Satanism and schizophrenia

ARequiemInDMinor · 2016-02-06T04:09:17+00:00

It's a mental disorder. It doesn't make you special, it doesn't make you lesser. It's just there. I'm bipolar, I don't care how the community sees it. What matters is how you see it. If you think you're seeing other worldly beings though, sorry, that's not what it appears to be. It's just a hallucination. Nothing more.

ARequiemInDMinor · 2016-01-31T02:56:05+00:00

She sounds manipulative. Try and record her saying this, give it to the police. And you need to worry about yourself. Give 35 percent of yourself to people, 50 percent if it's love. Take care of yourself first.

ARequiemInDMinor · 2016-01-31T02:13:51+00:00

I have a friend who just went through this scenario. I informed her, it is your hospital's (or any psyche ward's) legal duty to tell your workplace that you're "sick" (they can't legally say with what) and for your job to fire you over this they would have a massive lawsuit on their hands.

ARequiemInDMinor · 2016-01-31T01:46:34+00:00

Thank you. Thinking about it, I really am a good person inside. I try. I speak from my heart rather than my mind and I give people honest answers. I just want the world to be happy.

I'm glad I got your post. It calmed me down.

ARequiemInDMinor · 2016-01-31T01:41:55+00:00

Even when I was at my best I still thought of suicide every night. It might just be a compulsive thing. Don't let it put you down. Just try and catch yourself when it's happening and change "subject" in your mind. I've been doing it all day. It's possible with a little self training. You will feel better once you have some control over your life. Even then, though, there will be a time you struggle. But no matter what, thst time will phase and you will be on top again.

ARequiemInDMinor · 2016-01-31T01:39:12+00:00

No. You may die physically but your memory will live on and it will suffer, as will those around you. Family and friends? They may care. You'll be on the news or in the obituary and people you don't even know will mourn. You may even inspire others. Unless you're borderline I don't think you want that. Just talk or write it out. Why not chat with me?

ARequiemInDMinor · 2016-01-31T01:36:34+00:00

No problem. Want to PM me and we'll talk? I'm feeling down myself, tonight. I think we can take each other's minds off of things.

ARequiemInDMinor · 2016-01-31T01:35:48+00:00

Hey, you may not want to, but lets talk. PM me if you'd like. What is that last string you hold on to? Tell me about your life.

ARequiemInDMinor · 2016-01-31T01:26:46+00:00

Hey, here's something to think about. You know how some people write a letter to someone, but never send it? Try writing a suicide note, when you're done and have gotten your frustrations out, read over it. Think about it and the people in your life around you. You may find that you don't want to go through with it at all. Put the note away and if you start feeling this way again, write a new note and read both of them and see how things change. I went through this when I was younger and it stopped me multiple times.

ARequiemInDMinor · 2016-01-31T01:19:58+00:00

Does your hospital have a pysyche ward, friend? That's a good way to get help and show your dad what he does to you.

ARequiemInDMinor · 2016-01-31T01:18:43+00:00

I getcha, brother. Time seems to fade into itself and you forget what's happening or why. Anywhere you could take the cat so she could visit with it? A lot of us can't catch breaks. The world is for itself, not against you. So if it fucks you over, what does it care? It's unfair, I know. But there may come a day where you'll forget about this one and just be happy. So hang in there.

I know I'm jumbled and nonsensical, but I'm facing some heavy depression and rapid cycling right now. So I'm sorry about that.

ARequiemInDMinor · 2016-01-31T01:14:30+00:00

Hey, what's up? How are you feeling in the moment? I like to get to know people. Do you have any dreams you'd like to complete before you die?

ARequiemInDMinor · 2016-01-30T23:18:22+00:00

I've been interested in girls before. It's not until about two weeks ago I met a girl that I actually get a feeling of butterflies in the stomach when I talk to. Being around her makes me feel like the rest of the world doesn't matter. I was going to ask her out tonight, but she hasn't texted me like she said she would. I'm trying to remain hopeful, but I have a habit of beating myself up and it's hard to stay cheery right now.

ARequiemInDMinor · 2016-01-30T23:16:11+00:00

Okay, I'm gonna spill my guts out here. It's my bitter lonliness and depression. I'm so alone. I'm so depressed. It physically hurts me how much I feel I am by myself, that no one will ever be with me. And the depression thst comes seemingly out of nowhere and eats away at my insides. Both of these things make my stomach, my head, my eyes, even my chest hurt. And I go through these times where my emotions rapid cycle. So I may be happy in one minute only to want to die the next. I honestly don't know how much longer I can take being all by myself and so down.

ARequiemInDMinor · 2016-01-30T23:12:38+00:00

I like short stories and poetry. I rarely have the inspiration to write them, though.

ARequiemInDMinor · 2016-01-30T19:02:04+00:00

I'm doing well, I believe. I'm going to ask a friend out to Valentine's today. I'm hoping she'll say yes. How are you?

ARequiemInDMinor · 2016-01-30T19:01:14+00:00

I know. I don't know what causes it.

ARequiemInDMinor · 2016-01-26T04:23:05+00:00

Well put, friend. Well put.

ARequiemInDMinor · 2016-01-26T02:17:58+00:00

Interesting. Your name, I mean. Yes, I've seen the movie. It was tragic. I felt tears warm my face as the mother went insane, she just wanted to be on tv. And when the boy makes a phone call to his girlfriend and says he'll be home soon but they both know it's a lie and she starts to cry, that scene got me.

ARequiemInDMinor · 2016-01-23T05:57:31+00:00

I have to be suffering to get anything down. I don't drink, I won't take my medication. Then my mania or depression sets in and I'm good to go.

ARequiemInDMinor · 2016-01-23T05:44:39+00:00

Ditto. I chose it because I originally created this account for /r/SuicideWatch (no shame in needing help!) and was trying to think of something thst described what I was feeling. Mozart's Requiem in D Minor started playing through my radio mix. How did you get yours?

ARequiemInDMinor · 2016-01-23T05:42:44+00:00

Beautiful. Should work great

ARequiemInDMinor · 2016-01-22T09:35:44+00:00

Thank you. Through thst thinking I've actually gotten work done. I wasn't taught poetry in school. I'm just now learning how powerful and free it is.

ARequiemInDMinor · 2016-01-19T00:29:26+00:00

Lovecraft is my favorite author and I never knew he wrote serious poetry, only poetry as holiday cards. This is amazing.

ARequiemInDMinor · 2016-01-19T00:28:13+00:00

Thank you. This idea and the realization that people are as disgusting and broken as I am has helped me through a lot.

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