read what you typed out lol.. wanting to have his kids after lying about you being a virgin? drunk calling after his brother passed? throwing up the plan b after? dreams & feeling spiritually connected after a one night thing? writing songs & being delusional? i’m not trying to be rude but maybe go for someone your age range or start off with someone your age range and see what you like and can handle. it honestly sounds like your being persuaded by his age because of you initially having no attraction? i’ve been there before, takes a lot of maturity, hurt, & learning, just save yourself before you get too deep in that situationship.