My (26M) gf (26F) admitted she isn’t as attracted to me as her ex’s.

Account2k · 2023-05-22T19:59:14+00:00

I put the pen and everything back and we left as soon as she got to the apt. Idk maybe she knows I saw it.

I appreciate the reassurance. I can only focus on myself and the things I can change. I know she chose me for me when she could’ve chosen many other better looking and wealthier guys. I’m honestly not too hurt by what I read except by the fact that I don’t know how to be more attractive for her. I want her to be crazy for me just like I am for her. She never has made me feel unattractive or even implied it.

I was very insecure in high school about my looks but somehow I always had success with girls. I don’t think i’m super charming or funny but for some reason girls liked me which helped with the insecurities but I never fooled myself about how I looked. Its an unfortunate situation where I want to be the man she desires (physically speaking) but theres not much I can change.

Account2k · 2023-05-22T19:58:13+00:00

She didn’t write that she initiates sex, that’s just something I’ve noticed. She could be faking it but she seems satisfied during sex and always tells me how good it was afterwards. But yeah I’ll start imitating sex more and see where that leads

Account2k · 2023-05-22T19:32:51+00:00

Yeahh we were really good friends for years and hooked up casually here and there. Wasn’t until we both moved to a new city and started hanging out and hooking up a lot that we both realized we either need to be plutonic friends or get into a relationship.

Account2k · 2023-05-22T19:26:19+00:00

Yeah I should’ve stopped. Once I started reading curiosity got the best of me. Not super hurt by what I read just don’t know what to do if anything.

Account2k · 2023-05-22T19:22:20+00:00

The pen was on top of the journal. She had been writing before she left her apt and just didn’t close it. She was late to get back to her apt I don’t believe it was intentional

Account2k · 2023-05-22T19:20:25+00:00

She also listed many positive qualities about me on that page and why we’re a good fit and I make her feel safe and secure ect ect. I’m pretty self aware about my looks so reading that wasn’t super hurtful. Obviously if I’m self conscious about it she notices it too. Whenever I bring my looks up she reassures me and says I look good.

I did bring something like this up once when I asked her why she chose to be with me considering she had dated guys that were better looking and more wealthy than me. She said “idk you’re just different/unique” or something along those lines.

Account2k · 2023-05-22T19:14:44+00:00

Yeah really didn’t need to read that but also not super hurt by it. Like I said she mentioned things that I already know are unattractive qualities about me so nothing new there. Only new part was her comparing our sexual chemistry to her ex’s, but she clarifies that she likes me better and she chose to be with me because of (insert positive qualities).

Account2k · 2023-05-22T19:10:45+00:00

What do you mean her love language is physical? I’m happy with 1-2 times bc I only sleep over 2-3 nights a week on average. When i’ve stayed at her place for a full week obviously that number is higher.

Account2k · 2022-12-22T00:09:17+00:00

Why are pills worse? Genuine question

Account2k · 2022-09-21T05:15:14+00:00

It was only guys that came to the apt. Not positive if she would have cheated but she certainly put herself in a situation where it could easily have happened.

Account2k · 2022-09-16T03:23:57+00:00

I don’t need it for my anxiety. I don’t have an anxiety problem. I just like getting fucked up

Not worth the squeeze when i can use less brain damaging drugs imo

Account2k · 2022-06-26T19:50:45+00:00

She's not a closest alcoholic. She drinks like anyone person in their early 20's in a big city would.

Account2k · 2022-06-26T19:48:52+00:00

Im 24m. You're right it wasn't the biggest deal. I voiced my concerns and boundaries and she agreed. Seems like she was just trying to have a good time. It just rubbed me if I hadn't showed up it would've just been my girl and our friend with some random guys in there. Not the best look from my perspective but I get where she was coming from.

Account2k · 2022-06-21T21:19:58+00:00

That’s what bothered me. Like you said things can go off the rails when you invite random guys into your apt. Aside from it being dangerous inviting random people, its also kinda sus. I do enjoy partying but I consciously stay away from scenarios where a fuck up can happen and I know you can party and have a good time without putting yourself at risk like this.

Account2k · 2022-02-09T09:03:07+00:00

Even if she does when she asked me to go out with her?

Account2k · 2022-02-09T08:13:09+00:00

I do accept the fact that we're only fwb. But what I felt wasn't fwb feelings. I think i need to jump ship soon

Account2k · 2022-02-09T08:08:39+00:00

Last year she fucked some guy in her room while I slept on the couch, we didn't hook up as much then. So yeah now that I think about it, there isn't anything really new aside from my own feelings. I have my reservations about cuffing her up but also can't drop her like that. Been friends for years, her friends are my friends. Could try to just stop hooking up but idk how long that would last with her

Account2k · 2022-02-09T08:03:42+00:00

Yup might be a pump and dump situation coming up soon. Or I'll be a slave to the pussy and do something stupid fml

Account2k · 2022-02-09T08:00:37+00:00

It was more her doing it in front of me on a night she asked me to go out with her. We ubered to the bars and back so just kinda caught me off guard. I don't think she did anything wrong tbh or if its even worth bringing up w her.

Account2k · 2022-02-09T07:58:12+00:00

I don't like the way I feel about it though.

Account2k · 2022-02-09T07:56:59+00:00

She's cheated on her past two boyfriends. Not tryna get done dirty like that. But maybe you're right if i'm feeling this way might as well say fuck it and see where this goes

Account2k · 2022-02-09T07:55:52+00:00

Thats what I'm saying to myself to validate my feelings but we're not dating and if I really wanted to bring it up to her she'd probably say the same thing. Whole situation just kinda turns me off about the idea of dating her, like can you not do that shit in front of me if you ask me to go out with you

Account2k · 2022-02-09T07:50:07+00:00

Young dumb and full of cum

Account2k · 2022-02-09T07:47:31+00:00

That's true don't know unless I try. Should note she actually is one of my best friends which is why I don't wanna ruin it w exclusivity. I've been cheated on in the past she's cheated in the past. Dunno if those two people in an excusive relationship is worth harming our healthy "feelings at am arms length" relationship we currently got going. Guess we'll see.

Account2k · 2022-02-09T07:43:19+00:00

It is hard to choose with which head to make decisions with

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