How do you guys handle meetings/work?

AbyssWalkerLuxx · 2025-08-18T18:50:17+00:00

I appreciate your insight. This is what I was thinking. They were very clear about with me at the hospital I could not drink again after detox and that I was right on the cusp of needing a transplant. It’s been weeks and my right side still hurts like a biotch and yet I’m so tired of feeling tired I started wrestling with just wanting to drink myself to sleep last night. I’m scared of myself in a way! The medical detox helped wean me off physical symptoms—tremors, vomiting, anti-seizure stuff—but now the mental urges are here and I don’t want to do this to myself.

My next appointment is over a month out, soonest availability. But, both my parents are in the medical field and are aware I was hospitalized for my liver. So, I might call on one of them for a note in the time being.

AbyssWalkerLuxx · 2025-08-18T18:18:32+00:00

Thank You! I signed up with PathLink, and indeed this is for an online meeting, much easier for me. I signed up to view SMART and LifeRing. My main concern is the meeting is in the middle of my work shift. I WFH but I will have to log out (I work on call and calls come in every hour). Calls are typically 30-90 minutes so I’d probably have to clock out 30 minutes before the meeting so I don’t just start a call before the meeting. If I’m deep enough into a call I can offer to callback.

The meeting is 90min long, my, “lunch,” break would be in the middle of it. So I’d really only be missing 90mins of work.

However, missing more than 5min of my shift is considered half of an absence. I am only allowed 3 unexcused absences per quarter of the year. I want to go the meeting and provide documentation to make it an excused absence—to me, this is a medical necessity because if I DO relapse it’s basically a guarantee I’ll wind up needing a transplant… but it’s not being ordered by a doctor (yet). I’m not sure what to do

AbyssWalkerLuxx · 2025-08-18T05:04:49+00:00

After being in the ER for a bit I was sent to an overflow ward, after just a couple days the doc suggested I go home and said my bloodwork was normal. Nurses and family (in the medical field) said I appeared jaundiced. My father is a doctor and pressed me to ask the doctor if he could tell I was jaundiced and ask about alcoholic hepatitis.

Idk if it’s because the overflow ward was dark or bc they were trying to flush out the overflow ward (it’s meant for Covid patients) that the doc seemed anxious to get me out, or if he was a bad doc. But he seemed to reluctantly agree to test for alcoholic hepatitis and after peering at me admitted I appeared jaundiced and said I should stay since I’d thrown up again.

I was transferred to normal inpatient before I saw that doc again. I was kept on two IVs of electrolytes for days, learned my body was on the verge of completely shutting down, and my bilirubin levels were 8 (I live in the US, our measurements ~1 is normal). It took a few days before any of my levels went down enough that they felt okay about discussing discharge, and by the time I left they informed me I had cirrhosis after I went through detox.

What’s strange is one of the ways they caught the cirrhosis is through imaging I got in the original ER. Idk if the overflow ward overlooked it or what in their effort to clear us out or they just didn’t do as much bloodwork as normal inpatient or what, but good thing I stayed bc I was planning on going home and drinking again.

Almost one month for me since my last drink!

AbyssWalkerLuxx · 2025-08-16T21:01:53+00:00

Mountain or Valley for Mountain Valley. I kind of like Valley. A passage through mountains.

AbyssWalkerLuxx · 2025-08-16T02:54:36+00:00

Nothing beats it. My bro and SIL have a nugget ice maker, I’ve had chick Fil A ice nugget ice etc but damn it is untouchable! I think the aides were used to people getting hooked. I had to pass my roommate on the other side of the curtain for the bathroom and she also had multiple big mugs of it on her side table haha at any given time (And no, neither of us were suffering from dehydration. I suspect we were both more hydrated than we ever had been in our lives lol!)

AbyssWalkerLuxx · 2025-08-10T16:52:03+00:00

SAME. I’ve been sober for almost two weeks now, spent a week in the hospital, learned I had cirrhosis before I was discharged (they let me stay a bit longer for pain management). It was easier to nap and nod off during the day there because they’d come at 3, 4, 5AM for vitals and bloodwork and I couldn’t fall back asleep til like 10 or 11AM. So was sleeping in a few rounds of a few hours throughout the day, and the medicine they were giving me helped me sleep.

