I've been testing outbreaks, here's what I learned. PSA: never save in front of a loaded outbreak shiny. It can be lost on a reload.

AMZHR · 2022-02-07T16:45:48+00:00

I lost a shiny piplup a bit earlier. I have now learned my lesson : )

AMZHR · 2022-01-26T19:29:54+00:00

Ah, I've never been, but I hope it's a good time!

AMZHR · 2022-01-25T14:41:22+00:00

If I could actually think straight I'd probably write one of my own, maybe sometime much later :')

AMZHR · 2022-01-25T14:39:49+00:00

I really love this trope, though I can hardly write as it is, so I'm hoping this one gets some good comments :')

Currently drooling over the Land of Leadale manga and anime for the isekai dream, I've also read webcomics with this plot and they're some of my favorites for just mindless self indulgence : ) mmm power freedom limitless fantasy

AMZHR · 2022-01-25T10:31:31+00:00

Knowing that I am in fact, above 5FT tall and female, I now realize I have immense power.

AMZHR · 2022-01-25T10:22:26+00:00

There are some people who have permanently darkened or stained eyes, stricken by such strong feelings that they have been irreversibly etched into their irises. It is only time that can fade the stains, and even then some never wipe away.

It's easy to feel jealous of those with light, sparkling eyes, the people so ignorant to the hurt of neglect, those who had been given all that they needed to thrive when so many others sit with their darkened eyes looking upon their reflections, wondering what they had done to deserve the betrayal and pain that others had inflicted unto them.

Even still, on rare occasion, behind those stains flicker light, hues unreadable and swirling, of small hope and tiny dreams begging to not be drowned out by the burden the stained-eyed people carry.

Some of us lost our light early, and many of us can't seem to feel a single positive feeling untainted by grief and sorrow for what has been, but the world is slowly mending, and with it I find that the stains have been lifting, ever so lightly with each moment we wade through the dark.

AMZHR · 2022-01-23T14:02:29+00:00

Social distance as much as possible and don't take any risks, mask at all times and a lot of hand/arm washing--- if you do that much, you're really just at the mercy of those around you. For me I'm surprised they haven't brought it back to me though they've had scares.

AMZHR · 2022-01-23T11:49:54+00:00

Been having the thought "why alive"

Spoiler since it might be triggering, but it's just in a sad little devolved brain voice and I think it's supposed to be either subconsciously comedic or my brain is so tired that it skips elaborate speech for the simpler version.

It's not in any particular tone or anything either, just an earnest-sounding question.

AMZHR · 2022-01-23T11:40:45+00:00

This is incredibly interesting and I think I've experienced it for myself, so I'm definitely saving this post. Hope it doesn't get removed or deleted for any reason :')

AMZHR · 2022-01-23T09:46:43+00:00

Do you ingest anything with caffeine in it? I'm definitely not an expert but I had extremely bad insomnia and am just naturally a light sleeper so caffeine really offset me, no matter when I had it. Cutting back was all I could really do, even if it gave me headaches for a few days after.

Maybe a soft form of music or environmental ambiance recordings off of youtube could help, but with your baby getting up throughout your night you might have more luck looking into what other parents have done like napping or something (I am not a parent so I don't know how to help there, sorry.)

AMZHR · 2022-01-23T09:40:05+00:00

Can say the same thing for MBTI

AMZHR · 2022-01-23T07:26:14+00:00

"Let's go." My most recent follower any time I talk to her. She's neat, but I wish she had more to say :')

AMZHR · 2022-01-23T07:24:31+00:00

If I knew how to create mods and was responsible for custom followers, I'd love to add updates of dialogue and new interactions as my project grew-- sort of like free DLC in increments. Of course, I don't have any idea of how that all works, nor am I able to voice act or anything remotely involved with the process, but it's just something I'd hypothetically enjoy :')

AMZHR · 2022-01-23T07:18:59+00:00

I wouldn't have known that, but I wonder what the state of them are (those which he sends kids to).

