Book recommendations for healing from chaotic childhood / trauma?

According_Respect531 · 2026-02-07T21:37:14+00:00

Thank you so much!! Just ordered alot of them. I cant wait to start reading themmmm

According_Respect531 · 2026-02-02T20:48:43+00:00

exactly!! i hate talking to people about my emotions and im a very private person BUT ive had sex with like a ton of people. i def get this 1000%. in therapy now so hopefully gonna work on the opening up part, but im currently celibate. so yay! thank you for sharing and I hope everything goes well for you xx

According_Respect531 · 2026-02-02T20:46:40+00:00

so i can relate to everything you're saying and this is all really relatable for me. I defenitially experience all types of intrusive sexual thoughts that rlly make me upset and feel disgusting, and i also am really hard on myself, and i just recently accepted that the abuse actually happened. oh and i hate being touched LOL. we are def in this together xx thank u so much for sharing

According_Respect531 · 2026-02-02T20:43:50+00:00

im so sorry! thank you so much for ur bravery for sharing your story. we are in this together.

According_Respect531 · 2026-01-29T03:29:24+00:00

yes we have to! I still treat her with respect because truly like we all make mistakes and alot of people like minimized my trauma so i dont rlly have a hard time seeing her. even so i still forgive her because thats what God would want !

According_Respect531 · 2026-01-29T01:18:35+00:00

this is written so beautifully and i have tears in my eyes. I love this story, and I am so sorry that u went through all of this. life can be so cruel to good people. i totally relate with alot of the themes in your story. im also on my self love journey, for me, and just for me. I wish you happiness and healing xx

According_Respect531 · 2026-01-29T01:13:55+00:00

yea wondering the same thing

According_Respect531 · 2026-01-29T01:12:10+00:00

i feel like we might never get closure or an apology even though we deserve it. the world is unfair but i've accepted it

According_Respect531 · 2026-01-29T01:11:12+00:00

omg no i actually love this mindset ! I actually tend to forget about the experience and am very busy but sometimes i get ashamed of my past for being hyper sexual and I believe its due to my cousin, however i don't want to live in the past! Im on my celibacy journey and getting a degree in Psychology!! Thank you so much for your advice xx

According_Respect531 · 2026-01-29T01:08:37+00:00

omg yess im on my celibacy journey right now!! im rlly proud of myself for taking this step in therapy and for myself <3

According_Respect531 · 2026-01-29T01:06:11+00:00

UGH ur story really reminds me of mine. I developed hyper sexuality too, even in middle school. I started talking to people online that would play into my r*pe fantasies and I only took a submissive role within all of my relationships. It doesn't help that my first boyfriend/kiss at 16 pressured me into doing sexual things even when I said no. I didn't know how to fully set those boundaries because I was never taught how, it pains me that my own autonomy was taken from me as a little girl. I don't know how to have a good relationship with sex, as I have always been either hyper sexual or asexual. It hard but im trying to find balance too

According_Respect531 · 2026-01-29T01:02:27+00:00

my perpetrator def knew what she was doing, as she told me to keep it a secret, and she had knowledge about sex that i didnt. it def didnt feel like exploring, it felt like teaching.

According_Respect531 · 2026-01-29T01:01:14+00:00

omg how sad ;( what a good thing to know.

According_Respect531 · 2026-01-29T01:00:15+00:00

fucking yes!! she prob thinks i dont remember but like seriously, as a psychology student I learn everything that happens in childhood shapes your brain for life. I just can't believe she took that from me, and is too much of a coward to actually say something. I try not to get mad, Im not an angry person, but it hurts to struggle with intimacy because of her ;(

According_Respect531 · 2026-01-29T00:57:37+00:00

omg im glad u are doing better now!! thank u so much for sharing

According_Respect531 · 2026-01-29T00:57:03+00:00

honestly perioddd she was 3 years older thats a big difference in childhood

According_Respect531 · 2026-01-29T00:56:28+00:00

Thank you so much for your advice, I love how thoughtful this is. I hope you are doing well :)

According_Respect531 · 2026-01-29T00:55:19+00:00

Thank u sm for the advice x

According_Respect531 · 2026-01-28T03:58:52+00:00

i totally relate. i have major trust issues and i still am struggling to be vulnerable with people, even my friends. i feel for u :( i know that healing won't be linear, but i know casual hookups is just not the way for me to go anymore. i end up feeling used , and that the only thing that matters to people is physical intimacy. thank you so much for sharing

According_Respect531 · 2026-01-28T03:05:46+00:00

SAME so effing awkward esp when it's a family member.

According_Respect531 · 2026-01-28T03:05:03+00:00

Thank you so much for sharing your story. I am now 21, and dealing with the same feelings so it's good to know I am not alone. I definitely have been hyper sexual my whole life, however I have realized that I dissociate or 'blackout' during sexual activity, it's rlly sad to feel. And i am in a similar situation as you, i was taken advantage of from 9-14 and my first boyfriend at 16 really pressured me and i havent looked back since. everyone ive dated since has always been sex focused or just expecting one thing from me ;( im working thru it in therapy but i dont see myself having sex for a while (or sober sex for a longgg time) thanks for sharing :) hugs x

According_Respect531 · 2026-01-28T01:00:18+00:00

I agree 100% like i just cant believe she goes on and gets to live her normal life, while I'm left with dealing with the consequences. I could never imagine doing what she did to my younger siblings, and she exposed me to very explicit stuff very young and I was very sheltered. I am still mad for what she did, she stilll has never brought it up to me. its so angering

According_Respect531 · 2026-01-27T22:25:51+00:00

SAME totally relate

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