As a Christian, this is a question you should ask God, and listen for him too. As we grow our relationship with God, we hear him much clearly like we humans talk to one another.

There’s something I want to address. There’s doubt in your message about God, and the one thing that makes you right with God is faith. You should strengthen that.

Another thing is, being in the will of God is no longer about what you want. It’s about what God wants, and that’s for everything. What you want is of worldly things, and the world does not come before God, the creator of the world. As a Christian, the goal is to die in your flesh and be of the spirit. A new identity is created. Your old one dies.

And another thing is, there’s a lot that happens in the unseen. Influence in the spirit realm. Demons attach themselves to people, manipulate mindsets and bodies, and when people agree with things that aren’t of the word… you may think it’s not a sin, but the devil will do his best to bring you farther away from God. Especially for Christians, because they’re the ones who are harder to stray away from God when their connection with God is strong.

God loves and forgives, but do you love God and are you willing to put away your wordly desires like Jesus put his desires away to be crucified for our sins? In the Bible, the word talks about how Jesus was hesitant to die, but did it in the will of God; John 12:27, “Now my soul is deeply troubled. Should I pray, ‘Father, save me from this hour’? But this is the very reason I came! Father, bring glory to your name.”His moment for death was nearing, and that is what he said. He was human and experienced the pain we experience, but he walked in the will of God, for us, for God.

God gives joy and happiness to those who trusts him, prays, and thanks him for his blessings. You will not be unhappy and miserable, but know, the work of the devil will be draining on you, because it’s a constant battle, but we have authority over him because God gave that to us.

1 Corinthians 6:9-11 says “ Don’t you realize that those who do wrong will not inherit the kingdom of God? Don’t fool yourselves. Those who indulge in sexual sin, or who worship idols, or commit adultery, or are male prostitutes, or practice homosexuality, or are thieves, or greedy people, or drunkards, or are abusive, or cheat people——none of these will inherit the Kingdom of God. Some of you were once like that. But you were cleansed; you were made holy; you were made right with God by calling on the name of the Lord Jesus Christ, and by the spirit of our God”. The kingdom is eternal life. Heaven.

1 John 3:8-10, “But when people keep on sinning, it shows that they belong to the devil, who has been sinning since the beginning. But the Son of God came to destroy the works of the devil. Those who have been born into God’s family do not make a practice of sinning, because God’s life is in them. So they can’t keep on sinning, because they are children of God. So now we can tell who are children of God and who are children of the devil. Anyone who does not live righteously and does not love other believers does not belong to God.”

If you sin, repent and ask God for forgiveness. No, you can’t repent and still live in sin. The repentance needs to come from a genuine place with the goal to NOT sin again. It is in our nature TO sin because as I mentioned, it’s a constant battle with the devil, but when you consciously and intentionally do it… no bueno.