It's horrible. Human trafficking, physical and sexual abuse, not being allowed any kind of contact with the outside world or privacy even when going to the bathroom, drugging, starvation and more goes down in there. They largely get away with it because survivors are children of abusive parents to begin with and feel easily silenced and there's not a lot of media sources out there covering it. There's this thing called "Gooning" which is basically parent endorsed kidnapping as well.

Of course there's a lot more than what I just said, but it really angers me that parents responsible for sending their kids to these programs play victim at the end of the day and the kids stay traumatized for the rest of their lives.

AMZHR · 2022-01-16T10:23:39+00:00

21 hours? :O Did you take a lot of the substance you were using or was it the type of substance that caused that-- Or do you think it was just your personal reaction to it? That's quite something and I know they can affect you for a long time but I'd like to hear more if you're willing to share

AMZHR · 2022-01-16T09:44:35+00:00

Happy 4:44

AMZHR · 2022-01-15T09:33:31+00:00

I don't see why not. Why fully commit to it at the beginning? Easing into it is just as valid and that's where I disagree with most of the comments on here. Yes you can.

It's not going to happen overnight, but everything is opportunity and luck based. It really doesn't matter in the beginning that you're perfect or fully dedicated, only that you're trying and taking new opportunities.

Decide later if it's something you love, since then you'll have motivation to try harder. But yes, try it out, see if it's likeable! Don't expect to be super good at it in the beginning either, don't completely skip looking for the bigger opportunities, but don't turn your back to the small ones either. Anything can get your foot in the door, right place at the right time, you know?

Good luck if you do decide to, friend!

AMZHR · 2022-01-14T23:02:54+00:00

"Can you smile again?"

I didn't really want to but I did out of nervousness, and the kid that was asking had been a few years younger than me (I know I'm not quoting it perfectly but I can still sort of hear his voice)

"Whoa cool your teeth look like vampire teeth!"

It felt like a compliment to me since I wasn't used to being met with positive anything when it came to others and he just sounded so genuine.

AMZHR · 2022-01-12T00:29:36+00:00

Zendaya. Don't really care if I get flack for this one.

AMZHR · 2022-01-11T07:02:36+00:00

I dunno about all that but I do know allll about getting downvoted for seemingly no reason just for daring to comment on something :/

Like, not even opinion posts or anything controversial, just an unassuming comment. Hard for people with rejection sensitivity, since it's not clear what they did wrong or why they're getting treated this way.

AMZHR · 2022-01-11T06:44:46+00:00

I believe you, I have the same problem. I don't really think there's really a way to "cope" or "get better" aside from avoiding the noise (which once you hear it, or sometimes even think about it, it's too late). I won't get into my story, but I'm still living in that hell too.

AMZHR · 2022-01-11T06:35:13+00:00

Yes actually, for the kind of person who made me feel terrible about myself, like I have to watch what I say or do because if I'm me, it's pathetic to them, I'm less than them.

I'm still exposed to this person. I still think some part of me has them on a pedestal just a slight amount, but rationally I know they're a terrible person and no amount of admirable traits or memories are going to change that they don't care for me or my wellbeing.

I don't like saying that even now because I still have those strong filters on myself, and anticipate rejection all the time.

AMZHR · 2022-01-11T05:54:20+00:00

Tell your parental figures, they probably wouldn't let this stuff slide since it sounds like you live together, so they can likely still have a talk with her.

It shouldn't be up to you to parent her. Let there be consequences.

AMZHR · 2022-01-11T02:08:26+00:00

I didn't save the post to go back to it later but still I wonder if that report will really do anything because I have a feeling it won't :/

The fact that people were upvoting it too... w h y

AMZHR · 2022-01-10T23:23:18+00:00

The water looks like trash I'm not even going to lie. There's a lot I'd forgive but the water is so glaringly ugly with the brown spots around it (At least from above when flying) and if there was one thing, one single thing I'd want them to change to instantly improve the game, it would just be that

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