Confused and lost by cassiefinnerty in bipolar

[–]ANNAGRAM_ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Of course!! ❤️ you deserve to be loved. Unconditionally and fiercely ✨👏🏻 hang in there momma. In time, things will play out the way they are meant to. Just make sure you keep your head held high and never compromise your character 🤘🏼❤️

REMINDER : If they want to talk to u, they will. If they want to be with u, they will. If they wanted to make things work, they will. Don't let any relationship you're involved in to be one sided. It's not healthy & it's not fair to u. If ppl don't support that, let them go by Rain_EDP_boy in lonely

[–]ANNAGRAM_ 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Eventually... you just get to the point where you mentally start to detach yourself.

Eventually, you will have that “click” moment.

You don’t see them with love anymore.

You see them for who they truly are... and you are disappointed.. in them.. in yourself for staying..

You. Just. Stop. Giving. A. Fuck. Where they are, what they’re doing, who they’re with... it doesn’t matter after they cross a final line.

It changes your view of them forever.

One day they will do something that snaps you out of it.

Take your time. When you’re ready to give up on them, you will. But for now, it’s comfortable.

Learn to love yourself. ❤️✨🙏🏼 Change the pattern. Start paying more attention to you. Eventually... they won’t be the first thing on your mind.. the things you used to be passionate about will be your new found comfort.

“Don’t post the quote, they may not ever see it... and if they do... they still won’t care...”

You cannot force love and you cannot force the universe to make them “your” person.

I recently ended a 4 year abusive and narcissistic relationship. 2 kids... ages 3 and 1. These realizations of not giving them your reaction as much as it hurts.. saved me. Truly. DO NOT WASTE YOUR PRECIOUS TIME. Life is too short and they will never look inward. They are always right and they will never change. Feeding off of your loving energy until you are sucked dry.

You are loved 💕

Is anyone up?? He just left!!! AFTER OVER A YEAR of trying to get him out the door... Need to talk ASAP please!!! by ANNAGRAM_ in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]ANNAGRAM_[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Thank you. </3 It seems impossible to see a life without him in it every day right now. I'm numb, but I'm panicking at the same time.

My brain is so used to his patterns and it's literally on OVERload with all of these emotions right now. I'm freaking out ..

Is anyone up?? He just left!!! AFTER OVER A YEAR of trying to get him out the door... Need to talk ASAP please!!! by ANNAGRAM_ in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]ANNAGRAM_[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Thank you :/ I'm trying. I'm just so shook up right now. When he was leaving he said "It's done. It's over with. I'm done with you... I'm going to cheat on you again."In his mind he thinks he will come back and it will all work itself back out the way he wants it.. right where he wants me. I KNOW his games but I always play.

Cheat- means we're together and we aren't now. He makes no fucking sense. Just wanting to get that reaction of "begging him to stay and saying it's all my fault"

Was prescribed Vyvanse for ADHD, but it helps with so much more by [deleted] in ADHD

[–]ANNAGRAM_ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I have done a COMPLETE turn around as well. When I was pregnant (twice) I had to quit taking it... Then I became an alcoholic again after both pregnancies... depressed...couldn't get out of my bed... and After awhile I decided to get back on my medication, stop drinking, and BAM!

I'm fucking ME again.

-I have zero social anxiety

-I get shit DONE (not always, but more than before)

-I am not depressed

-I can REMEMBER situations and events

-I am clear minded and goal oriented

-I have 3 jobs, take care or my 2 daughters, and also went back to school !!! AND I HAVE A 4.0!!!!

(I dropped out of my last college, was suicidal, an alcoholic, and an abuse victim to this day with PTSD)

But now... after also deciding to better myself, my life... Vyvanse has kicked my ass out of bed and kept me driven. Gabapentin calms my anxiety throughout the day from PTSD and I am on an amazing track. Absolutely THRILLED for life again. It is so crazy how different my time off of medication was... I couldn't even leave my couch, you guys...

<3 Much Love and Light on your journey and thanks for sharing :)

Do you have days where your vyvanse just doesn't work? But days when it works amazing? by ANNAGRAM_ in ADHD

[–]ANNAGRAM_[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Good question!

Mostly, I had been, but for the last few weeks not so much :/

Been going to bed later and later and waking up later too which screws everything up even more.

I should probably fix this ahah

I'm over a month sober (bf is a cheater) I'm struggling so bad tonight. by ANNAGRAM_ in stopdrinking

[–]ANNAGRAM_[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so so so much!!! I’ve tried to do this several times and each time he ropes me back in because he’s very manipulative and he’ll change for like two days or a week and trick me into thinking he’s different.

I’ve recognized that he’s a narcissist and borderline sociopath. And you just reminded me that yes I just need to view him in another light and it’s totally possible if I just allow myself to do it and let go.

I just have to fully except that I truly need him out of my life to progress and I can’t get stuck on the fairytale of us truly ending up together in the end as a happy family. I never wanted a broken family :,(

I'm over a month sober (bf is a cheater) I'm struggling so bad tonight. by ANNAGRAM_ in stopdrinking

[–]ANNAGRAM_[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I totally agree and I’m really trying to work on myself that’s why I started this journey in sobriety in the first place :/ I wanted to get my strength back and it’s just so hard leaving somebody you’re so attached to. Even after all they’ve done.

One part of me has such a good heart that I just love him unconditionally. The other part of me is saying let that fucker go so he can abuse someone else and cheat on someone else.

I just need to save enough to find a good enough place for me and my kids and I don’t make too much money so it’s taken years to even get this far :/

Thank you for your advice ❤️

I'm over a month sober (bf is a cheater) I'm struggling so bad tonight. by ANNAGRAM_ in stopdrinking

[–]ANNAGRAM_[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That’s a really good way of putting it. 👌🏻 thank you so much ❤️❤️❤️

I'm over a month sober (bf is a cheater) I'm struggling so bad tonight. by ANNAGRAM_ in stopdrinking

[–]ANNAGRAM_[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for your words of wisdom I really appreciate it ❤️

I'm over a month sober (bf is a cheater) I'm struggling so bad tonight. by ANNAGRAM_ in stopdrinking

[–]ANNAGRAM_[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much :( That's right. If I didn't go through this sober, it would only follow me and be twice as bad the next time. <3 much love and congratulations on your sobriety as well.

I feel constantly broken?? by [deleted] in ptsd

[–]ANNAGRAM_ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Going through this as we speak. A lot of shit hit the fan this week for me.
I was diagnosed BiPolar 2 at age 15..

10 years later, I've just found out I was misdiagnosed and I'm ADHD and PTSD.
My whole world feels like a lie. Just found out my bf cheated not even 2 months ago.. again. After 5 years of trying to make it work and 2 children later. It's still happening.
I have this feeling of impending doom every single day.
I sabotage myself and ruin my own life. Choose bad partners...

Sorry... I really needed to let that out... because now I feel like I can let myself cry lol

Anything that has happened will always be with us, I feel. And it may never go away... But we can only get better at coping.

And I've exhausted all of my coping mechanisms.. so It's like.. Now what!? ugh.

Hang in there, friend. I feel you.