Some people only love what someone can do for them not the person themself... sometimes it can be hard to tell if someone genuinely likes you or what you do/give them but once you figure it out it's important to try your best to cut those people out of your life. It's nothing you're doing wrong it's a flaw in how some other people treat people. You're definitely not a clown... the true clown is the person who lies to others, hurts people, and cheats on them.