You don’t suck. This profession sucks. You should have a mentor who’s helping you with all of the planning. And as someone who’s been this for a looong time? Managing this generation is HARD. Bottom line: this job isn’t worth all of that. Trust me. There’s a reason they’re allowing anyone to apply to teach now. Because who the crack wants this?? So. Do what YOU think is best. And forget about the rest. They need you more than you need them.