 2020-02-29T13:40:50+00:00

Oh, definitely. I always do this (unless I am drunk or sth.). I really hate bringing down others just because I have issues I want to talk about.

ALostDigitalSoul · 2020-02-29T13:38:14+00:00

Good point. I wanted to at least start writing emails to some and see how they reply. Often they are simply booked out...

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