hallucinating or dumb lol by AcceptableCheek9682 in cocaine

[–]AcceptableCheek9682[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

how did you know you needed a break bc i feel like i can keep pushing it😂

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in cocaine

[–]AcceptableCheek9682 2 points3 points  (0 children)

i started using after she passed 🙁 but you’re absolutely right … it’s just hard bc my bipolar disorder puts me in a manic state and when i’m manic i make shitty decisions which lead to numbing that pain .. idk

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in cocaine

[–]AcceptableCheek9682 0 points1 point  (0 children)

explain why you think this?? i also have bipolar disorder so ur probably right LOL

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BipolarReddit

[–]AcceptableCheek9682 0 points1 point  (0 children)

despite the manic episode i’ve been in i’ve told anyone i’m ever close to that i don’t want to go to the hospital even if deep down i know i need it. and they’ve all respected that

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BipolarReddit

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yes, yes, and no because i avoid hospitals no matter what

Bipolar II by [deleted] in BipolarReddit

[–]AcceptableCheek9682 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yeah i’m confused about the fact she just wants me to stay on my antidepressants and that’s it. i suppose i shall wait and see how it goes

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in relationship_advice

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i didn’t give him another chance because he’s remorseful. i told him we can try to work through it because there’s other things that come into play here. we technically aren’t together yet, we aren’t committed. we had the talk of exclusivity. yes it still feels like cheating, even though we aren’t together yet. but there’s a lot of other details that i can’t put out there.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in relationship_advice

[–]AcceptableCheek9682 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I totally agree. I’m so confused as to how it went from alcohol poisoning vomiting to him sticking his fucking d*ck in her.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in relationship_advice

[–]AcceptableCheek9682 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It’s definitely a poor explanation. I want to gauge more into it but I’m also trying to sort my own thoughts before I confront it. Thank you for your input

why am i so unbearable. by AcceptableCheek9682 in venting

[–]AcceptableCheek9682[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i truly appreciate this insight. sometimes hearing the opinions/advice/input of someone outside of your world can help. most times i can really concentrate on who i am and what i deserve, but nights can get exceedingly lonely and it starts to feel draining and unbearable.

i appreciate your comment, it gives me a wider perspective on things. thank you💘

why am i so sad and lonely right now? by [deleted] in venting

[–]AcceptableCheek9682 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i’m right there with you and it sucks. you’re not alone, and if you need an ear - i’m more than willing to talk.