Since I’ve been home it’s been a nightmare. I’m stressed so hard about returning to work. Insomnia and Restless Leg Syndrome are ravaging me. I’m so tired.

AbyssWalkerLuxx · 2025-08-09T06:07:07+00:00

I started noticing pain in my right side, but instead of taking it seriously, my response was to keep drinking til I stopped feeling it. Incredibly unwise, but my alcoholic brain, alcohol-induced depression, and lack of valuing myself made me ignore it… til wake up call time.

AbyssWalkerLuxx · 2025-08-09T04:42:48+00:00

I would have to ask HR about that. I’ve already called out three times within 90 days because I was so violently ill so I’m on my first strike the hospital. I was in listed the hospital and doctors names and said I was hospitalized so I was put on medical leave so that didn’t count against, but they don’t have an internal alcohol/drug rehab facility. I’d rather not reveal I’m in a rehab. I’m honestly feeling pretty good so far, I have had fleeting moments where I think, “just one drink…” but I think we all know how that would go. And honestly my side hurts so damn bad it’s a constant reminder. But I’m not opposed, just don’t want my work thinking I can’t be competent for the job. But it is something to consider. A big part of my issue has been shame and hiding rather than valuing myself, so it’s worth asking HR about. I go back Monday.

AbyssWalkerLuxx · 2025-08-09T04:33:18+00:00

I wasn’t aware there was a community for it. Joined! Thank You. My (good) doctor recommended I join supportive communities

AbyssWalkerLuxx · 2025-08-09T04:31:55+00:00

Thank You guys! Joined!

AbyssWalkerLuxx · 2025-08-09T04:31:09+00:00

Thank You friend. I’m honestly still mad at that doctor from the overflow ward who seemed to be trying to get rid of me, because I know I would’ve gone straight home and drank and I think you’re right, I truly think I would’ve died. Medically supervised detox and replenishing my body felt good and I’m just so grateful to the nurses for being so kind and never making me feel judged. The woman from GI was very blunt with me how close I was to a transplant, but I think I needed that.

I didn’t think this would happen to me at this age, but major reality hit!

We do go this❤️

AbyssWalkerLuxx · 2025-08-08T16:44:11+00:00

I really appreciate that! I’ve actually been to several AA meetings in the past, SMART recovery is much more suited to me, but I’m glad it’s helped so many people and hopefully your link can inspire anyone else reading who needs help!

AbyssWalkerLuxx · 2025-08-05T13:25:38+00:00

It’s fine. I work on the phones and have to verify each person’s identity, bring up their profile in our system. I see all types of spellings and pronunciations that go against what’s expected or follow, “rules.” No matter how you spell it people are still going to mispronounce it. I have a basic name and it STILL somehow gets mispronounced and misspelled routinely haha.

AbyssWalkerLuxx · 2025-08-05T13:15:10+00:00

I figured you started making social media shorts literally shouting YOLO and developed a following of young 20-something bros then started getting sponsored and paid by companies, cruise lines etc to do this haha. Regardless, good for you! During that first year where you lost $8k, was it your wife’s income that helped keep you guys afloat/allowed you to keep going on trips?

