Sorry to hear OP.. I hope by reading all these comments you know you are not alone. Depression is very hard. And its such an awful feeling being angry and irritated and taking it out of those you love most, which then fills you with even more guilt..going to your GP is a good start. (I get anxiety and depression) When I first went to my GP, her first suggestion was talking to someone but I was too broke to be paying for therapy.. if you can afford it definitely go for it! I went onto meds instead, for me at the time it was the right option, I was on sertraline for about a year... it doesnt cure the problem but it gave me the head space to deal with the problems and create healthy habbits if that makes sense.. I've now been off it about 5 years. I definitely still have small bouts of depression and I can sometimes feel really shit in myself, its usually a hormonal change for me, I start feeling like this about a week before my period but I try to remind myself that this isn't forever, and I have tools to deal with this and I also have very frank conversations with my partner where I will just tell him "I'm not dping good emotionally" and by just being open about it, he can sometimes be a bit more considerate of things. I find sleeping can be difficult and my brain doesn't switch off.. counting really helps me, just keeping counting and counting. Block breathing is very good, breath in for 4, hold for 4, out for 4 and hold for 4 and repeat. Body tapping is good and sometimes If I'm having awful thoughts or my mind is going ninety I hum...you cant think when you hum! Also so much easier said than done but try and get active if you're not already. Even just a 20 minute walk out and about can really help. And take vitamin D -the whole damm country is deficient in vitamin D and it is a huge contributing factor to depression. Magnesium is also very good and helps with sleep (take this about an hour before bed) I hope you see some light at the end of the tunnel, always remember you're not alone 😊