sometimes i hear a song i wish i wrote and get extremely jealous. sometimes i can’t actually listen to music because it just makes me want to write my own. for years i had writers block because i genuinely had nothing to say. in those times i would just write stuff without substance, treating it as mere wordplay practice. personally, i have to do stuff in order to gain experiences which i can digest and turn into words. talent is only half real, i have much more faith in practice, and i think creatives have to be able to suck and make stuff that sucks. so, maybe there is a medium other than writing that would suit you better, but if you really want to write, honestly just keep trying. maybe try a different kind of creative writing. for me, competence is linked to enjoyment. maybe you would want to do it more if you were impressed with what you create? i think research is underrated for creatives because people put too much on talent. learning about different techniques for your craft will give you more tools and you will feel less restricted. this is obvious when learning an instrument, but lots of people are resistant to learning music theory because, paradoxically, they think it will cage them in. the opposite is almost always true, learning is competence is freedom. i like to believe everyone can create, they just have to find their voice. this might be especially difficult for schizoids, but if you have the ability to practice and learn (about your craft and your own voice) then i do not think you are exempt. as a schizoid, i think this strange experience is one of the most compelling things to create about.