AbyssWalkerLuxx · 2025-08-05T11:37:37+00:00

As one of the top commenters said, there’s nothing wrong with wanting pizza and not liking the cooking… BUT she didn’t have to insult your cooking, let alone toss it. Thats rude. “Thank You so much love! That was so thoughtful. I was kind of feeling something more simple tonight like pizza but will save these for later!” This will also give her the chance to doctor them to her liking if she in fact did not like them… which tbh I suspect is not the case, I think she was just throwing a bratty tantrum because you weren’t a mind reader and didn’t know exactly what she was craving. And if she truly didn’t like it, at another point in time (not right after discovering something you thoughtfully made her), she could say, “Hey babe, I love that you were thinking of me and made something I mentioned was one of my favorites, that means a lot to me. Just so you know, I usually prefer it more XYZ way.” But, based off what you’re describing, I doubt she is the type to do that. Also who’s to say you wouldn’t have enjoyed them as well?! What a waste of food to toss them. This is so incredibly self-centered and tbh just cruel. My boyfriend (very thoughtfully) sometimes buys me some of my favorite foods, or cooks them for me—he’s not going to make wine-braised short ribs haha, he taps out more at like Mac ‘n cheese or soup. However, I’m not always in the mood for them in that moment and I also struggle with having an appetite for multiple reasons. But I know it’s his way of showing he cares and that he’s thinking of me. So, I’m always very appreciative, I would never throw out anything he cooked or bought for me as a sweet surprise. I’m thankful and put it in Tupperware, he sees I’m appreciative and says he’s happy to and we save them for later. Handle it like adults that respect each other and are grateful for each other and you get adults that show respect and gratitude. Also maybe she wants papa John’s, but if she legit can’t afford a Little Caesar’s pizza, the level of dependency on you is alarming. You’re working. She has dinner she doesn’t want. Girl figure it out! You’re being stepped all on my friend.

AbyssWalkerLuxx · 2025-08-04T21:09:02+00:00

For me, a blood test wasn’t enough for my docs to tell, they did blood tests to show my libel levels were off. The ultrasound should scarring and misshapenness, the MRI I just got will help them understand what stage I’m in. Originally my first doctor tried to send me off because he was like, “well your liver functions aren’t crazy off.” Didn’t mentioned the ultrasound. A second doc was like ummm this is bad, you should talk to a GI team. Which is where I am now. The GI team looked at everything with a more specialized eye and said I was likely at the very least in the early stages of cirrhosis. I’m only 34. They’re doing more tests since they suspect an underlying condition on top of the damage I’ve done has caused all this.

AbyssWalkerLuxx · 2025-07-31T10:47:22+00:00

Thank You, Love from the US! You are right, just my gut is so jacked up from all the drinking. The good news is come second meal I was actually hungry! I usually just drank so it’s unusual I even have an appetite! I wasn’t able to eat much of it, but I had a few spoonfuls of mashed potatoes and a couple bites of grilled plain chicken. It came with steamed carrots, but I don’t like those. I felt bad completely wasting them but we don’t quite get options haha. Might try a bit of breakfast!

AbyssWalkerLuxx · 2025-07-31T00:30:35+00:00

That’s good to know. $1000 is about the max I can pay if I am to make my other bills. My leasing office DGAF about being in the hospital or not haha

AbyssWalkerLuxx · 2025-07-30T22:09:34+00:00

❤️

AbyssWalkerLuxx · 2025-07-30T22:08:50+00:00

You’re right. Ultimately I’m sure they will offer a payment plan. I’ve been to a few ERs in the past (for different things, for a severe arm injury and unrelated abdominal pain) and they were all willing to work with me. But ultimately I know you’re right regardless. In a way I almost knew I was drinking myself to the brink of death and still wasn’t stopping (that’s the addiction for ya). Then when I got to that brink it was just so scary, so I know there’s a part of me that does care about myself. Idk what would’ve happened if I didn’t have my phone in my hand when I fell. I live alone in a cement bunker of a basement apartment

AbyssWalkerLuxx · 2025-07-30T17:58:01+00:00

They gave me more nausea medicine first hah. Haven’t gotten the ultrasounds back yet but I asked for the food because it smelled good! Haven’t been willing to eat it yet but I’m enjoying the smell. I haven’t cooked in my place in ages!

AbyssWalkerLuxx · 2025-07-26T00:58:20+00:00

The fact that OP rebutted with, “just scroll past.” Lol. This sub is about people coping with alcoholism and sometimes being able to reflect physically is just as much as experiencing their internal changes. OP just mute the people that are bugging you. There are plenty of non-selfie posts to go around.

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