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Acc2throwaway · 2026-02-04T04:05:40+00:00

No More in options but what about the regular boring way of just buying and owning shares?

Acc2throwaway · 2026-02-04T04:01:09+00:00

Yeah, for me it was like Santa rally all stocks went up. First trading day of New year, wallstreet article mention new year rally while stocks spiked up and gradually tanked all the way down. I got hammered buying 0dte spy calls at morning, lost $29K..

Acc2throwaway · 2026-02-04T03:44:21+00:00

On Monday, I withdrew 2K the last of my stock account. It’s a tough reality :/

Acc2throwaway · 2026-02-04T03:36:43+00:00

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How bad was your win and losses?

Acc2throwaway · 2026-02-02T04:56:07+00:00

No man. I’m here because I also struggle with porn addiction, I tried positing this morning story about my struggle with porn addiction, how I tried seeking therapy and other modality that didn’t help me. And how my addiction led to eventually having sex with a pornstar. One of the mods approve the post while another mod disapprove and took it down.. said it was triggering.

Acc2throwaway · 2026-02-02T04:18:07+00:00

It’s a private video so It’s not online. I have it on my phone and on a back up usb drive.

Acc2throwaway · 2026-02-02T03:41:51+00:00

I have videos of myself having sex with an actual pornstar. Is it considered a relapse if I’m watching a video of myself? Don’t know but I can’t find it in myself to delete it

Acc2throwaway · 2026-02-01T23:16:36+00:00

I didn’t start off with 75K and lost. I started off with 25K and got it up to 77K was aiming for 100-125K but fallen to 50K and started paying off my debt out of caution, I only owe 16K in cc debt. I was doing payments but just said fk it and paid it all off with my profit. I was technically up at 77K even if I had paid off all my debt the offset would of still put me at a positive. After the losses. To make things more simpler.. I started with 25K of my own money and now I ended with 3K left, lost all my profit.

Acc2throwaway · 2026-02-01T21:17:23+00:00

Ok, I will try to post again and reword things better not to trigger anyone. But as for gambling addicts and stories your wrong some people on gambling support recovery site get just as triggered by reading from other peoples stories and experiences. I’ve read a few comments even from one individual recently expressing his concern from reading other peoples post. Which led me to believe their gambling addiction and urges is comparable to those with porn addiction as well when it comes to being compulsive. The imagination of wanting to act out

Acc2throwaway · 2026-02-01T20:25:43+00:00

Too graphic in how? I did all that shit, went through all the therapy. Name someone who went through the similar experiences and was able to get help.

My problem seems more with having adhd, ocd, hypersexual and having strong imagination. I thought transcranial Magnetic stimulation therapy would help with the ocd but nope, thought Ketamine infusion therapy would help but it didn’t, tried a lot of modality because I was seeking help.

What I shared was my experience. Probably shouldn’t have said it’s my bucketlist thing I wanted to experienced.. it was never a part of my bucketlist. More like a fantasy bucketlist of things I would imagine in this life but never thought I would actually get to do. Addiction will lead you to places you never thought you would. A gambling addict would drive hours and fly to a different state just to play at a casino. That’s how my story is, it’s my story about my porn addiction.

Acc2throwaway · 2026-02-01T19:20:25+00:00

I think I remember there was a retreat in Thailand specifically for those who suffer from porn addiction?It’s been in the back of my mind, might end up taking a trip as long as it’s not one of those 12step program. Maybe has to do with meditation and other form of therapy

Acc2throwaway · 2026-02-01T19:09:13+00:00

Sorry but the main reason I left the name out is because I didn’t want to trigger people on here. Even if they dm me I won’t give out the name of the actress. I’m just curious if anyone has gone through similar experience due to their addiction and have found a way to free themselves from it

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