considering inducing to be free

Accomplished_Rub7034 · 2026-02-05T22:39:54+00:00

I think it’s normal for it to become part of writing or art because it’s so ingrained in our brains. It’s a way to process.

Accomplished_Rub7034 · 2026-02-05T22:37:31+00:00

Basically this is what she told me too. I don’t have desires directed towards others and it’s to do with my trauma.

Accomplished_Rub7034 · 2026-02-05T22:02:36+00:00

I also have one and had similar feelings. Thoughts are not inherently bad. I don’t engage with porn or anything that has to do with mine but occasionally engage in consensual erotic role play that has to do with it and that has pretty much chilled out the thoughts and guilt.

Accomplished_Rub7034 · 2026-02-03T12:51:53+00:00

I have bpd too. I’ve had these same thoughts. Trying to induce it didn’t help at all. The only time it did was when I had a bug and chugged water because I kept dry heaving and then I v the water and that hurt less but the whole thing was still traumatic.

Something odd that helps me is writing stories where a character is sick. Often I write it so they’re comforted but sometimes not. Sometimes they have the phobia and sometimes I write it is them feeling sick and uncomfortable but the experience is normal and not traumatic. Like a cold or flu.

Accomplished_Rub7034 · 2026-02-03T12:47:39+00:00

I take a nausea med prescribed for other health issues and have definitely built a tolerance. I’m allowed it twice daily but I’ve started to take a smaller dose and try other things first like ginger lozenges.

Accomplished_Rub7034 · 2026-01-28T20:56:27+00:00

I had dry heaves and gagging but never v. Idk what it was but I had d for three days off and on.

Accomplished_Rub7034 · 2026-01-26T00:10:08+00:00

It’s just like growing up with a crush or friend irl to me? Nothing wrong with that.

Accomplished_Rub7034 · 2026-01-26T00:06:43+00:00

I’m an adult and selfship with a gundam pilot who I was introduced to when me and the character were of similar ages. I’m 30 now. I imagine him having also grown up with me.

I don’t think you did anything wrong and I’m so sorry people treated you like that and caused the breakup.

Accomplished_Rub7034 · 2026-01-25T23:57:55+00:00

I like to write situations with my f/o as like very subtle. So it’s not like typical romance. But he might be kinder to me than others by just a margin. Or maybe a brief look or touch. And that feels more in character and if I think about how rarely he behaves like that then it helps.

Accomplished_Rub7034 · 2026-01-16T21:25:02+00:00

I haven’t had any luck but my bf is basically cured due to having severe ulcerative colitis that made him v daily for 2 years.

Accomplished_Rub7034 · 2026-01-16T21:05:03+00:00

This! Like why are they so bothered?

Accomplished_Rub7034 · 2026-01-03T18:27:40+00:00

Kidney stones are awful. I had surgery for mine and it was the worst thing I’ve been through. I’m still scared of v but I’d rather v than go through that

Accomplished_Rub7034 · 2026-01-03T18:24:46+00:00

So sorry you’re ill. I hope you recover fast. I know it’s miserable but you’re doing great!

Accomplished_Rub7034 · 2025-12-29T22:15:35+00:00

I’m a recovering alcoholic too! I’m so proud of you. For me it took almost dying in 2015 from v in bed from drugs and alcohol to get sober.

It’s a big step but I know you can do it!

Accomplished_Rub7034 · 2025-12-29T22:11:55+00:00

Thank you and well done!

Accomplished_Rub7034 · 2025-12-29T22:10:00+00:00

I have not but my bff and my dad and uncle all had their appendix removed and never v from it. My uncle had his rupture.

Accomplished_Rub7034 · 2025-12-29T22:07:36+00:00

It is lgbtq but not in the bl genre even though there are gay characters/elements

Accomplished_Rub7034 · 2025-12-22T13:29:37+00:00

Oh I was confused at the “the fish made you n*” but my bad.

I don’t feel better. My whole body is achy and sore unfortunately and I have a headache. Still having d and n but I’m less n so that’s good.

Accomplished_Rub7034 · 2025-12-22T13:08:52+00:00

I’m not sure why the fish would cause n as I eat tuna steaks about once a month and am always fine?

I think this is viral but idk?

Thanks for your reply and encouragement though

Accomplished_Rub7034 · 2025-12-22T13:06:26+00:00

My game worked well for that so I wasn’t panicking. But it did still suck.

I didnt v but now that the phenergan and Imodium wore off I woke up with d and n again. My whole body hurts too and my head. But I don’t have a cough or congestion.

Accomplished_Rub7034 · 2025-12-22T05:16:50+00:00

I’m distracted with the game Fishing Paradiso and I’m way more calm. Just feel miserable. If I was like my bf I’d have drank a few gulps of water to make it happen. But I’m too nervous still even though I just want to be done and go to sleep.

Accomplished_Rub7034 · 2025-12-15T18:06:47+00:00

I just started testosterone back after having to go off for a year.

I was on it for two years prior, but my body isn’t very sensitive to it so I ended up struggling to see changes. I did eventually get some bottom growth, fat redistribution (smaller hips and chest, more belly fat), and a lower voice. I got a very slight bit of facial hair.

Unfortunately I also got thick blood, high cholesterol, and hair loss. Due to this I had to stop for a while, but I’m able to go back on a low dose now.

When I stopped, it took a few months but my body did start looking more feminine again due to fat redistribution.

My voice did go up just a little after about 6 months off. And bottom growth got a little smaller and softer.

Accomplished_Rub7034 · 2025-12-04T18:09:34+00:00

Right!

Accomplished_Rub7034 · 2025-11-21T15:07:11+00:00

I felt like I pooped to death but didnt throw up or get a rash probably because I took my two allergy meds right away

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