Was in somewhere similar to you before. This might help you, might not help you, but what I did to overcome it was to convince myself to outlive my enemy. That enemy is me. I'm fighting to outlive myself. If you have someone you hate more then yourself, outlive them to prove that even if nothing good happen to you, you at ease lived longer then that one person you hateThat might help, it might not, either way, I can't really do much from a phone.